But Not For Me
isn't it amusing/ when things turn out the
way you plan them?/ isn't it amazing?/ I'm just what you expected/ cause we've
been lying here for years/ with our ears to the ground/ to evaporate like
water/ from this wonder we have found/ wondering who could ever break this
brain chain/ wondering what could ever stop this gravy train/ & perhaps it
is time I quit derailing mine/ cause I've come to conclude that there is life
here.
isn't it preposterous/ the things we do to
get attention?/ isn't it precarious?/ I'm aching in your direction/ cause we've
been in this room for hours/ empty words, empty hands/ screaming it in silence/
hoping neither understands/ hoping we can bury our hearts in the dirt/ hoping
we drop it & no one gets hurt/ & perhaps it is time that I let go of
mine/ cause I've come to conclude that there is beauty here.
isn't it ridiculous/ how soon we become
enchanted?/ isn't it really just like us?/ me taking us for granted/ cause I've
been in a haze for days/ phasing out beneath your skin/ a fingerprint moment/
when your icy face gives in/ but I gave in to your agate worldview/ & all
you ever gave me was the stomach flu/ & perhaps it is time I took back what
was mine/ cause I've come to conclude that there is love here.
I'd find a way to keep you, & keep our
distance strong. If only I could keep you without knowing you were wrong. I'd
find a way to hold you, in memory & such. If I could only hold you without
having to be touched.
isn't it a crime/ how fast our world has
turned around again?/ isn't it about time?/ we couldn't lose, I couldn't
win/ cause so many things end in spring/ with the motion of poetry/ &
I've sung so many sad songs/ I'm expecting a tragedy/ it's in your hands &
I expect it's in your heart/ it's in your eyes when you tell me "don't you
think maybe you & me should spend some time apart?"/ & perhaps it
is time that I found it in mine/ cause I've come to believe there is a whole
new world here...
But Not For Me.
Copyright (c) 2000 by Beth Kinderman. This is
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