fake plastic trees message board

man, this thing was cool. i think i'm going to bring it back. well, maybe, but i think so. eventually.

july 22, 2003

hey, i remember this place. i'd recommend going to my diaryland page if you ever enjoyed reading this stuff.

october 24th, 2001.

i put up two more, i think. i can't remember if i included the ones that i listed the last time i updated.. yes. journal

october 23rd, 2001.

on an incredible roll. put up two entries. not impressive. will put up more later. probably. don't count on it.

october 19th, 2001.

ha! i put up another entry. i am good, am i not? click won't you?

october 18th, 2001.

i put an entry. it's in the journal.. in case you had forgotten that i have one. it's from august 31st. read it, it's dumb. especially since it relies on september 1st for any relevancy.. so, um, just wait for me to put that one up too. i don't feel like finishing the new design and having to transfer everything over.. so i'm not going to do it for a while. i kinda like the new one.. i kinda don't. right.

october 07th, 2001.

working and working and working and working and working and working.

new design underway. trying new things.

september 21st, 2001.

go away.

september 17th, 2001.

"jesus christ, look at the state of him"

i feel absolutely terrible. wretched even. my head feels like the world is landing on it. this does not make it happy. plus my guts hurt. very very tired. roughly 18-20 hours of sleep for the past 4 days. i am most unhealthy.

thank god my monday 8 o'clock discussion is now canceled. apparently the school thinks that a discussion with only three people is not useful. now i don't have to get up until 11:50 everyday. and class doesn't start until 12:20.. this is not preparing me for the real world.

..say the right things.

september 15th, 2001.

i think i'll write in you soon. maybe you'll become my friend again. you traitorous bastard!

you're too difficult to write in.. i should've got a diaryland page.. thus ensuring easiness.

i've typed up august 31st, and september 1st (which is the aftermath of when my car broke down..)

september 14th, 2001.

(september 12th, 2001.)

my life and why i was almost arrested by the police.

you're gonna love this. just wait.

september 11th, 2001.

i feel very ill about all this.

it felt like i was watching some shitty movie.. i have never felt more sick about something. i spent about 5 hours watching the news.. from 9:30 to 2:30.. i skipped a calculus discussion. the only reason i went to my english class was the hope that we would talk about it. of course, we did not. class went on as usual. the smile remained the same.

over my shoulder, a piano falls, crashing to the ground.

i think i'll go outside.

september 9th, 2001.

i have many things i wish to write about.. but no time currently. for instance, a popular topic for journals is "love".. well, i suppose i have something to say.. even if it's already been said.

plus i think i'll write about my friends (which is you reading this..) in a journal. i hardly ever seem to do that. that's very rude of me.

september 9th, 2001.

i hope you're all fucking happy (the three or so of you). i finally updated my journal... it's fat-packed with info-tainment. nah. it's not.

i'm gonna type up some of the other entries that i didn't scan in.

september 7th, 2001.

essentially, we're good to go.

everything's done.. except the actual linking part.. but i have a computer science assignment due shortly... so i must work on it. tonight maybe.. i have some other entries to type up.. i've given up on scanning them... too much work for the same effect.

i hope you're not expecting something neat.. what i've got really isn't.

september 3rd, 2001.

in the evening..

all the things are uploaded, but not fully formatted.. so i'm not putting them up yet.

but if you're a particularly adept bunny, i'm sure you could find them. but don't. i won't like you. and i have ways to find out who you are. no meddling!

september 3rd, 2001.

i will update. promise.

soon maybe..

it keeps taking longer because i write more and more.. and then i have to scan those entries in.. and then. ah fuck it.

i'll get to it when i get to it.

august 29, 2001.

i scanned in most of the stuff that i've written the past couple of days. however, they're at andy's dorm, because i don't have a scanner and he didn't have a cd for me to put them on (i scanned them in a high resolution and didn't feel like lowering them with his mac).. i hope to have them up soon.

i'm going home this weekend. josh and gabe are throwing a party for andy and i. i think it's our going away party, even though we already left.

i really want to cut my hair.

august 22, 2001.

i'm at college. i'm semi-lonely, and i came close to having a panic attack a little while ago. it was the feeling that i was alone (me roommate had left) and that i could contact no one that i know (my ethernet connection was not running at the time) that did me in.

then andy came and i had found a friend.

i'm sure this place is nice.. but it's not my home. it never will be, but hopefully it will grow comfortably under my skin. or else i'll go fucking nuts. and get an apartment with andy.

it's weird to be here with nothing to do.. i feel like i should be doing something. of course, there's no way you'd get me to.

must go.

august 16, 2001.

i edited some of the journal entries. put some stuff back in that i had previously taken out. they're my thoughts and i don't give a fuck!

yes, indeed.

i'll do more work later when i'm not so tired.

august 15, 2001.

later.

put up an august 15 journal. not recommended.

early.

i've updated the journal page again.. this time with a couple more older entries. i know i said i uploaded them all but one.. i lied. go away.

i like my message board..

august 14, 2001.

later, apparently. (i didn't think i updated this today..)

i put up the new me page. it's not very organized.. so i'll change it later.

august 14, 2001.

another journal entry.. i have a messageboard now. i'm too lazy to link it on all my pages though. waitwait. i did it now.

and i'm redoing the me page.. it'll be clever and informative! trust me.

august 13, 2001.

i put up some more journal entries.. all the old ones are now up. except one.. but don't even think about it.

that's all for now.

august 3, 2001.

i actually put up a journal entry.. it's not quite good.. but you can look at it in spite of my deficiencies. just click here.. or you could just go to the journal page.. or you could not look at it at all.

right, bye.

sometime in july.

ok, i got sick of the previous message that i had here.. so i'm.......... updating it.

i updated the me page (well, not recently.. but whatever).. so i suppose you could check that out, if you are like me and disapprove of christian schools.. it's good clean fun. and i don't think i cuss very much!

fuck. i had something i wanted to say, but that paragraph took too long to write.

anyway... i have a picture on the animals page. plus a small bit of information about the kitties that live here with me.

i'll try to put up the friends page.. i have funny ideas for that, so it should be good.

the music page is far too broad; i doubt i'll ever get anything done with it.. so don't even bother.

i'm feeling rather insecure about uploading my journal here.. so don't expect anything for a little while. i plan on putting a censored version for everyone to see, and an uncensored version for my friends to see (this version is harmful to the people i am currently acquainted with, thus i have inhibitions about putting it up).

i don't really know what the others section is about. i assume i'll put up stuff about my family there (and i do have a bit to tell..)

uh.. please come back!.. everyday in fact. (i love looking at my stats.. i'm sick and shallow that way.. they're at the bottom of the page, if you wish to look. it's very sad, currently)

i apologize for being conceited about this.. but i'm proud of this design. it's not perfect at all.. but it's a more complete page than i've ever made. and i like it.. which is rare for me, to like something that i've accomplished. i'm a very self-loathing person by nature.. and i can't honestly recall anything other than this that i've personally appreciated.. not even my journal, which is a collection of my thoughts.. this makes me sad.

it's okay, you know i love you anyway.
it's okay, my life begins today.