You don't wanna think.
You don't wanna feel.
You don't wanna live.

You wanna shrivel up and die.
You wish you never existed.
You feel numb and yet there's a giant storm of
Emotions brewing inside you.

You cry for no reason
All day, every day.

You don't sleep.
You don't eat.
You become anti-social.

Then you start to think bad thoughts
And soon enough you start to act on
Those thoughts.

Then you realize how much you're hurting people
The people who love you
And then you feel worse
And you wanna die.

You start to push everyone away
So you don't hurt them anymore
But then you feel even more alone
And the storm inside you becomes more intense.

And you become a total mess
And your life consists of stress and tears
It's a constant struggle to get up everyday
And it's also a struggle to go to bed at night
Because you're afraid of what you'll dream.

And soon you become afraid of a lot of things
Like people and places
But most of all you get scared of yourself.

You live in fear because you don't understand
Anything anymore
You don't understand your friends and family
But most of all you don't understand yourself.

And the storm inside of you gets bigger
And it brews and churns until it gets dangerous
Then soon you can't control it
And you can't hide it
And you become more numb on the outside
While on the inside you're falling apart.

Then one day you can't take it anymore
And you lose complete control over everything
And you'll do anything to make it stop
But you can't because there's no way out
Except death.

But you can't do that cause you know
It'll only hurt the others worse
And so you're torn between two choices
Stay or leave.

Some stay and some leave
As for me I don't know what to do
I'm scared and I'm lost
And I want it to just
stop.

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