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My body becomes paralyzed; the pain is numbed, consumed with lies. How long till I get high, I have already done 11 lines, one more down, watering my eyes, I begin to cry. Live for this pain every waking hour, am losing my mind? How many lifetimes must I walk this earth searching to find, the inner truths that people have left behind, so anxious I am to store them in my mind, confined to such a narrow minded world, when will I run out of time? |
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Bruises and Scars of self inflicted pain, pouring out my insides like the thunder does the rain, first the loud boom when shit goes insane, then pours the sadness into my drain. The drops of blood become harder to contain. How long will it take my mind to be tamed? How long before I become a normal piece in this game, how much longer will I be used to ease your pain. I walk around selfless; I walk around with these blank tears. I am sick of saying there is nothing to fear, I am scared of the damage that?s been done these past years. How much longer can I survive here? I can?t pretend that I am just one of my peers, I have seen things that you can?t even believe appear. |
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You say there is a God that loves me, and yet all I see is pain inside me, no love consumes this sad girl?s feelings. No love is present when she looks for job openings. No love exists in this world of fiends; we use each other to bring some sort of selfish peace, to control the outcome of life?s tease. There is no such thing as trust in a world as corrupt as this, I am sick of putting up with this shit, I am sick of laying down my life for it, for letting people take my heart and trample it, no, I am not the addict that?s so hungry for some self worth, that she pities herself for some sort of attention that she will never really get, all she will get is a fist, a fist in her face, leaving her with hurt and betrayal, trust was running a different pace, with a different race, you allowed yourself to miss the base, all for some fucking lie, like truth and love are under the same sky, the one you stand under every night, praying to a god with constant cries, finding no answers to all your why?s, your left with these bitch ass fucking feelings that are only lies. People like you, I fucking despise. You never learn even after being showed all the ties. For you, no sympathy lies, you should have been wise. Go back to your God and pity yourself and your life. |
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