May 16, 2002


so graduation is coming soon, but im not feeling sentimental whatever, like, "oh, it's my last class. it's my last discussion." maybe it's because i don't really care. im not all sad that college is over, but im not really looking forward to post-college life either. i think it has to do with the fact that im a fifth year, so i feel like i shoulda been out already, though i must say, this final year of school has definitely been the most enjoyable, i think, besides my frosh year. also, my not having a job has to do with it, im sure. future uncertainty is not pleasant. not at all. but again, i think it's just a matter of holding out hope, knowing that i will be provided for.
one thing i am excited for, though, is walking this coming friday. getting my cap and gown and all that stuff. i invited all my closest high school friends as well as others, and i expect it to be a fun time. kinda anticlimactic because i still have 3 finals next week, but at least for friday night, it will be fun.
so i went to a jars of clay concert last night, featuring jennifer knapp. it was overall a decent experience. my review here.
i apologize for such a shallow thought. it's 1:42am here in moffitt computer lab, and i will be here for another 7hrs and 18min. i dont much feel like thinking or writing in my usual brilliant prose.

addendum. it's now 4:42am. there are still 18 people here in the lab, typing away. i havent been doing much this whole time...pretty much just surf the net some. isnt there a saying that goes something like, "see how a person spends his time alone and you will know the person" or something like that? im sure i butchered it. but i think it's quite true, in my case. everything comes out then-how unproductive i am. kinda sad. but that's all i'll say about that. im getting carpel tunnel. no more typing.

addendum part 2. it's now 6:05pm. i just got back on shift. im on till 12. this is definitely my longest working day ever. one thing i wanted to comment on was how much star was episode II is getting jacked in the media. on rottentomatoes.com, they showed the movie as having received almost as many poor as good reviews, ranging from mediocre (like Roger Ebert) to even downright bad (from Salon.com). i think it's good that the movie is getting this much negative press. not just because im a lotr fan, but because the critics arent being wowed by the hegemonic appeal of george lucas, and seeing the movie for what it is (i havent seen it, but i predict it will be this way)--poorly acted with a bad script, but great visuals. this can be seen from the previews alone. of course, im going to help pay lucas' phone bill, but this doesnt mean i will accept this movie as the second coming of lord of the rings :) at the same time, im sure there are underlying currents in the writings of the critics. nothing is as it seems in the world, right? i think the critics are giving star wars a good bashing because it's fun to hate on the successful one--especially if theyre a money grubber like george lucas, who wont release dvd's of his movies until way later so eveyrone will buy the vhs and dvd. jacker. i fully acknowledge that i feel this way about the yankees and lakers, and the jordan-led bulls. anyway, again, not that the movie isnt deserving of poor marks, but i wouldnt be surprised if the critics' feelings seeped in there. lucas does things his own way. his own lucrative way. darn it, it works. but it does open him up for criticism. he deserves it :p

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