Ok. Well, after a month of no thoughts, I am writing my second in recent days because I have something to write about, and as I am currently jobless, I have the time. It's not a pleasant topic by any means, but I feel like talking about it because by putting it on paper, I can see what I'm thinking. So here goes. There are some people I know who I cannot stand being around. The first hint of their voice or sight of their presence makes me think "Oh great, here's X. My mood is automatically changed from happy to less happy because they are around." It is not necessarily because they are mean to me, and so I dislike them, but it's because I don't like the way they present themselves via the things they say or behave, and so reveal how they think. And how they think does not jive with me. So they anger me. But the thing is, I am nice to them when I see them, because they were not mean to me in the first place. I'm sure you're thinking that I am being immature and yeah, I am.
Now that I have stated my problem, I need to solve it. I know that the Bible has lots to say about anger, and holding grudges. Leviticus 19:18 says "You shall not take vengeance, nor bear any grudge against the sons of your people, but you shall love your neighbor as yourself; I am the LORD." (NASB) Pretty clear. Ephesians 4:25-27 says "Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. 'In your anger do not sin': Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold." (NIV) Humbling in order? Seems so. Ok. I should go pray. I have lots to pray for, including a change of heart.