Pacey's Journal, Entry Six
Don't make her choose? Doesn't she realize by not choosing she has made her
choice. She chose him. Even after everything he did she still loves him.
He's still her soul mate. So what does that make me? A mistake? A swerve
off the road of the ultimate path? A pit stop on her way to her true
destiny? She'll never love me like that. Hell, she'll probably never love me
period. She still loves him.
Dawson. I can't believe that guy. I mean what was he trying to prove
today? He got what he wanted. Joey isn't with me anymore. Hell, she won't
even go near me anymore. Can't he just be happy with that? Can't he just be
happy with the fact that his friendship means more to her than I do? I knew
Dawson would be angry when he found out about us, but I thought are
friendship meant something to him. That he knew me well enough to know that
I never wanted to love her, and that I I would only do this to him because I
loved her. But to Dawson I just want sex. The guy I call my best friend
doesn't know me at all. I would never risk our friendship for sex.
I screwed up. I realize that. I should have told him sooner, but I know
now that it wouldn't have mattered. The outcome would be the same. Dawson
wins again, and I lose. I lose everything. But I still have True Love. I
don't know why I named my boat that. I mean I was being cynical when I said
it was an unattainable idea, but now I'm not sure. Now I don't think it
exists. At least not for me, and not for me and Joey.
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