Was there ever such a time as this
When all I needed to feel was bliss
But bliss, it left me long ago
Now loneliness is all I know
These things I'm feeling are hard to define
What is now lost used to be mine
I lost something, something I need
I keep on searching on an unsteady steed
Slightly shaky, slightly pale
Eyes sunken and swollen, breath slightly stale
Seemingly weak, looking so lost
I know I'm strong, covered in frost
Cold and battered I journey on through
Twisting and turning, seeking a clue
This world is hazy, covered in clouds
Dark and morbid, but suddenly I'm proud
Of myself and my mind and my whole being
And yet if I'm proud then why am I fleeing
Frightened of this world I've brought myself to
But now where's the exit, the only way through
This place I'm in is a state of mind
Nobody sees it, it's one of a kind
I'm thankful for that, though, because I would never
Wish my worst enemy upon this endeavor
I want to leave the fog behind
I need to change these thoughts in my mind
But instead I keep searching, looking, and fearing
And suddenly I feel my eyes start burning, tearing
And the droplets fall silently to the ground
I drop to my knees and I look around
At the place I live in, this world so cold
But inside me there's a yearning, a fire that's old
A fire that's screaming inside of me
A fire that will die if it isn't set free
Almost burned out I try in vain
To save this tiny, flickering flame
I try to regain my peace and my joy
But this world, it plays with me like a child with a toy
Messing with my thoughts, playing with my emotions
Trying to play God while I drown in its oceans
Suddenly the water douses the flame
And I fall to the bottom, screaming in shame
This burden is over, my worries are gone
My own selfish existence will be forgotten by dawn
The fire is out, there's nothing left to say
Please forgive me, and start a new day.
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