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| I FINALLY LEARNED | ||||||||||||
| It wasn't supposed to be like this. It was supposed to be you and me living happily ever after. But life is full of unexpected twists and turns. Remember all the promises that we made to each other that we someday hoped to fulfill. The dreams that we both imagined to someday become reality for the both of us. We were going to be together forever, remember. We were going to get married, live together, and maybe even have a family. We were going to decide our future together. We were going to take each step towards eternity together. That meaning you by my side, and I by yours. That whatever challenge life presented to us, we will tackle it together. Planning each strategy to take carefully so as the problem won't come between us. It won't tear us apart. Because we were a couple. We were two individuals that time has managed to bring together and intertwine. We were bonded to be one. You for me and I for you, remember. We made that promise to each other that no matter what, we'll be there for each other. No matter what we won't let go. No matter what we will stand the test of time and come out hand in hand as when we started. | ||||||||||||
| But one day, just as life has normally done, life presented us with a challenge. And as always, I geared up to suppress it. To grip it and nip its ugly head off. And as I was about to do that, I discovered one thing. I discovered that I was all alone. That you weren't at my side. That you weren't behind me nor in front of me. In fact, you were nowhere to be found. Where were you when I needed you the most? Where were you when I needed someone to hold my hand and I discovered that you had let go of mine? Where were you when I needed to lean on somebody and I was left hanging like a piece of leaf dangling from a tree come fall season? I looked but you weren't there. You weren't there to give me confidence and strength. You weren't there to assure me that the storm will pass. You weren't there to tell me that it will be fine. You weren't there for me when I needed a shoulder to lean and cry on. You weren't there when I needed to confide in you. All of a sudden, I realized that you had let go of my hand. You had let go of your promise to stand by me through thick and thin. I realized that you had let go, period. | ||||||||||||
| And yet as I sit here now and think of the reason why you did what you did. Nothing comes to mind. Was I unworthy of your love that you chose to dump me like garbage? Or were you just disgusted with me? Still I can't help but wonder why because I don't think I did anything wrong. Up to now, it still puzzles me that one day you just decided you don't love me anymore. And maybe that is the reason why you let go. | ||||||||||||
| And now I come to a certain conclusion: That I am not the bad guy in this story. That I was the victim of your so called love. That I wasn't the one who chose to let go of what we had together. What we had was something special, I can't deny that. Something that will always be a part of me. Something that will live with me until the day I die. But you just can't expect me to forget everything that I went through, which at times were especially hard because I had to face them all by myself. No one was there to tell me that I will make it through. And no one was there to fill in the hole that you created in my heart. A hole that time can't completely heal. Maybe it can be filled, but in my eyes, it is forever scarred. So now after thinking to myself regarding forgiving you of your mistakes and coming back into my life. I can finally look you straight in the eye and say, ";Sorry, I do love you but just like you, I finally learned to let go!" | ||||||||||||
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