THOUGHTS
I saw you yesterday at the mall. I turned hoping that you would notice me enough to get even a quick hello but I guess I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up that high because once again I've landed on my face. But that's okay, seems the same as the other days when I would fall and yet pick myself up again only to realize that I would soon fall another time. I saw you holding her hand. So the rumors I've been hearing about weren't just any plain gossip. They were the truth. And once again, I was the one left behind.
I just wanted to tell you I miss you. I miss your smile and the way you look at me. I miss the times we spent together. I know she has you now -- lucky her! I miss talking to you. I guess ever since she entered into the picture, you just haven't had much time lately for anyone else. But that's okay because I know that she comes first. She, at this moment, is your number one priority. And the rest of the world comes second. That is if you still recall if all others exist. She's your world now and I am so helpless. I feel so alone.
But I am happy for you and for her. I'm happy that you found what you were looking for. I'm happy that you found happiness with her. I'm happy for you. And though it's really hard on my part, I have to accept all of this because somewhere during the course of our friendship, I fell. I meant to say that I've fallen for you but just never had the courage to tell you that you became my world, you were my sun and my moon. You were my number one priority, but I guess I failed to mention that to you. But I was wondering though -- If I did, would you have taken the time to listen? Would you have at least looked at me as someone who could be more than just your friend? I wonder....