| GIRL TROUBLE |
| The first girl in my life was Kristi, She was my childhood sweetheart. Because I entered the Air Force, Our relationship was torn apart. She said she would not wait for me, Because the Air force is a big mistake, Yet knowing that we would always be friends, The Air Force was still the choice to make. In the Air Force I met Tracey, Who eventually became my first wife. All we did was fight and argue, She did manage to destroy my life. Before I married Tracey, I met the Colonel's daughter Kerry. All of our friends had thought, That she's the one I'd marry. After a year had gone by, She moved with her family to Omaha. The long distance took it's toll, She left me for someone there she saw. I cannot forget about Melissa, With her I could not be sure. Sometimes she seemed so confident, Although she was truly insecure. So thus I married Tracey, Who by this time had a son. Oh how I wish I'd never met her, I wish I could undo what has been done. With her I made a big mistake, Thinking having a child would bring us together. I was wrong, so we got a divorce, Which became final only when I met Heather. But before I met Heather, Yes, while I was still married. I met this girl named Randi, My truths to her,--they varied. I told her the truth about Tracey, I told her I was trying to get the divorce. Because I did not get one fast enough, She could no longer stay with me, of course. I was with Randi for eighteen months, I wanted to always be with her. But because of Tracey she left me, As later so too would Heather. Heather to me was everything, She was beautiful, successful and smart. I had no idea that six months after marriage, She would completely break my Heart. She and I were together, Eighteen months before our wedding day. I never thought I'd Love again, When two days after Christmas, she went away. For a year I stayed alone, The first without a woman to be there. I thought all of my chances gone, because loving me, no one could bear. And then, I would meet Vedra, I would completely fall in Love **AGAIN**, Was she going to be mine, forever? Was she going to love me from within? Of course, now would come the problems, Vedra's past has come into the picture. She is being mentally hurt by her ex-husband, And now I can no longer be with her. Unfortunately I am taking this hard, Because I just want someone who loves me. Someone who will put all else aside, When it comes to Loving unconditionally. I want her to deal with the problems, But communicate, and help me understand. That when all of the problems are over, She'll want me, because I am her man. I know that that's not the case, She is gently forcing me out of her heart. She will never come back to me again, I should have known this from the start. I am not allowed to be happy, To be able to love and be loved, completely. But stupid me, I'll keep trying, Try to prove myself wrong, and fall in love again deeply. |
| PoetJay |