Trust Me....

You had that look in your eyes
there was something there
along with the smile you gave
I never saw them, 
for you were so nice to me....

"Trust me," you said, "Trust me...."

It was just in friendship, 
the hug you gave me;
well, that's what you said,
but it all happened so quick ~
you touched me....what was happening?

"Touch me" you said, "Touch me...."

I felt trapped;
I couldn't fight you
you were too strong for me
you held me close to you so tight
and whispered to me....

"Hold me" you said, "Hold me...."

I felt the tears;
I was confused
but you told me it was alright
then you kissed me and caressed me
....what could I do?

"Kiss me," you said, "Kiss me...."

I felt a passion inside me,
confusing my emotions more;
it wasn't right, but you told me that it would be fine ~
it felt good to be in your arms,
all I wanted was some love....

"Love me," I cried, "Love me...."

But it wasn't something serious for you
and I was just a fling ~
the memories are daunting, but do you care?
while outside I'm smiling,
inside I'm hurting;
but I guess you'll never really know
what you did to me....

"Leave me," I said, "Leave me...."

© Christina
December, 1989

"This was probably my first experience with the "real world" after leaving school. I had met someone who worked in the same Dept. as me, and though he was married (firstly, that went against everything I believed in), he was kind to me, and I was naive. I was flattered by the attention he gave me, though thoroughly confused with it all. I was in love with being in love, and I wanted to be wanted. Later I found him playing the same game with another young girl my age in the Dept., and I knew then that it had never been serious for him. Naturally, I was devastated ~ I was only 17."