Happy
Ever After (After All)
as a girl so longingly I’d often look/ through dog-eared pages of a battered storybook/ I’d dream I were lovely/ royal & desired/ awaiting my true love from the top of a spire.
but
now that I am grown I am amazed to find/ how close to fantasy I shaped my
secret mind/ locked up in this castle/ but oh what a view/ from which I pine
most of the time & wait to be rescued.
(chorus)
I’ve been lonely/ I’ve been trapped/ I’ve been holding everything back/ fell in
love with perfection/ it didn’t return my calls/ so maybe what I really need/
is not to want a happy ever after/ after all.
but
when I get the blueprints out I realize/ the place in which I find myself is no
surprise/ my heart built this tower/ my hands built this wall/ I must learn my
own weakness or it will not fall.
the
stones are worn where one man tried to get inside/ it was so wrong we came so
close I tried to hide/ but that’s in the past now/ what I want today/ is a
knight in tarnished armor who will carry me away. (chorus)
sometimes
it’s so quiet/ sitting on that gilded throne/ walking marble halls at midnight/
will I always be alone?/ but now a voice is crying/ we’ll all come to love
eventually/ but maybe not as rulers/ maybe as a refugee/ so why should I think
this is a race/ or a game that I can win/ I’ll embrace the cracks in
everything/ & let the light come in.
it’s
fine that you would be transformed so willingly/ but what I really want is
someone who’d stay a beast for me/ won’t you be astonished/ when you finally
arrive/ to see me slaying my own dragons I’m alone I’m alive. (chorus)
Copyright (c) 2001 by Beth Kinderman. This is my original work, so please respect it.