apologies for not updating sooner. ive had an interesting week. last weekend was our church-wide retreat, which was a lot of fun. i had a great time with the youth as well as the little kids...i think that it definitely helped break down some barriers between us all, and we're able to converse more freely. i hope that it will continue to happen. all of this has helped me love my church even more. i really want and pray that the youth will develop and cultivate a love and desire to know God. and i want to help them do it.
as for work, that has been interesting as well. i am beginning to understand why im in the position i am. and it's interesting that God has put me there, because it's really forcing me to learn a lot of things i kind of neglected in college. through walking around for 8 hours a day, 6 days a week, for commission, im learning to not be so frivolous in my spending of money. i am also learning how to set tangible goals, be disciplined, work hard, have self confidence, and have a vision. i guess things i should have developed in college, but didnt. well, now im learning them the hard way, but in the long run it will all pay off, especially if i get promoted through my position. the best part about it is that i have been praying and reading the bible more than during college, and more consistently. i know i need God with me to get through the day, and i dont ever want to fall into the trap and think that i was able to do it all by myself, because God rules my life, regardless of what happens. so all in all, though i dont wanna go to work some days, i know it's teaching me. it's forcing me out of my old, routine, unchallenged life, and hammering me into something different. which could be bad, but i think humility in Christ and constant understanding and reassurance that im nothing (which i get daily) will really help that. but yeah, ive had a very educational few weeks, and it's been rough, but good.