My Darkness
by Nick E. Costantino
I look deep into the abyss of my soul to find light amongst the darkness,
I search high and low not seeing anything but a bizarre twisted mess.
I've attempted to live my life the best I thought I possibly could,
With trial and error, good and bad, everything I thought I should.
I take the step forward thinking I will be making the right choices,
Only to take that two steps back, drug down by my head voices.
They tryed to warn me, told me to proceed with caution and care,
When will I learn? I am nothing special, just another man to compare.
When something better comes along then I'm tossed aside like trash,
Someone better looking, better body, or just makes more cash.
It seems like people never take a deep hard look at the person within,
Maybe if they did no one would be dying to be perfect, tan and thin.
I am who I am, I can't change that to please anyone nor should I,
I guess if you can't accept someone as they are, ask yourself why.
Did I care too much? Or did I show you too much affection?
You would think by now that I would be used to this rejection.
My heart is still here, maybe just in a few more pieces then before,
I guess it is my fault because on my sleeve is where it was wore.
Maybe one day someone will accept me and allow this heart to mend,
If that does ever happen then the light will shine and my darkness will end!