I take my life in both my hands/ I look it over but I don’t understand/ its corridors & secret plans/ the futures it conceals/ & I can’t decide if it’s just jerking me around/ denied a horizon, left with sky & ground/ it’s like my voice is buried in the lost & found/ & nothing it speaks is real.
because life lives up to all the clichés/ it’s beautiful & it’s rough/ it’s a road & a river & a death row sentence/ but still it’s never enough/ & you wanted me to be someone’s mother/ well, maybe I’m not that feminine/ you wanted me to be a safe soft sweetheart/ well, maybe I’m not that civilized/ because the seconds are ticking & the clock is dripping/ & we’re no match for the calendar, my friend/ so I’m just trying to live the way my mind intended/ cause I won’t have this day again.
I
take my life for granted sometimes/ trying hard but I can’t seem to find/
reprieve from sensing the weight of time/ the dream that I’ve been wrong/ &
all the words I never wrote/ chords I ignored that fit my note/ the fear I’ll
wake with the world at my throat/ & half my days here gone.
because
life is just like the poets say/ it’s miserable & it’s tough/ it’s a
symphony & a tragedy/ but still it’s never enough/ & you wanted me to
make you feel better/ well, maybe I’m no good at lying/ you wanted me to take
you far away from you/ well, I never could hide when I’m crying/ because the
night is burning & my soul is yearning/ & we are no match for entropy,
my friend/ so I’m just trying to live the way God intended/ cause I won’t pass
this way again.
I
take my life & let it fall/ thinking of endings, staring at the wall/
wondering how did I get so small/ cause this is not a dress rehearsal/ & I
am so tired to be so young/ I have too much to give to feel so numb/ but I will
survive, I will become/ I’ll find this love is universal.
because
love is life & life is pain/ it’s more trouble than it’s worth, this stuff/
it’ll make you regret a thousand things/ but still it’s never enough/ cause I
will complicate you, I will dominate you/ but I will always be genuine/ I won’t
know how to treat you but I will complete you/ & I will always be by your
side/ cause I’m reaching for you though I don’t know who you are/ we’re no
match for one another, my friend/ but all I know is if I live the way my heart
intended/ I will never be the same again.
Copyright (c) 2001 by Beth Kinderman. This is my original work, so please respect it.