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A hot day in August....
Some time has passed since the day I came to KMLA. There are a lot of things that I want to say, mostly because of the new environment. Dormitory life; getting up at 6 o'clock; keeping the English Only Policy; and a lot of rules; self-studying till 12 o'clock or later.... The first thought which came to my mind on day one was, "What a good place this is!". A few days later, however, it became "Why did I come here?". Even through the tough and hard days of this life, though I have found a single thing that made me go on and on....
On one particularly exhausting day in Mr. Johnson's class, I looked up at the whiteboard and saw these words written there, "What inspires you, today?" There was a kind of pang; on the back of my head at that moment. I suddenly wanted to find out what did inspired me that day. So I went along with my classes, up till the final 8th period; but I couldn't find a single thing that inspired me. I started to feel that all of the confidence inside me was draining out, that the buisy and hard life here was only making me more and more empty inside.
This went on to the next day. I went to class and sat down on the chair, still thinking about the words on the white board. Was there really nothing that filled me up inside more faster than the draining feeling to keep watering me full and complete? During my wandering, another class started and the teacher began to address the class.
At that moment a very small and faint voice in my head was saying "Someone or something, please give me a reason to stay happy and give me confidence and strength to stay alive!!!". After our class had covered some ground, we started to have a conversation with our teacher(of course, a conversation that had nothing to do with our study). We talked about our true thoughts about the school, how we liked it and enjoyed life here. But the strange thing was that, while we were having a good time with our teachers, the empty feeling in my body disapeared. It was no longer there.
Then I realized what was the "true" thing that inspired me every day. It was the bond between all of the teachers and the students. The advice given from the teachers every day was the generative power of our mental health, replenishing and refreshing us every day. And by our teachers advice we were able to get in touch with the knowledge of life from experienced people. And by that we were capable of living a life full of wisdom.........
...............As some time go by..................
Epilogue
November 9. KMLA Library online computer
I'm finishing this essay, now, in Mr Johnson's class, with the help of this computer I am using to put these notes online. A few weeks after I found out what at least inspired me during the hot exhausting month of August, I found another sentence on the white board "What is most important to you?"... Maybe Mr. Jhnson wrote in on the white board for me to see and think about, myself. Or it just might be a coincidence that I saw it. But now I can at least confidently give the answer to that question.....
An Afterword
I wrote this essay inspired by the words on the white board in Mr. Johnson's classroom. Just by seeing those words and thinking about it the words helped me to find a way through the tough life of KMLA. I would like to give thanks to Mr. Johnson through this essay....
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