February 4, 2002


im so judgemental. it's not a good thing, especially since i have such a huge plank in my eye. i guess it's just hard for me to accept that different Christians have different freedoms in that they are convicted by different things. i shouldnt be too concerned with other people's business, considering i have so much myself to work out. so that's what i learned in yesterday's sermon. good stuff. something i really needed to hear.
man. i write about the same stuff over and over. i guess my life is that routine. but i just noticed that i wrote about being judgemental last month. oops. oh well. i guess it's better that i am reminded of it, so i can stop doing it. but darn it, it's hard to change the way i think. i need to examine more closely what's going on inside my heart rather than scrutinizing every drink, rude word, or whatever else others may do.

oh, the superbowl. it was a pretty good game...belichek is a good coach, keeping the rams off balance nearly the entire game, it seems. it was pretty exciting, im glad i got to see it. unfortunately, the rams lost, which i was mildly sad about. i was rooting for them because i think it's cool that kurt warner is in there, and the fact that the patriots cheated their way in there with that win over the raiders makes me dislike them. but oh well...it was a thrilling game, with a thrilling end.

so im re-updating this thought for the 3rd time tonight...i guess it's a really slow day at work...anyway, george chong wrote about being disappointed because of sports, and the pain that brings. i totally know how he feels, especially because no team i follow closely in any of the major sports has won it all since ive been following sports. at least he's got the diamondbacks. it's kinda sad...there's been some close moments, like the 1998 world series, when the indians were 2 outs away from winning it, and i in 1998, when the ohio state buckeyes were the #1 ranked football team but were upset by michigan state, and ended the season with one loss and the #2 ranking. the pain isnt so great that i want to end my life or anything that severe, but it does hurt. but i cant imagine how the players themselves must feel...the anguish. i remember mike hargrove (then the manager of the indians) said that he would never get over that world series loss to the marlins, that it would hurt at least until the following season began. and when those scenes are replayed on espn or something...man...it must just reopen those old wounds of loss. but that's what drives many of these players, i think. they push themselves to be better, stronger, more skilled, so that the next time around, they wont be as tired, or have better focus, or not be injured. it's great to see them play with such determination.

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