Naked and steeped
like tea
In the blue electronic glow
of the computer screen
wincing - or perhaps sighing
scrubbing the letters of your name
from my skin
ruthlessly -
in vain.

The broad plains of my body
tender and wheatless
spelling your name in invisible callouses
along all the plotted paths
You cultivated so well
while wincing - or perhaps sighing
pursuing pleasure
ruthlessly, yet somehow -
in pain.

seek pleasure, avoid pain!
my hedonistic heart
Can't understand,
will never understand -
How it could be so surprisingly sweet
Yet, all at once
Be so dreadfully distasteful

Naked and steeped
scrubbing the letters of your name
tender and wheatless -
Pain and pleasure
incomprehensively interwoven

I know, but don't understand
That the poignant fact is
We will only ever seek it
in vain -
in pain.