Thursday, May 8th- 4:30 p.m. \| Mood: Busy \| Music: hide, hide, hide
Bleargh. 1000 apologies for not updating. You all probably thought I was dead. Well, not really, since I see everyone at school. I've been really busy with work, end of school shit, vacation plans, and other stuff, so I haven't had much time to update. Hopefully this summer I'll get back into the habit. So yeah...21 DAYS TILL VACATION!! I have my costume almost completely done, just have to make the shirt. It's great fun. Rachel's getting all her stuff done too. I'm going to pick her up in a bit and we're going to shop for more stuff for her costume. I'd better get gas...I hate spending $$ on gas. Stupid car. Well, I guess it's not stupid. Paul's working tonight. I miss him. I have a LOT of stuff to do for Wester Civ. Stupid Western Civ. Hehe. I'm bitching a lot in this entry, no? Hmm...What else? Oh yeah! Paul bought me the most gorgeous diamond heart necklace. I love it so much. I have the sweetest boyfriend ever. OwowowowowowOWOWcramps. >_< I can't wait till summer. I'm so tired. I need lots of sleep. Oh, here are some pictures of my costume, for anyone who cares. I know Paul wanted to see what it was. These are the best pictures I could find: 1 2 3
Saturday, April 19th- 10:52 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Loser - Beck
yawn Tonight, Rachel and I went to the prom that the school held for the special ed kids. It was so much fun! Those kids are so cute. After that, we wandered around on Main Street for a while. I feel bad. Paul called my cell phone and wanted me to go to his house for a while, but my phone was dead so I didn't get his message. Though I hadn't hung out with Rachel in a long time, so it's good that we did something together. I finally saw Trigun last week, and it was awesome. Very, very cool. I think I'll do a Trigun theme for my page when I get time. I saw Hellsing too, but it wasn't nearly as good. But then I'm one who wants a really good plot and character development in a story. Most of the characters in Hellsing sucked. Seems I should have more to write. Whatever.
Thursday, April 10th - 8:41 p.m. \| Mood: Excited! \| Music: Burnin' for You - Blue Oyster Cult
Yay! I have everything figured out for my hide costume for the convention! I just found the perfect wig, and I have someone making me the hat, and those are the 2 hardest parts. Wahoo! I'm getting so so excited about this. Oh, sorry I haven't been updating much. My computer's gay. I'm also really excited about my English historical novelette, cuz I have a really good idea, and I've started it, and I'm not procrastinating, and I'm thinking it's going to be one of my better stories. Eva ran with her baby in her arms quickly through the night. The brush around her tore at her dress and scraped her legs, yet she kept running for her life and that of her child. The baby's cries echoed throughout the outskirts of the small town. "Hush, my love! You must be quiet!" Eva whimpered. She stopped to try to hide and quiet her child. Lightly brushing her hands over the screaming baby's mouth, she began rocking and singing a quiet tune, as much for herself as for her child. The feel of a gun tapping the back of her head followed by a loud, "Don't move!" quickly silenced her. Sound good? I hope so. Oh my gosh I love my job so much! The last couple of days there, I got to help clean and feed and play with 5 teely 4-week-old kittens. They are the sweetest. I love kittens. And I love Paul.
Sunday, March 30th- 12:37 p.m. \| Mood: Hyperrrrrrerrrrrrrrrer..er \| Music: Drink or Die - hide
The music is appropriate, no? Nihon sake, bourbon, beer ni abusan Jojitsu, doburoku, tequila Nandemo kirai sake motte koi Imasara by�in kawakute sake ga nameru ka Sorenara sanfu jinka de enkai shiyo ka! So anyway...on Friday...what happened Friday? Lemme think. Okay. We (Rachel, Ica, Lena, Michelle, Ashley, Paul, me, and some others) went and saw Pariah's performance at the Midwest Music Pit. It was noisy. After that, Rachel and I went to Michelle's aunt's house to stay the night. Michelle's boyfriend Russell lives in the basement, and that's where we were. A whole bunch of people I don't know were there (and a few I did know). I got completely WASTED, and Rachel got pretty fucked up too. It was fun for a while, then I just threw up. A lot. But drunk was fun! The day after was not fun. Nope, not fun AT ALL. @.@ I am bored. Someone needs to come over and play with meeee... ROCKET DIVE!!! bouncy! fun! spinny....very spinny falls over @__@ so cute . Which hide video are you! brought to you by Quizilla Hi-Ho What hide Song Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
Friday, March 28th- 5:31 p.m. \| Mood: Wistful \| Music: Jaded - Aerosmith
What Is Your X Japan Ballad? Forever love, forever dream... afureru omoi dake ga hageshiku setsunaku jikan o umetsukusu Oh tell me why All I see is blue in my heart... X Japan is the greatest band ever.
Wednesday, March 26th- 11:43 p.m. \| Mood: Silly \| Music: Erode - Dir en grey
Ugh...so, on my way to work today, I ran over this honking huge chunk of concrete in the middle of the road (on Zumbehl). I think it came from the curb. Anyway...I didn't see it in time to get out of the way, which is probably good, cuz I probably would have swerved into another car or something. So I completely blew out my tire and fucked up the rim BAD. And completely murdered my hubcap. o.O Scared the hell out of me. Car kinda went out of control. SOOOO...now I have to get a complete new wheel for that side, and a new tire for the other side, cuz they have to match. I hope Dad's feeling generous and won't make me pay for all that...ouch. To all of those to whom I am a ride bitch, I won't have my car tomorrow. T_T I feel naked. On an off note, check out this really hilarious webpage. I just realized in the last couple of weeks that the tips of my big toes are constantly like, half-numb. That cannot be good. A definite sign I need new shoes. Or better circulation. Not that you can buy THAT... Fuck, now my foot's asleep. I need some new music. I should join a CD club.
Sunday, March 23rd- 9:24 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: none
Wow. So the cops got called to my house because Chris was mooning people while I was driving. Now he isn't allowed in my house or my car. o.O Dad doesn't really want me around him anymore, cuz he says Chris takes advantage of me. I dunno. Heh. Shiloh and Alex little monsters today, as usual. Eh, I love 'em! ^^ But if any of you still see me a few years from now, and I talk about having kids, smack me. Smack me hard. Lena and Ica: Colin and Fox! OMG finally! Whoot. I think I'm gonna get purple contacts. Hmm...that could be fun.
Saturday, March 22nd- 11:14 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Prettly Fly - Offspring
I'm at my sister's house, gonna babysit the kiddos tomorrow. So for anyone who reads this and hasn't been informed, I have spring break activities planned. Yay! Jess takes initiative! One, we're going to play laser tag at Lazer Core in O'Fallon. If we get 8 or more people to go, then it's cheaper for everyone and we can reserve. Second, we're going Go-Karting at the place out on N Hwy 94. The one with the sprint karts ^^. (Though I'm scared that go karts will lose their luster now that I have a car...) And third, we're going to have a pinic. Maybe we'll also finally make it out to Demolition Ball. Yay! Activities we HAVEN'T done, you guys!!!! Anyway...spring break! Woo hoo!!!! I get to sleeeeeeeep.... We got our class rings on Friday. Mine is so neat! Argh...while playing around with Paul last night (no, you perverts...) my glasses got broken. T_T So now I'll either hunt for the same frames, or I'll get contacts. Haven't decided. I'd ask you guys what you think I should do, but it really wouldn't influence my decision all that much. :P Haha, you know I love you all. I miss my baby!!!! sniffle Good god, I do not know how either of us could survive if one of us were to go on vacation or something.
Tuesday, March 18th- 7:59 p.m. \| Mood: Silly \| Music: Stairway to Heaven - Led Zepplin
So, yes, Jessica is dumb. Disregard last entry. If all problems could be solved with two emails, the world would be a wonderful place. Did I ever tell you guys I love this song? Probably so. My cold REALLY needs to go away.
Saturday, March 15th- 12:11 p.m. \| Mood: Confused \| Music: Burn - The Cure
Is it bad that Paul says he wants more time to himself? I kind of automatically take that to mean he doesn't want to spend as much time with me, but I don't think that's right. I dunno. It just seems kind of bad in my mind when he thinks we're spending too much time together... And I guess I shouldn't get sarcastic like I did when I said, "Do you want to come over today, or do you want Paul Time?" Sarcasm is my defense mechanism. (Words that end in ism are cool.) He said he didn't need Paul time, cuz he had Paul and Seth time. Which is why I assume that Paul time means "Without Jessica Time." Oh well, I'm being retarded. I probably overreact. But I just imagine in my mind the two of us spending less and less time together...and I don't think I know how to deal with that. He used to want to be with me all the time. Whatever, It's probably my fault somehow anyway.
Saturday, March 15th- 11:25 a.m. \| Mood: Happier \| Music: Picture - Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow
I GOT A RAT, YOU GUYS!!!! Finally! It's a girl, so if anyone has any cool name suggestions, tell me. I thought Akima was a cool name, but no one likes it except me. Woo! I wanna go to Ozzfest! Who wants to go with me!? RACHEL AND ERICA MADE THE VARSITY CHEERLEADING SQUAD! I am so freaking happy for them. Especially Rachel, cuz she didn't get it last year.
Thursday, March 13th- 9:57 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Genkai Haretsu - hide
Blah. So I've come to the realization that I just CAN NOT afford to make the Mana costume for the convention that I've been planning so long. But I'm almost over it, cuz I'm gonna make a hide costume instead, and it will be much cheaper and a lot less of a hassle. AND my Grandma is dying in Colorado, and no one can afford to take me to go see her. AND I can't afford the equipment needed for the French Rapier fencing class I want to take, cuz the stuff has to be ordered sometime next week. Dad and Mom both have almost no money. AND I have a cold. On a happier note, today was lots of fun. In German, all the freshmen were gone for the ethics seminar thing, and we have a substitute, so our class sat around and talked the entire time. Cath, Austin Bortle, Ryan Eisenbath, and I sat around and made fun of the school. Austin, Ryan, and I also decided that we're going to go to Germany next year and get drunk together. That was random. And in seminar, Kaytee and I goofed off in the Child Development room for a while, cuz it's the coolest room in the school. Paul cane over after school, and we had lots of fun. I love being with him so much. He makes me feel wonderful about myself. Oh! We're finally getting Pipeline! Kiss my arse, AOL!!!!! I feel so bad for Sethy. I love 'Stine, but I don't think she realizes what she's doing to him. So Chris is now in the Yes program, so hopefully he'll stick with that and go back to school next year. Though he says that he'll go to West, which really makes me angry. I think I may have already said this, but I hate all the people at West that he hangs out with. I don't know them, but I hate them anyway. They too my Chris away. His true friends have been replaced by people who get him drunk and probably don't give a rat's ass about his well-being. I am so fucking jealous that they get him when I am the one who fucking cares so much about him! Heh, I don't get all greedy and jealous like that much, so shut up. I can do it every now and then if I want to. Why can't everything just be right with the people I love? Here I go crying again...
Wednesday, March 5th- 8:52 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Swing This - The Apex Theory
Sorry I haven't been updating. Too much to do, too much to doooooo.... I am so fucking exhausted. Sometimes, I wonder if how much I care for all of you will be the end of me someday. Not that that will ever, ever stop me.
Sunday, February 23rd- 5:22 p.m. \| Mood: Sad \| Music: I Believe I Can Fly - R. Kelly
Sorry I haven't updated in so long. Been kinda busy with work and working on costumes for out Julius Caesar video. Guh. My Grandma's really sick. My Mom drove out to COlorado today to see her, but I couldn't go cuz I can't miss a week of school. I'm really afraid that by the time I get to see her, she won't know who I am. I'm gonna call my sister in a bit and see if she wants to drive out there this weekend. Hehe. A really nice girl named Jessica IMed me and said she likes my page. ^^ It's the first person that I don't know who's commented on my site. Yay! Yeah, so my job's going really well; I love it! Um...I guess that's really all. Oh, and I just love how people are stupid.
Sunday, February 16th- 11:06 p.m. \| Mood: Loved \| Music: Cat's in the Cradle - Harry Chapin
I am so incredibly absolutely uncontrollably head-over-heels in looooooove. o.O
Friday, February 14th- 10:00 p.m. \| Mood: Loved \| Music: Engel - Rammstein
Yay! V-Day was great fun. (Even though the day isn't all that great - makes so many people miserable.) Paul bought me balloons today. While I was getting out of the car, my pretty mylar balloon with the bear and the "I love you" on it came off the string and flew away. It made me really upset. I stood there watching the balloon and cursing the people in the Galley who tied the thing. Heh. Then I got Paul's stuff, and went over to his house. I gave him a balloon, a CD, chocolates, and a card I made. He loved the card so much; it almost made him cry. sigh I got a big teddy bear that's the softest thing ever. It's so cute and cuddly. ^_____^ We wanted to go to the park today, but it rained. Then we wanted to go and eat, but we're both broke. So we ended up making macaroni and cheese at my house and falling asleep for a while. Lol. Guh, I have to call Stine tomorrow and see if I can borrow something for stupid Coronation. Bleh. Colleen and Ica's quiz: Tootsie Pop: People have to work at getting to your center, but once they do they'll probably like what they get. What Kind of Candy are You? brought to you by Quizilla I'm sure I got the candy that the assigned to Chris. Heh. They picked peeps for me. (Super sweet and lovable.) And if you have too much of them, they give you CAVITIES! : / Lol.
Thursday, February 13th- 6:50 p.m. \| Mood: Happy \| Music: Eddie Izzard
I GOT THE JOB, YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!! I'M SOOOO EXCITED!!!! Wow. So yeah, Paul and I got walked in on by his mom tonight. o.O She was just like, "Oh, shit. Sorry guys!" I don't think I'll be able to talk to her anymore without turning bright red. Hmm...seems there were three things I wanted to talk about on here...oh well. Did I ever tell you guys I have the best boyfriend ever? I'm so lucky! ^^ I can't wait till Valentine's Day tomorrow.
Wednesday, February 12th- 6:50 p.m. \| Mood: Depressed \| Music: Could've Been Me - Billy Ray Cyrus
"Wish I could prove I love you But does that mean I have to walk on water? When we are older you�ll understand. It�s enough when I say so. And maybe some things are that simple." Amen. So, Hot-Fucking-Topic wouldn't give me a refund for my dress today. Paul doesn't like it much, and though he told me he wanted me to keep it cuz I like it, I know I'll be thinking about how he doesn't like it for the entire dance. So I'm completely fucking broke (damn gas), and I have nothing to wear to Coronation. I think I'll see if I can borrow something from Christine, because she has enough clothing for a small country. On a better note, I got Paul's V-Day stuff and I'm really happy and I think he'll really like it. ^^ God, I feel like crying again, and I have no idea why. I really hate when I get in these depressed moods... everything seems so hopeless and stupid and I feel useless and ugly and it just makes me want to curl up in my bed and cry and cry and never come out and... I need a hug. It's so cold in here...
Tuesday, February 11th- 9:29 p.m. \| Mood: Giggly \| Music: Jesus Wrote a Blank Check - Cake
Yay! So I went to my interview thing today, and it was lots of fun! I'd love to work there! Ya-whoo! I learned to draw syringes, fill prescriptions, and various other things. (Tho a lot of what I did was clean cages and help the technicians hold animals down for various things.) They euthanized a rat in there today, and it was really sad. T_T I watched some of it with morbid curiosity though. Mrs. Vinson came into the animal hospital for some reason today. She didn't have an animal with her, and she didn't pick one up. So the vet guy is going to call me at the end of the week and tell me if I got the job. I'm very anxious. LOL! I'MASCARYFANGIRL! WAHAHAHAHA. I don't like that picture much though. They're drooling. Eew. You're a SCARY yaoi fangirl. Are you a yaoi fangirl? brought to you by Quizilla
Sunday, February 9th- 12:19 p.m. \| Mood: Happy \| Music: Come Sail Away - Styx
Wow. So I have quite a bit to update. Night before last, Christine, Catherine, Lena, Ica, Rach, Michelle, KT, and Hefti came over for movie night. We watched Velvet Goldmine and American History X, which is a most excellent movie that I will have to watch again (without the ongoing useless commentary by Christine. Lol). So yes, great, great fuun. Then the fantastic four (me, Lena, Ica, and Rach) stayed here for the night. We watched the South Park movie, and I was surprised to see Lena laughing like, twice as much as anyone else. Though I think she was more awake than anyone else too. Rachel and I were woken up at about 9:30 by a pillow hitting our heads. Then the four of us decided we wanted donuts, so we went over to Dolly Madison's. All the donuts were really inexpensive, and we greatly overestimated our donut-eating abilities and got 2 boxes and 2 bags of them. o.O So I have a lot of donuts on top of my fridge now. Lena left, then I took Rach and Ica home a bit after. Around 5, I picked them all up again, and we went out to the mall to shop for Coronation. In that Charlotte Russe store, Ica and I tried on a couple of suits, and they were uber-sexy. Like whoa. I would have gotten one, but I decided it was too dressy. : / Now I have to become a businesswoman. Lol. And I was also considering black pinstripe pants with a dress shirt and maybe a tie, but I didn't really find anything. Rachel found the sexiest dress ever (pinstripe again - definite trend right now). If we were both going to the dance single, we decided, we would have gone together and I would have gotten the suit to match her dress and it would have been the cutest thing ever. In a really lesbianish way. Haha. So yeah, we went into Hot Topic cuz Lena needed fishnets for her outfit. In there, to my surprise, I found an uber-cute dress. It's kinda vintagy-looking cuz it's black with white polka dots. So yeah, I tried it on, discovered that it looks REALLY good on me, decided it was casual enough, and now that's what I'm wearing to Coronation. Woke up today around 11, took a shower, and now I'm going to go to my Mom's house and we're going to get haircuts together. Don't worry, Dad says I can't cut my hair off, and I don't want to anyway.
Wednesday, February 5th- 8:47 p.m. \| Mood: Estatic \| Music: White Poem I - X Japan
OMG OMG OMG! So I applied for a job at Bogey Hills Animal hospital on Monday cuz I saw their ad in the paper. I figured it was a long shot since I don't have any prior experience, but I went in with a cheerful additude and hoped for the best. I got a call today from the vet there, and he said that they got about 25 apps, and they narrowed it down to 5, and I'm in that 5! They're going to have us come in for a working interview, and they're going to choose 2 for the after school work. So I have to go in on Tuesday and learn about stuff and kinda work and whatnot for my interview. I'm uber-excited, cuz I never thought I'd get this far! Wahoo! I want this job more than any other job I can think of... I MISS PAUL. Jeeze. He's never been grounded from the phone before. I'm going crazy, cuz I haven't seen him since Monday and I've only talked to him for about 20 minutes last night. T_T So I picked up Chris, Sean, and Erica for a while tonight and we went to the park and drove around aimlessly and stuff.
Tuesday, February 4th- 6:14 p.m. \| Mood: Okay \| Music: When Doves Cry - Prince
Yay! New background! Same basic layout colors though. And wow, the pic ISN'T Jrock! Hahaha. It's from Angel Sanctuary. And the "When angels deserve to die" comes from the System of a Down song "Chop Suey" cuz every time I hear that line, I think of Angel Sanctuary. So don't read into it too much unless you really want to. So yeah...I REALLY like this picture. I am eternally envious of Kaori Yuki's artistic abilities. Paul's suspended until Thurday, and he's grounded for a week. Which means I don't get to talk to him till he's back at school, and I don't get the weekend with him. The good news is that he's not grounded for Valentine's Day and cornation. I was really worried about that for a while. My mornings start out just awful if I don't get to see Paul. This morning sucked. And now you will go to Lena's Page, L3N4.com. Go now or face the wrath of an angry short person with a big stick.
Sunday, February 2nd- 12:42 p.m. \| Mood: Bored \| Music: Paul on the Phone
YAY! So I worked uber-hard yesterday, and my room is all done! It's all cleaned and rearranged and nice and open. I am SO SORE from moving all my furniture around to clean the carpet and rearrange it, but it looks great! Like a little apartment. Lol. So I downloaded this little advertisement for the Japanese movie "Moon Child" that stars Gackt and Hyde. The first scene of it is Gackt, with a dumb mask on, holding a gun menancingly and saying in deep ghetto English the most meaningful line in movie history: ... ... ... "Open da showcase." I am going to be laughing all day. Gackt's bad English is so great.
Tuesday, January 28th- 7:51 p.m. \| Mood: Hyper \| Music: Laichzeit - Rammstein
Slash slash slashity slash slash! Smut is fun, kids! Anyway... Note to Rachel (who's never really online because I've turned her into a Final Fantasy fiend): About that note we were passing in the library today. I had no idea, why didn't you say something? This is really gonna bug me now...:/ Oky, so I put that on here just so you guys would ask me about it and I'd get to say, "Not telling!" Isn't that fun? Hahaha.
Tuesday, January 28th- 6:52 p.m. \| Mood: Busy \| Music: Fourteen Black Paintings - Peter Gabriel
So yeah. Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I spent almost the entire weekend with Paul, one of the luxuries of not having to get dad to drive me places. It was lots of fun, such time together is wonderful. far-off, dreamy expression Yeah. My car was leaking coolant like mad, so I was without it the last couple of days. Lemme tell ya, I've been BORED! I sat in front of this damn machine 7 hours yesterday. Ack. I wanted to go to Ica's tonight after dad fixed the car, but he said I need to stop burning gas until I get a job. So now I'm sitting here filling out applications. I kept putting it off cuz I don't like dealing with people I don't know, and there's a lot of that when job searching. That, and I'm the best procrastinator in the world besides my Dad. I've got it down to an art. Dad's such a dork. So I needed some info for filling out this application: me: Dad, when did I start kindergarden? dad: I don't remember. just start at this year and start counting backwards. You're a junior now... me: Dad, I'm a sophomore
Thursday, January 23rd- 5:24 p.m. \| Mood: Giggly \| Music: Time of Your Life - Green Day
Wooo. So I finally watched The Doors cuz I discovered that Dad bought it. A very excellent movie, that is. Val Kilmer is a great actor. Jim Morrison was a genius. While I was rewinding the movie, I saw a commercial on TV that had a guy sitting on a chair talking about how you should pray every day and you will be heard. The commercial ended with nice, big, bold, black letters stating, "Jesus is real." I just about laughed myself into a killer stomache ache. That is almost as good as the Jesus billboard. (Which reminds me...I need to get one of those signs and stick it on my wall for laughs.) *Note: I wasn't laughing because I think the idea of Jesus is absurd or anything like that (though I question Christianity often), I was laughing because of how media-centered our society is and how driven we are by advertisements. I mean, really? Advertising religion on TV? Oh goodness, the TV told me to believe, so I'd better run out and start worshipping!
Thursday, January 23rd- 2:52 p.m. \| Mood: Blah \| Music: VG Soundtrack
Bleeargh. Dad stole my car, so I can't go anywhere. Poo. I have homework out the wazoo, but I don't feel like doing it. I'll do it later. We'll take the whole shebang, all or nothing, anything! Ecstasy's the birthright of our game. We'll take the whole shebang, free your heart of guilt and shame. Come and claim what's yours, the whole shebang! Sorry.
Wednesday, January 22nd- 6:25 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Beauty & Stupid - hide
So I didn't go to school today. I woke up with a killer headache and decided it was a good enough excuse to go back to bed. Paul walked here in the cold after school to see me. It was the sweetest thing ever. ^_____^ If we have a snow day tomorrow, I'll have a 2 day week - yesterday and Friday. Hehe. I had to take VG back today. sniffle Oh well, watched it 4 times.
Tuesday, January 21st- 5:44 p.m. \| Mood: Giggly \| Music: Anywhere - Evanescence
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHRIS! Um...went to Brandon's for a while to chill with Chris and Brandon. Watched them play Diablo II. I miss Paul. He needs to be ungrounded NOW! Heh. I'm happiest when we're together. ^_______^
Tuesday, January 21st- 5:44 p.m. \| Mood: Booooored \| Music: Satellite of Love - Lou Reed
I'm booooooooooooooooored. Merp. I feel there's something wrong, but I can't put my finger on it. Maybe he's just in a bad mood.
Monday, January 20th- 3:46 p.m. \| Mood: Confused \| Music: Livin' on the Edge - Aerosmith
So yesterday, I picked Rachel up and we drove over to Chris's house to pester him. The three of us went to the mall and played in the pet store (they had a chinchilla!!!) and the the toy store. After that, we went to Anthony's house and hung out there for a few minutes. We left Chris there, and Rach and I came back to my house till 6 when we picked Erica up and headed to Josh's for movie night. We watched Boondock Saints, which is a really good movie. Uber violent and bloody, but good nonetheless. After that, we hung out (heh) till 9:20ish, went to Taco Bell, took Josh home, and took Ica home. Rach and I came back to my house for the night and watched Velvet Goldmine, cuz I knew Rachel would appreciate it. We fell asleep around 1 and both woke up around 4 and were wide awake (no idea why). We wached Fern Gully and then went back to bed, woke up at 11, went to QT to get capuccinos and donuts, and picked Erica up. From Erica's we went to Blanchette Park and then Paul's house for a few minutes. Then I took ppl home, and now I'm here. Yay! Did I ever mention I love driving? What Velvet Goldmine character are you? That doesn't really sound all that much like me. Maybe me on an extreme level. Or what I wish I were more like. But isn't that what most of these stupid quizzes reflect? What we wish we were?
Saturday, January 18th- 11:45 p.m. \| Mood: Mellow \| Music: Velvet Goldmine Soundtrack!
I woke up today, lounged around, went to Best Buy to try and find Velvet Goldmine, didn' find it, bought the soundrack, went to Paul's, had lost of fun there, came home. Yay! What a good day. Sex and VG.
Friday, January 17th- 11:56 p.m. \| Mood: Impressed \| Music: Rebel, Rebel - David Bowie
So I just finished watching Velvet Goldmine. Words escape me. Wow. (I really like pretty boys in makeup.)
Thursday, January 16th- 10:32 p.m. \| Mood: Satisfied \| Music: Breaking Me - Jonny Lang
Hmm. So I guess I should explain a bit more. Chris didn't have anywhere to stay last night, and I wanted to make sure he had a warm, safe place to stay. Didn't want him wandering about town all night in the cold or something. I try to watch his back as much as I can, even though I know to that he'd say, "I can take care of myself." (I talked to Paul about him staying here, BTW, and he was perfectly cool with it, for those of you who were wondering.) I kept him here for his benefit, and for that of his mom. She worries about him a lot. I really wish he'd see how much she cares for him. Last night she did come by and drop off clothes for him. When she went to leave, she gave him a hug and said, "I love you." Chris's response was, "Okay, Mom." She said it again, and he gave her the same reply. Can't you see, Chris? Can't you see how much she does for you and how much she cares!? Do you ever even give her a word of appreciation or even a smile? I care about you so much, Chris, and I hate seeing you screwing up your life and losing your family. But anyway, do your thing and I'll be here for you when you need me. Jesus. I've decided my entire existance is to make others happy. Which is okay, cuz that's all I want to do. ANYWAY...I found out there was no school, so I went back to bed. I woke up around 11, and Chris shortly after. I made pancakes fo us, and we hung around here till around 3. Then Paul, Chris, and I went over to Brandon's house till 9ish. We all went to our repective homes after that, and here I am now. Going to bed soon.
Thursday, January 16th- 11:31 a.m. \| Mood: Not sure... \| Music: Love to be Loved - Peter Gabriel
YAY! NO SCHOOL FOR US! (Haha, Josh! ^^) Hmm. So Chris spent the night here (n my sunroom) last night. He got kicked out of his house, so I did a bunch of negotiations with my parents cuz I wanted to make sure he had somewhere warm to stay. Yay! He's awake!
Wednesday, January 15th- 3:14 p.m. \| Mood: Annoyed \| Music: Manji Karame - Du� le Quartz
Mom says that I can't drive to school tomorrow if it snows, so we'd better have a snow day. If we do, Kaytee and I wanna go sledding at Blanchette. If you wanna go with us, gimme a call or something. I won't be able to give any rides tho. :( Wow. Complete lack of anything to talk about. Heh. I LOVE PAUL! There. I went to Chris's house yesterday, and Paul was asleep on his stomach on Chris's bed. I laid on top of him, and he mumbled, "Get the fuck off me, Chris!" It was really funny! I think I'm suppossed to go to a concert with Christine tonight or something. Hmm. I'm not sure I can go. I don't even know where it is. Hah.
Saturday, January 11th- 11:20 p.m. \| Mood: \| Music: Only Time - Enya
Tonight, Paul and his friend Mike picked me up and we went to [forgot the name] to eat. We had a really messy pizza and laughed at how we all had problems eating it. Mike is so hilarious. After that, we went back to Paul's and played cards and watched Pretty Woman. We left there around 9:30 and went and picked up Doug. Doug was nice to me tonight, so I didn't really have a problem with him. We drove around aimlessly for a while playing loud music and making lots of noise (well, the boys were mostly). Then we went back to Mike's house for a few minutes before I had to go home. Stupid curfew. I wanted to stay with them all night! They're fun. I love boys.
Friday, January 10th- 3:45 p.m. \| Mood: Relieved \| Music: Down with the Sickness - Disturbed
::Throws confetti:: Thank you, thank you, thank you, Rachel and Erica, for supporting me and making me feel better.
Thursday, January 9th- 3:16 p.m. \| Mood: Stressed/Scared \| Music: When Doves Cry - Prince
::Whimper:: I want you here with me, to convince me that I'm imagining things and everything will be okay. I want you to hold me and comfort me and let me cry on your shoulder if I need to. I want you to be a mother I can confide in and seek advice from. I want you to be a mother who helps me through all the hard times and shares the good ones with me. Hell, I just want you to be a mother.
Tuesday, January 7th- 3:38 p.m. \| Mood: Happy \| Music: Tank! - Cowboy Bebop
Yay! I got my drivers license yesterday! jumps for joy I had so much fun randomly driving around for about 4 hours. I kidnapped Ica, then Rachel, Hefti, and Paul and we went to Jack in the Box for Rachel. We drove around aimlessly for a while, went to Blanchette park, and then I took Ica to school for cheerleading practice. I took everyone home and came back here. Damn, I need a job now. I suppose I ought to give a brief description of what went on while I was gone. December 31 This was Christine's New Year's/birthday party. We danced a lot, played twister, covered ourselves in glow sticks, and jumped around. Pariah, a band consisting of Sean, Nathan, Matt, and Adam, played at the party. THEY ROCKED! I'm uber-impressed. If I ever have a party, I'll have you guys play. I'll pay ya! Course, that probably won't be till September for mine and Ica's birthday. Dad doesn't allow many parties....hmm. January 1st Christine and I got up waaaay too early by my standards to shower and wait for Dad to pick us up, then we headed for Table Rock. We stayed in Big Cedar Lodge, and it was very nice. 'Stine and I decided we're going back. After we unpacked, we spend about an hour trying to get the television to work so we could watch Fight Club. We stayed up late watching movies and wrestling around. We also took baths in the Jacuzzi. It rocked like whoa. January 2nd We got up around eleven and headed for Branson to go shopping. Christine and I got rather irritated that there were only outlet malls, no normal ones. So, we went to this Imax theater/little mall thing and saw LotR: 2 Towers in the Imax theater. This is an 87 foot theater screen with a 22,000 watt digital surround system. The screen is 10x larger than the average theater. I sat there with wide eyes and my mouth hanging open in awe. You know you are jealous. We bought miniature remote control cars, but mine ended up not working and had to be exchanged the next day. I also bought the One Ring on a chain cuz it was only $15 and it's pretty neat. We went back to the cabin, watched movies some more, and wrestled around in an attempt to shove each other off the bed. I almost hit my head on the table by the bed, and that would have hurt like a bitch. We also played with the fireplace cuz we bought marshmellows. After we got tored of eating them, we started throwing them in the fire. We made a marshmellow man and woman too, and threw them into the fire yelling, "Aaaaah!" It was rather morbid. Marshmellow torture. January 3rd We woke up around noon cuz we were up till around 3 the night before, and we're lazy asses. We called the nifty little shuttle service to take us to the gift shop. Thiy picked us up at the cabin, and off we went! By the time we got back, Dad and Ann had left us and gone to Branson. We were a little miffed about that, but it's not like we told them to wait. We went to a restaraunt, then came back and played with our remote control cars and tried to light a fire in the fireplace (and pretty much failed). Then we wasted some more time, and went to dinner. Frm the restaraunt, we called a shuttle and headed to the swimming pool. It was really warm and had a slide and we had great fun. I untied Christine's swimsuit top once and she freaked out. It was funny. After we got tired of swimming, we discovered there was a hot tub outside, so we ran out there. It was very relaxing, and we could barely see each other cuz there was so much steam. We were both wishing we had our boyfriends with us. :( We missed them a lot. When we got out of the hot tub, we were entertained by the fact that we were so warm, steam was coming off of our bodies as we ran around outside. We went back to the cabin around 10, and watched TV some more. We found a movie we liked, and ended up staying up till 4. January 5th We got up around 10:30 and left the cabin for another 6 hour drive. We got home around 5:30ish, and I hurried to get ready for Jon's surprise party. I got there a bit early, so I helped decorate. It was a fun party, but quite a few people were in pissy moods. Poor Kaytee was pretty unhappy most of the night, for some reason I don't know. I think one was that Jon ended up not being surprised. :( So, I guess that's it. And now, a couple of quizzes that are nothing like me! Yay! I'm Mysterious Cute!! made by Jen What kind of hero are you? brought to you by Quizilla hero - You can change the stars - and do. You have always felt an innate sense of self worth. Your friends look up to you almost as much as you admire them. I'm sure they put Xena and that dude from a Knight's Tale on there with William Wallace. Psh. As if they coud measure up.
Sunday, January 5th- 12:27 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Undo - Bjork
Yay! I'm back from vacation. I know you all missed me very much! I'll talk about the parties and vacation later; I don't feel like typing it all up. I made a friendtest, so take it or die! ..not really. How well do you know me?
Tuesday, December 31st- 1:25 p.m. \| Mood: Excited \| Music: Dahlia - X Japan
So Dad woke me up at 8:00 today and said, "Do you wanna go take your driver's test before I go to work?" I replied with, "Unghhh." and rolled over and fell back asleep. Oops. Yay! Christine's party tonight, vacation tomorrow! sniffle I'm gonna miss my baby so much while I'm gone! Mwahahaha! Bow down before the might of my boobies!
Monday, December 30th- 3:14 p.m. \| Mood: Annoyed \| Music: Whatever - Godsmack
I went to take my driver's exam today, but they were all booked, so I couldn't take it. Poo. That's all.
Sunday, December 29th- 1:22 p.m. \| Mood: Hungry \| Music: Pose - hide
So, movies with Christine was fun. It was a pretty good movie too, but it was drawn out too long (Meet Joe Black, anyone? Ugh.) and didn't have the ending I wanted it to have. Course, the endings I want almost always involve the bad guys winning, so when a bad guy turns good, it pisses me off even more. Now that I'm done bitching about meaningless things, I must say I LOVE SLEEPING IN! God, yes. Winter vacation, I worship you. To the people in my movie group: When are we gonna do this? I leave for vacation on the 1st and get back on the 4th. Blah.
Saturday, December 28th- 1:46 p.m. \| Mood: Silly \| Music: All Apologies - Nirvana
So, I'm feeling much better! Hooray! I actually remember 2 dreams I had last night (well, this morning, I think) and neither of them were disturbing or scary! One involved watching the Two Towers over and over and over again, and the other involved Hefti and a food fight. o.O I have no idea. I only remember these cuz the phone woke me up in the middle of the last one. I'm getting so excited about vacation! It's gonna rock having Christine along. Speaking of vacation, I need to start working on my costume for the Convention in May. It's an 11 hour drive to that damn thing. o.O But it's going to be so great!
Friday, December 27th- 1:24 p.m. \| Mood: Exhausted \| Music: Baby Got Back - Sir Mix a Lot
Argh. So last night was hellatious. I started feeling a bit sick around 4ish, but Rachel came over anyway around 6. By 8, I was feeling just terrible, so I asked Dad to go ahead and take Rachel home. Sorry, Rach! :( After that, I put a movie on and fell asleep till about 10:30. I then proceeded to violently throw up everything in my stomach. I tried to drink a bit of water, but I threw that up to. I was terribly thirsty for most of the night. It sucked. I threw up some more, then laid down on the couch to watch The Crow and hopefully fall asleep. I woke up again around 5 a.m., and managed to get a drink. Around 6, I fell back asleep and slept till about 15 minutes ago. I'm feeling better now, which is good. Whatever it was didn't last long. Didn't quite feel like the flu; it was weird. Maybe it was food poisoning. Blah. So Paul is hopefully gonna come over for a while today, cuz we haven't seen each other in a long time. T_T I'm not gonna be very much fun today tho...
Thursday, December 26th- 1:15 a.m. \| Mood: Disturbed \| Music: none
Found this while I was randomly going through Sonny's Page. This is just awful, but it's funny as hell at the same time. Kind of like the Jesus dress-up thing Lena posted on her page. http://www.jesuschristsuperstore.net
Thursday, December 26th- 12:06 a.m. \| Mood: Okay \| Music: Jeremy - Pearl Jam
Hmm...I don't feel like telling about my day, so I'll just follow suit and list what I got for Christmas, tho I'm sure I'll forget some things. -19" TV -Spongebob seat cover -Full body pillow -A roll of bubble wrap -A couple of shirts and a hoodie -$80 in gift certificates and money -A Lord of the Rings calendar -3 necklaces and a pair of earrings -2 candles -A fencing book -A little lingerie thing (from Paul, of course ^^) -A really soft blanket -Some other random stuff that escapes my mind So yeah, it was a good Christmas! Hehe. I totally forgot about my coupon from you, Ica! evil grin
Wednesday, December 25th- 12:15 a.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Carol of the Bells - Trans-Siberian Orchestra
Wahoo! Guess I haven't updated in a while... Monday, Paul came over and we hung out and baked cookies and got in a powdered sugar fight and had a jolly good time. Yay! Today, (well, I guess it's yesterday seeing as how it's midight.) Lena, Rachel, and Ica came over and we exchanged gifts. Thank you guys so much! I love you all dearly. And I'm so happy everyone liked their gifts. I gave Rachel my Playstation, bought Ica a pogo stick, and got Lena a really cool light saber. I love giving gifts. I just got back from Ann's sister Diane's house for their Christmas Eve. Got some clothes I'll never wear, but it was a nice gesture and I appreciate it. I love this song. Using guitars in Christmas music is great. I LOVE CHRISTMAS! Well, most of it. Hmm. I ought to

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Thursday, May 8th- 4:30 p.m. \| Mood: Busy \| Music: hide, hide, hide
Bleargh. 1000 apologies for not updating. You all probably thought I was dead. Well, not really, since I see everyone at school. I've been really busy with work, end of school shit, vacation plans, and other stuff, so I haven't had much time to update. Hopefully this summer I'll get back into the habit. So yeah...21 DAYS TILL VACATION!! I have my costume almost completely done, just have to make the shirt. It's great fun. Rachel's getting all her stuff done too. I'm going to pick her up in a bit and we're going to shop for more stuff for her costume. I'd better get gas...I hate spending $$ on gas. Stupid car. Well, I guess it's not stupid. Paul's working tonight. I miss him. I have a LOT of stuff to do for Wester Civ. Stupid Western Civ. Hehe. I'm bitching a lot in this entry, no? Hmm...What else? Oh yeah! Paul bought me the most gorgeous diamond heart necklace. I love it so much. I have the sweetest boyfriend ever. OwowowowowowOWOWcramps. >_< I can't wait till summer. I'm so tired. I need lots of sleep. Oh, here are some pictures of my costume, for anyone who cares. I know Paul wanted to see what it was. These are the best pictures I could find: 1 2 3
Saturday, April 19th- 10:52 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Loser - Beck
yawn Tonight, Rachel and I went to the prom that the school held for the special ed kids. It was so much fun! Those kids are so cute. After that, we wandered around on Main Street for a while. I feel bad. Paul called my cell phone and wanted me to go to his house for a while, but my phone was dead so I didn't get his message. Though I hadn't hung out with Rachel in a long time, so it's good that we did something together. I finally saw Trigun last week, and it was awesome. Very, very cool. I think I'll do a Trigun theme for my page when I get time. I saw Hellsing too, but it wasn't nearly as good. But then I'm one who wants a really good plot and character development in a story. Most of the characters in Hellsing sucked. Seems I should have more to write. Whatever.
Thursday, April 10th - 8:41 p.m. \| Mood: Excited! \| Music: Burnin' for You - Blue Oyster Cult
Yay! I have everything figured out for my hide costume for the convention! I just found the perfect wig, and I have someone making me the hat, and those are the 2 hardest parts. Wahoo! I'm getting so so excited about this. Oh, sorry I haven't been updating much. My computer's gay. I'm also really excited about my English historical novelette, cuz I have a really good idea, and I've started it, and I'm not procrastinating, and I'm thinking it's going to be one of my better stories. Eva ran with her baby in her arms quickly through the night. The brush around her tore at her dress and scraped her legs, yet she kept running for her life and that of her child. The baby's cries echoed throughout the outskirts of the small town. "Hush, my love! You must be quiet!" Eva whimpered. She stopped to try to hide and quiet her child. Lightly brushing her hands over the screaming baby's mouth, she began rocking and singing a quiet tune, as much for herself as for her child. The feel of a gun tapping the back of her head followed by a loud, "Don't move!" quickly silenced her. Sound good? I hope so. Oh my gosh I love my job so much! The last couple of days there, I got to help clean and feed and play with 5 teely 4-week-old kittens. They are the sweetest. I love kittens. And I love Paul.
Sunday, March 30th- 12:37 p.m. \| Mood: Hyperrrrrrerrrrrrrrrer..er \| Music: Drink or Die - hide
The music is appropriate, no? Nihon sake, bourbon, beer ni abusan Jojitsu, doburoku, tequila Nandemo kirai sake motte koi Imasara by�in kawakute sake ga nameru ka Sorenara sanfu jinka de enkai shiyo ka! So anyway...on Friday...what happened Friday? Lemme think. Okay. We (Rachel, Ica, Lena, Michelle, Ashley, Paul, me, and some others) went and saw Pariah's performance at the Midwest Music Pit. It was noisy. After that, Rachel and I went to Michelle's aunt's house to stay the night. Michelle's boyfriend Russell lives in the basement, and that's where we were. A whole bunch of people I don't know were there (and a few I did know). I got completely WASTED, and Rachel got pretty fucked up too. It was fun for a while, then I just threw up. A lot. But drunk was fun! The day after was not fun. Nope, not fun AT ALL. @.@ I am bored. Someone needs to come over and play with meeee... ROCKET DIVE!!! bouncy! fun! spinny....very spinny falls over @__@ so cute . Which hide video are you! brought to you by Quizilla Hi-Ho What hide Song Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
Friday, March 28th- 5:31 p.m. \| Mood: Wistful \| Music: Jaded - Aerosmith
What Is Your X Japan Ballad? Forever love, forever dream... afureru omoi dake ga hageshiku setsunaku jikan o umetsukusu Oh tell me why All I see is blue in my heart... X Japan is the greatest band ever.
Wednesday, March 26th- 11:43 p.m. \| Mood: Silly \| Music: Erode - Dir en grey
Ugh...so, on my way to work today, I ran over this honking huge chunk of concrete in the middle of the road (on Zumbehl). I think it came from the curb. Anyway...I didn't see it in time to get out of the way, which is probably good, cuz I probably would have swerved into another car or something. So I completely blew out my tire and fucked up the rim BAD. And completely murdered my hubcap. o.O Scared the hell out of me. Car kinda went out of control. SOOOO...now I have to get a complete new wheel for that side, and a new tire for the other side, cuz they have to match. I hope Dad's feeling generous and won't make me pay for all that...ouch. To all of those to whom I am a ride bitch, I won't have my car tomorrow. T_T I feel naked. On an off note, check out this really hilarious webpage. I just realized in the last couple of weeks that the tips of my big toes are constantly like, half-numb. That cannot be good. A definite sign I need new shoes. Or better circulation. Not that you can buy THAT... Fuck, now my foot's asleep. I need some new music. I should join a CD club.
Sunday, March 23rd- 9:24 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: none
Wow. So the cops got called to my house because Chris was mooning people while I was driving. Now he isn't allowed in my house or my car. o.O Dad doesn't really want me around him anymore, cuz he says Chris takes advantage of me. I dunno. Heh. Shiloh and Alex little monsters today, as usual. Eh, I love 'em! ^^ But if any of you still see me a few years from now, and I talk about having kids, smack me. Smack me hard. Lena and Ica: Colin and Fox! OMG finally! Whoot. I think I'm gonna get purple contacts. Hmm...that could be fun.
Saturday, March 22nd- 11:14 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Prettly Fly - Offspring
I'm at my sister's house, gonna babysit the kiddos tomorrow. So for anyone who reads this and hasn't been informed, I have spring break activities planned. Yay! Jess takes initiative! One, we're going to play laser tag at Lazer Core in O'Fallon. If we get 8 or more people to go, then it's cheaper for everyone and we can reserve. Second, we're going Go-Karting at the place out on N Hwy 94. The one with the sprint karts ^^. (Though I'm scared that go karts will lose their luster now that I have a car...) And third, we're going to have a pinic. Maybe we'll also finally make it out to Demolition Ball. Yay! Activities we HAVEN'T done, you guys!!!! Anyway...spring break! Woo hoo!!!! I get to sleeeeeeeep.... We got our class rings on Friday. Mine is so neat! Argh...while playing around with Paul last night (no, you perverts...) my glasses got broken. T_T So now I'll either hunt for the same frames, or I'll get contacts. Haven't decided. I'd ask you guys what you think I should do, but it really wouldn't influence my decision all that much. :P Haha, you know I love you all. I miss my baby!!!! sniffle Good god, I do not know how either of us could survive if one of us were to go on vacation or something.
Tuesday, March 18th- 7:59 p.m. \| Mood: Silly \| Music: Stairway to Heaven - Led Zepplin
So, yes, Jessica is dumb. Disregard last entry. If all problems could be solved with two emails, the world would be a wonderful place. Did I ever tell you guys I love this song? Probably so. My cold REALLY needs to go away.
Saturday, March 15th- 12:11 p.m. \| Mood: Confused \| Music: Burn - The Cure
Is it bad that Paul says he wants more time to himself? I kind of automatically take that to mean he doesn't want to spend as much time with me, but I don't think that's right. I dunno. It just seems kind of bad in my mind when he thinks we're spending too much time together... And I guess I shouldn't get sarcastic like I did when I said, "Do you want to come over today, or do you want Paul Time?" Sarcasm is my defense mechanism. (Words that end in ism are cool.) He said he didn't need Paul time, cuz he had Paul and Seth time. Which is why I assume that Paul time means "Without Jessica Time." Oh well, I'm being retarded. I probably overreact. But I just imagine in my mind the two of us spending less and less time together...and I don't think I know how to deal with that. He used to want to be with me all the time. Whatever, It's probably my fault somehow anyway.
Saturday, March 15th- 11:25 a.m. \| Mood: Happier \| Music: Picture - Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow
I GOT A RAT, YOU GUYS!!!! Finally! It's a girl, so if anyone has any cool name suggestions, tell me. I thought Akima was a cool name, but no one likes it except me. Woo! I wanna go to Ozzfest! Who wants to go with me!? RACHEL AND ERICA MADE THE VARSITY CHEERLEADING SQUAD! I am so freaking happy for them. Especially Rachel, cuz she didn't get it last year.
Thursday, March 13th- 9:57 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Genkai Haretsu - hide
Blah. So I've come to the realization that I just CAN NOT afford to make the Mana costume for the convention that I've been planning so long. But I'm almost over it, cuz I'm gonna make a hide costume instead, and it will be much cheaper and a lot less of a hassle. AND my Grandma is dying in Colorado, and no one can afford to take me to go see her. AND I can't afford the equipment needed for the French Rapier fencing class I want to take, cuz the stuff has to be ordered sometime next week. Dad and Mom both have almost no money. AND I have a cold. On a happier note, today was lots of fun. In German, all the freshmen were gone for the ethics seminar thing, and we have a substitute, so our class sat around and talked the entire time. Cath, Austin Bortle, Ryan Eisenbath, and I sat around and made fun of the school. Austin, Ryan, and I also decided that we're going to go to Germany next year and get drunk together. That was random. And in seminar, Kaytee and I goofed off in the Child Development room for a while, cuz it's the coolest room in the school. Paul cane over after school, and we had lots of fun. I love being with him so much. He makes me feel wonderful about myself. Oh! We're finally getting Pipeline! Kiss my arse, AOL!!!!! I feel so bad for Sethy. I love 'Stine, but I don't think she realizes what she's doing to him. So Chris is now in the Yes program, so hopefully he'll stick with that and go back to school next year. Though he says that he'll go to West, which really makes me angry. I think I may have already said this, but I hate all the people at West that he hangs out with. I don't know them, but I hate them anyway. They too my Chris away. His true friends have been replaced by people who get him drunk and probably don't give a rat's ass about his well-being. I am so fucking jealous that they get him when I am the one who fucking cares so much about him! Heh, I don't get all greedy and jealous like that much, so shut up. I can do it every now and then if I want to. Why can't everything just be right with the people I love? Here I go crying again...
Wednesday, March 5th- 8:52 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Swing This - The Apex Theory
Sorry I haven't been updating. Too much to do, too much to doooooo.... I am so fucking exhausted. Sometimes, I wonder if how much I care for all of you will be the end of me someday. Not that that will ever, ever stop me.
Sunday, February 23rd- 5:22 p.m. \| Mood: Sad \| Music: I Believe I Can Fly - R. Kelly
Sorry I haven't updated in so long. Been kinda busy with work and working on costumes for out Julius Caesar video. Guh. My Grandma's really sick. My Mom drove out to COlorado today to see her, but I couldn't go cuz I can't miss a week of school. I'm really afraid that by the time I get to see her, she won't know who I am. I'm gonna call my sister in a bit and see if she wants to drive out there this weekend. Hehe. A really nice girl named Jessica IMed me and said she likes my page. ^^ It's the first person that I don't know who's commented on my site. Yay! Yeah, so my job's going really well; I love it! Um...I guess that's really all. Oh, and I just love how people are stupid.
Sunday, February 16th- 11:06 p.m. \| Mood: Loved \| Music: Cat's in the Cradle - Harry Chapin
I am so incredibly absolutely uncontrollably head-over-heels in looooooove. o.O
Friday, February 14th- 10:00 p.m. \| Mood: Loved \| Music: Engel - Rammstein
Yay! V-Day was great fun. (Even though the day isn't all that great - makes so many people miserable.) Paul bought me balloons today. While I was getting out of the car, my pretty mylar balloon with the bear and the "I love you" on it came off the string and flew away. It made me really upset. I stood there watching the balloon and cursing the people in the Galley who tied the thing. Heh. Then I got Paul's stuff, and went over to his house. I gave him a balloon, a CD, chocolates, and a card I made. He loved the card so much; it almost made him cry. sigh I got a big teddy bear that's the softest thing ever. It's so cute and cuddly. ^_____^ We wanted to go to the park today, but it rained. Then we wanted to go and eat, but we're both broke. So we ended up making macaroni and cheese at my house and falling asleep for a while. Lol. Guh, I have to call Stine tomorrow and see if I can borrow something for stupid Coronation. Bleh. Colleen and Ica's quiz: Tootsie Pop: People have to work at getting to your center, but once they do they'll probably like what they get. What Kind of Candy are You? brought to you by Quizilla I'm sure I got the candy that the assigned to Chris. Heh. They picked peeps for me. (Super sweet and lovable.) And if you have too much of them, they give you CAVITIES! : / Lol.
Thursday, February 13th- 6:50 p.m. \| Mood: Happy \| Music: Eddie Izzard
I GOT THE JOB, YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!! I'M SOOOO EXCITED!!!! Wow. So yeah, Paul and I got walked in on by his mom tonight. o.O She was just like, "Oh, shit. Sorry guys!" I don't think I'll be able to talk to her anymore without turning bright red. Hmm...seems there were three things I wanted to talk about on here...oh well. Did I ever tell you guys I have the best boyfriend ever? I'm so lucky! ^^ I can't wait till Valentine's Day tomorrow.
Wednesday, February 12th- 6:50 p.m. \| Mood: Depressed \| Music: Could've Been Me - Billy Ray Cyrus
"Wish I could prove I love you But does that mean I have to walk on water? When we are older you�ll understand. It�s enough when I say so. And maybe some things are that simple." Amen. So, Hot-Fucking-Topic wouldn't give me a refund for my dress today. Paul doesn't like it much, and though he told me he wanted me to keep it cuz I like it, I know I'll be thinking about how he doesn't like it for the entire dance. So I'm completely fucking broke (damn gas), and I have nothing to wear to Coronation. I think I'll see if I can borrow something from Christine, because she has enough clothing for a small country. On a better note, I got Paul's V-Day stuff and I'm really happy and I think he'll really like it. ^^ God, I feel like crying again, and I have no idea why. I really hate when I get in these depressed moods... everything seems so hopeless and stupid and I feel useless and ugly and it just makes me want to curl up in my bed and cry and cry and never come out and... I need a hug. It's so cold in here...
Tuesday, February 11th- 9:29 p.m. \| Mood: Giggly \| Music: Jesus Wrote a Blank Check - Cake
Yay! So I went to my interview thing today, and it was lots of fun! I'd love to work there! Ya-whoo! I learned to draw syringes, fill prescriptions, and various other things. (Tho a lot of what I did was clean cages and help the technicians hold animals down for various things.) They euthanized a rat in there today, and it was really sad. T_T I watched some of it with morbid curiosity though. Mrs. Vinson came into the animal hospital for some reason today. She didn't have an animal with her, and she didn't pick one up. So the vet guy is going to call me at the end of the week and tell me if I got the job. I'm very anxious. LOL! I'MASCARYFANGIRL! WAHAHAHAHA. I don't like that picture much though. They're drooling. Eew. You're a SCARY yaoi fangirl. Are you a yaoi fangirl? brought to you by Quizilla
Sunday, February 9th- 12:19 p.m. \| Mood: Happy \| Music: Come Sail Away - Styx
Wow. So I have quite a bit to update. Night before last, Christine, Catherine, Lena, Ica, Rach, Michelle, KT, and Hefti came over for movie night. We watched Velvet Goldmine and American History X, which is a most excellent movie that I will have to watch again (without the ongoing useless commentary by Christine. Lol). So yes, great, great fuun. Then the fantastic four (me, Lena, Ica, and Rach) stayed here for the night. We watched the South Park movie, and I was surprised to see Lena laughing like, twice as much as anyone else. Though I think she was more awake than anyone else too. Rachel and I were woken up at about 9:30 by a pillow hitting our heads. Then the four of us decided we wanted donuts, so we went over to Dolly Madison's. All the donuts were really inexpensive, and we greatly overestimated our donut-eating abilities and got 2 boxes and 2 bags of them. o.O So I have a lot of donuts on top of my fridge now. Lena left, then I took Rach and Ica home a bit after. Around 5, I picked them all up again, and we went out to the mall to shop for Coronation. In that Charlotte Russe store, Ica and I tried on a couple of suits, and they were uber-sexy. Like whoa. I would have gotten one, but I decided it was too dressy. : / Now I have to become a businesswoman. Lol. And I was also considering black pinstripe pants with a dress shirt and maybe a tie, but I didn't really find anything. Rachel found the sexiest dress ever (pinstripe again - definite trend right now). If we were both going to the dance single, we decided, we would have gone together and I would have gotten the suit to match her dress and it would have been the cutest thing ever. In a really lesbianish way. Haha. So yeah, we went into Hot Topic cuz Lena needed fishnets for her outfit. In there, to my surprise, I found an uber-cute dress. It's kinda vintagy-looking cuz it's black with white polka dots. So yeah, I tried it on, discovered that it looks REALLY good on me, decided it was casual enough, and now that's what I'm wearing to Coronation. Woke up today around 11, took a shower, and now I'm going to go to my Mom's house and we're going to get haircuts together. Don't worry, Dad says I can't cut my hair off, and I don't want to anyway.
Wednesday, February 5th- 8:47 p.m. \| Mood: Estatic \| Music: White Poem I - X Japan
OMG OMG OMG! So I applied for a job at Bogey Hills Animal hospital on Monday cuz I saw their ad in the paper. I figured it was a long shot since I don't have any prior experience, but I went in with a cheerful additude and hoped for the best. I got a call today from the vet there, and he said that they got about 25 apps, and they narrowed it down to 5, and I'm in that 5! They're going to have us come in for a working interview, and they're going to choose 2 for the after school work. So I have to go in on Tuesday and learn about stuff and kinda work and whatnot for my interview. I'm uber-excited, cuz I never thought I'd get this far! Wahoo! I want this job more than any other job I can think of... I MISS PAUL. Jeeze. He's never been grounded from the phone before. I'm going crazy, cuz I haven't seen him since Monday and I've only talked to him for about 20 minutes last night. T_T So I picked up Chris, Sean, and Erica for a while tonight and we went to the park and drove around aimlessly and stuff.
Tuesday, February 4th- 6:14 p.m. \| Mood: Okay \| Music: When Doves Cry - Prince
Yay! New background! Same basic layout colors though. And wow, the pic ISN'T Jrock! Hahaha. It's from Angel Sanctuary. And the "When angels deserve to die" comes from the System of a Down song "Chop Suey" cuz every time I hear that line, I think of Angel Sanctuary. So don't read into it too much unless you really want to. So yeah...I REALLY like this picture. I am eternally envious of Kaori Yuki's artistic abilities. Paul's suspended until Thurday, and he's grounded for a week. Which means I don't get to talk to him till he's back at school, and I don't get the weekend with him. The good news is that he's not grounded for Valentine's Day and cornation. I was really worried about that for a while. My mornings start out just awful if I don't get to see Paul. This morning sucked. And now you will go to Lena's Page, L3N4.com. Go now or face the wrath of an angry short person with a big stick.
Sunday, February 2nd- 12:42 p.m. \| Mood: Bored \| Music: Paul on the Phone
YAY! So I worked uber-hard yesterday, and my room is all done! It's all cleaned and rearranged and nice and open. I am SO SORE from moving all my furniture around to clean the carpet and rearrange it, but it looks great! Like a little apartment. Lol. So I downloaded this little advertisement for the Japanese movie "Moon Child" that stars Gackt and Hyde. The first scene of it is Gackt, with a dumb mask on, holding a gun menancingly and saying in deep ghetto English the most meaningful line in movie history: ... ... ... "Open da showcase." I am going to be laughing all day. Gackt's bad English is so great.
Tuesday, January 28th- 7:51 p.m. \| Mood: Hyper \| Music: Laichzeit - Rammstein
Slash slash slashity slash slash! Smut is fun, kids! Anyway... Note to Rachel (who's never really online because I've turned her into a Final Fantasy fiend): About that note we were passing in the library today. I had no idea, why didn't you say something? This is really gonna bug me now...:/ Oky, so I put that on here just so you guys would ask me about it and I'd get to say, "Not telling!" Isn't that fun? Hahaha.
Tuesday, January 28th- 6:52 p.m. \| Mood: Busy \| Music: Fourteen Black Paintings - Peter Gabriel
So yeah. Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I spent almost the entire weekend with Paul, one of the luxuries of not having to get dad to drive me places. It was lots of fun, such time together is wonderful. far-off, dreamy expression Yeah. My car was leaking coolant like mad, so I was without it the last couple of days. Lemme tell ya, I've been BORED! I sat in front of this damn machine 7 hours yesterday. Ack. I wanted to go to Ica's tonight after dad fixed the car, but he said I need to stop burning gas until I get a job. So now I'm sitting here filling out applications. I kept putting it off cuz I don't like dealing with people I don't know, and there's a lot of that when job searching. That, and I'm the best procrastinator in the world besides my Dad. I've got it down to an art. Dad's such a dork. So I needed some info for filling out this application: me: Dad, when did I start kindergarden? dad: I don't remember. just start at this year and start counting backwards. You're a junior now... me: Dad, I'm a sophomore
Thursday, January 23rd- 5:24 p.m. \| Mood: Giggly \| Music: Time of Your Life - Green Day
Wooo. So I finally watched The Doors cuz I discovered that Dad bought it. A very excellent movie, that is. Val Kilmer is a great actor. Jim Morrison was a genius. While I was rewinding the movie, I saw a commercial on TV that had a guy sitting on a chair talking about how you should pray every day and you will be heard. The commercial ended with nice, big, bold, black letters stating, "Jesus is real." I just about laughed myself into a killer stomache ache. That is almost as good as the Jesus billboard. (Which reminds me...I need to get one of those signs and stick it on my wall for laughs.) *Note: I wasn't laughing because I think the idea of Jesus is absurd or anything like that (though I question Christianity often), I was laughing because of how media-centered our society is and how driven we are by advertisements. I mean, really? Advertising religion on TV? Oh goodness, the TV told me to believe, so I'd better run out and start worshipping!
Thursday, January 23rd- 2:52 p.m. \| Mood: Blah \| Music: VG Soundtrack
Bleeargh. Dad stole my car, so I can't go anywhere. Poo. I have homework out the wazoo, but I don't feel like doing it. I'll do it later. We'll take the whole shebang, all or nothing, anything! Ecstasy's the birthright of our game. We'll take the whole shebang, free your heart of guilt and shame. Come and claim what's yours, the whole shebang! Sorry.
Wednesday, January 22nd- 6:25 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Beauty & Stupid - hide
So I didn't go to school today. I woke up with a killer headache and decided it was a good enough excuse to go back to bed. Paul walked here in the cold after school to see me. It was the sweetest thing ever. ^_____^ If we have a snow day tomorrow, I'll have a 2 day week - yesterday and Friday. Hehe. I had to take VG back today. sniffle Oh well, watched it 4 times.
Tuesday, January 21st- 5:44 p.m. \| Mood: Giggly \| Music: Anywhere - Evanescence
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHRIS! Um...went to Brandon's for a while to chill with Chris and Brandon. Watched them play Diablo II. I miss Paul. He needs to be ungrounded NOW! Heh. I'm happiest when we're together. ^_______^
Tuesday, January 21st- 5:44 p.m. \| Mood: Booooored \| Music: Satellite of Love - Lou Reed
I'm booooooooooooooooored. Merp. I feel there's something wrong, but I can't put my finger on it. Maybe he's just in a bad mood.
Monday, January 20th- 3:46 p.m. \| Mood: Confused \| Music: Livin' on the Edge - Aerosmith
So yesterday, I picked Rachel up and we drove over to Chris's house to pester him. The three of us went to the mall and played in the pet store (they had a chinchilla!!!) and the the toy store. After that, we went to Anthony's house and hung out there for a few minutes. We left Chris there, and Rach and I came back to my house till 6 when we picked Erica up and headed to Josh's for movie night. We watched Boondock Saints, which is a really good movie. Uber violent and bloody, but good nonetheless. After that, we hung out (heh) till 9:20ish, went to Taco Bell, took Josh home, and took Ica home. Rach and I came back to my house for the night and watched Velvet Goldmine, cuz I knew Rachel would appreciate it. We fell asleep around 1 and both woke up around 4 and were wide awake (no idea why). We wached Fern Gully and then went back to bed, woke up at 11, went to QT to get capuccinos and donuts, and picked Erica up. From Erica's we went to Blanchette Park and then Paul's house for a few minutes. Then I took ppl home, and now I'm here. Yay! Did I ever mention I love driving? What Velvet Goldmine character are you? That doesn't really sound all that much like me. Maybe me on an extreme level. Or what I wish I were more like. But isn't that what most of these stupid quizzes reflect? What we wish we were?
Saturday, January 18th- 11:45 p.m. \| Mood: Mellow \| Music: Velvet Goldmine Soundtrack!
I woke up today, lounged around, went to Best Buy to try and find Velvet Goldmine, didn' find it, bought the soundrack, went to Paul's, had lost of fun there, came home. Yay! What a good day. Sex and VG.
Friday, January 17th- 11:56 p.m. \| Mood: Impressed \| Music: Rebel, Rebel - David Bowie
So I just finished watching Velvet Goldmine. Words escape me. Wow. (I really like pretty boys in makeup.)
Thursday, January 16th- 10:32 p.m. \| Mood: Satisfied \| Music: Breaking Me - Jonny Lang
Hmm. So I guess I should explain a bit more. Chris didn't have anywhere to stay last night, and I wanted to make sure he had a warm, safe place to stay. Didn't want him wandering about town all night in the cold or something. I try to watch his back as much as I can, even though I know to that he'd say, "I can take care of myself." (I talked to Paul about him staying here, BTW, and he was perfectly cool with it, for those of you who were wondering.) I kept him here for his benefit, and for that of his mom. She worries about him a lot. I really wish he'd see how much she cares for him. Last night she did come by and drop off clothes for him. When she went to leave, she gave him a hug and said, "I love you." Chris's response was, "Okay, Mom." She said it again, and he gave her the same reply. Can't you see, Chris? Can't you see how much she does for you and how much she cares!? Do you ever even give her a word of appreciation or even a smile? I care about you so much, Chris, and I hate seeing you screwing up your life and losing your family. But anyway, do your thing and I'll be here for you when you need me. Jesus. I've decided my entire existance is to make others happy. Which is okay, cuz that's all I want to do. ANYWAY...I found out there was no school, so I went back to bed. I woke up around 11, and Chris shortly after. I made pancakes fo us, and we hung around here till around 3. Then Paul, Chris, and I went over to Brandon's house till 9ish. We all went to our repective homes after that, and here I am now. Going to bed soon.
Thursday, January 16th- 11:31 a.m. \| Mood: Not sure... \| Music: Love to be Loved - Peter Gabriel
YAY! NO SCHOOL FOR US! (Haha, Josh! ^^) Hmm. So Chris spent the night here (n my sunroom) last night. He got kicked out of his house, so I did a bunch of negotiations with my parents cuz I wanted to make sure he had somewhere warm to stay. Yay! He's awake!
Wednesday, January 15th- 3:14 p.m. \| Mood: Annoyed \| Music: Manji Karame - Du� le Quartz
Mom says that I can't drive to school tomorrow if it snows, so we'd better have a snow day. If we do, Kaytee and I wanna go sledding at Blanchette. If you wanna go with us, gimme a call or something. I won't be able to give any rides tho. :( Wow. Complete lack of anything to talk about. Heh. I LOVE PAUL! There. I went to Chris's house yesterday, and Paul was asleep on his stomach on Chris's bed. I laid on top of him, and he mumbled, "Get the fuck off me, Chris!" It was really funny! I think I'm suppossed to go to a concert with Christine tonight or something. Hmm. I'm not sure I can go. I don't even know where it is. Hah.
Saturday, January 11th- 11:20 p.m. \| Mood: \| Music: Only Time - Enya
Tonight, Paul and his friend Mike picked me up and we went to [forgot the name] to eat. We had a really messy pizza and laughed at how we all had problems eating it. Mike is so hilarious. After that, we went back to Paul's and played cards and watched Pretty Woman. We left there around 9:30 and went and picked up Doug. Doug was nice to me tonight, so I didn't really have a problem with him. We drove around aimlessly for a while playing loud music and making lots of noise (well, the boys were mostly). Then we went back to Mike's house for a few minutes before I had to go home. Stupid curfew. I wanted to stay with them all night! They're fun. I love boys.
Friday, January 10th- 3:45 p.m. \| Mood: Relieved \| Music: Down with the Sickness - Disturbed
::Throws confetti:: Thank you, thank you, thank you, Rachel and Erica, for supporting me and making me feel better.
Thursday, January 9th- 3:16 p.m. \| Mood: Stressed/Scared \| Music: When Doves Cry - Prince
::Whimper:: I want you here with me, to convince me that I'm imagining things and everything will be okay. I want you to hold me and comfort me and let me cry on your shoulder if I need to. I want you to be a mother I can confide in and seek advice from. I want you to be a mother who helps me through all the hard times and shares the good ones with me. Hell, I just want you to be a mother.
Tuesday, January 7th- 3:38 p.m. \| Mood: Happy \| Music: Tank! - Cowboy Bebop
Yay! I got my drivers license yesterday! jumps for joy I had so much fun randomly driving around for about 4 hours. I kidnapped Ica, then Rachel, Hefti, and Paul and we went to Jack in the Box for Rachel. We drove around aimlessly for a while, went to Blanchette park, and then I took Ica to school for cheerleading practice. I took everyone home and came back here. Damn, I need a job now. I suppose I ought to give a brief description of what went on while I was gone. December 31 This was Christine's New Year's/birthday party. We danced a lot, played twister, covered ourselves in glow sticks, and jumped around. Pariah, a band consisting of Sean, Nathan, Matt, and Adam, played at the party. THEY ROCKED! I'm uber-impressed. If I ever have a party, I'll have you guys play. I'll pay ya! Course, that probably won't be till September for mine and Ica's birthday. Dad doesn't allow many parties....hmm. January 1st Christine and I got up waaaay too early by my standards to shower and wait for Dad to pick us up, then we headed for Table Rock. We stayed in Big Cedar Lodge, and it was very nice. 'Stine and I decided we're going back. After we unpacked, we spend about an hour trying to get the television to work so we could watch Fight Club. We stayed up late watching movies and wrestling around. We also took baths in the Jacuzzi. It rocked like whoa. January 2nd We got up around eleven and headed for Branson to go shopping. Christine and I got rather irritated that there were only outlet malls, no normal ones. So, we went to this Imax theater/little mall thing and saw LotR: 2 Towers in the Imax theater. This is an 87 foot theater screen with a 22,000 watt digital surround system. The screen is 10x larger than the average theater. I sat there with wide eyes and my mouth hanging open in awe. You know you are jealous. We bought miniature remote control cars, but mine ended up not working and had to be exchanged the next day. I also bought the One Ring on a chain cuz it was only $15 and it's pretty neat. We went back to the cabin, watched movies some more, and wrestled around in an attempt to shove each other off the bed. I almost hit my head on the table by the bed, and that would have hurt like a bitch. We also played with the fireplace cuz we bought marshmellows. After we got tored of eating them, we started throwing them in the fire. We made a marshmellow man and woman too, and threw them into the fire yelling, "Aaaaah!" It was rather morbid. Marshmellow torture. January 3rd We woke up around noon cuz we were up till around 3 the night before, and we're lazy asses. We called the nifty little shuttle service to take us to the gift shop. Thiy picked us up at the cabin, and off we went! By the time we got back, Dad and Ann had left us and gone to Branson. We were a little miffed about that, but it's not like we told them to wait. We went to a restaraunt, then came back and played with our remote control cars and tried to light a fire in the fireplace (and pretty much failed). Then we wasted some more time, and went to dinner. Frm the restaraunt, we called a shuttle and headed to the swimming pool. It was really warm and had a slide and we had great fun. I untied Christine's swimsuit top once and she freaked out. It was funny. After we got tired of swimming, we discovered there was a hot tub outside, so we ran out there. It was very relaxing, and we could barely see each other cuz there was so much steam. We were both wishing we had our boyfriends with us. :( We missed them a lot. When we got out of the hot tub, we were entertained by the fact that we were so warm, steam was coming off of our bodies as we ran around outside. We went back to the cabin around 10, and watched TV some more. We found a movie we liked, and ended up staying up till 4. January 5th We got up around 10:30 and left the cabin for another 6 hour drive. We got home around 5:30ish, and I hurried to get ready for Jon's surprise party. I got there a bit early, so I helped decorate. It was a fun party, but quite a few people were in pissy moods. Poor Kaytee was pretty unhappy most of the night, for some reason I don't know. I think one was that Jon ended up not being surprised. :( So, I guess that's it. And now, a couple of quizzes that are nothing like me! Yay! I'm Mysterious Cute!! made by Jen What kind of hero are you? brought to you by Quizilla hero - You can change the stars - and do. You have always felt an innate sense of self worth. Your friends look up to you almost as much as you admire them. I'm sure they put Xena and that dude from a Knight's Tale on there with William Wallace. Psh. As if they coud measure up.
Sunday, January 5th- 12:27 p.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Undo - Bjork
Yay! I'm back from vacation. I know you all missed me very much! I'll talk about the parties and vacation later; I don't feel like typing it all up. I made a friendtest, so take it or die! ..not really. How well do you know me?
Tuesday, December 31st- 1:25 p.m. \| Mood: Excited \| Music: Dahlia - X Japan
So Dad woke me up at 8:00 today and said, "Do you wanna go take your driver's test before I go to work?" I replied with, "Unghhh." and rolled over and fell back asleep. Oops. Yay! Christine's party tonight, vacation tomorrow! sniffle I'm gonna miss my baby so much while I'm gone! Mwahahaha! Bow down before the might of my boobies!
Monday, December 30th- 3:14 p.m. \| Mood: Annoyed \| Music: Whatever - Godsmack
I went to take my driver's exam today, but they were all booked, so I couldn't take it. Poo. That's all.
Sunday, December 29th- 1:22 p.m. \| Mood: Hungry \| Music: Pose - hide
So, movies with Christine was fun. It was a pretty good movie too, but it was drawn out too long (Meet Joe Black, anyone? Ugh.) and didn't have the ending I wanted it to have. Course, the endings I want almost always involve the bad guys winning, so when a bad guy turns good, it pisses me off even more. Now that I'm done bitching about meaningless things, I must say I LOVE SLEEPING IN! God, yes. Winter vacation, I worship you. To the people in my movie group: When are we gonna do this? I leave for vacation on the 1st and get back on the 4th. Blah.
Saturday, December 28th- 1:46 p.m. \| Mood: Silly \| Music: All Apologies - Nirvana
So, I'm feeling much better! Hooray! I actually remember 2 dreams I had last night (well, this morning, I think) and neither of them were disturbing or scary! One involved watching the Two Towers over and over and over again, and the other involved Hefti and a food fight. o.O I have no idea. I only remember these cuz the phone woke me up in the middle of the last one. I'm getting so excited about vacation! It's gonna rock having Christine along. Speaking of vacation, I need to start working on my costume for the Convention in May. It's an 11 hour drive to that damn thing. o.O But it's going to be so great!
Friday, December 27th- 1:24 p.m. \| Mood: Exhausted \| Music: Baby Got Back - Sir Mix a Lot
Argh. So last night was hellatious. I started feeling a bit sick around 4ish, but Rachel came over anyway around 6. By 8, I was feeling just terrible, so I asked Dad to go ahead and take Rachel home. Sorry, Rach! :( After that, I put a movie on and fell asleep till about 10:30. I then proceeded to violently throw up everything in my stomach. I tried to drink a bit of water, but I threw that up to. I was terribly thirsty for most of the night. It sucked. I threw up some more, then laid down on the couch to watch The Crow and hopefully fall asleep. I woke up again around 5 a.m., and managed to get a drink. Around 6, I fell back asleep and slept till about 15 minutes ago. I'm feeling better now, which is good. Whatever it was didn't last long. Didn't quite feel like the flu; it was weird. Maybe it was food poisoning. Blah. So Paul is hopefully gonna come over for a while today, cuz we haven't seen each other in a long time. T_T I'm not gonna be very much fun today tho...
Thursday, December 26th- 1:15 a.m. \| Mood: Disturbed \| Music: none
Found this while I was randomly going through Sonny's Page. This is just awful, but it's funny as hell at the same time. Kind of like the Jesus dress-up thing Lena posted on her page. http://www.jesuschristsuperstore.net
Thursday, December 26th- 12:06 a.m. \| Mood: Okay \| Music: Jeremy - Pearl Jam
Hmm...I don't feel like telling about my day, so I'll just follow suit and list what I got for Christmas, tho I'm sure I'll forget some things. -19" TV -Spongebob seat cover -Full body pillow -A roll of bubble wrap -A couple of shirts and a hoodie -$80 in gift certificates and money -A Lord of the Rings calendar -3 necklaces and a pair of earrings -2 candles -A fencing book -A little lingerie thing (from Paul, of course ^^) -A really soft blanket -Some other random stuff that escapes my mind So yeah, it was a good Christmas! Hehe. I totally forgot about my coupon from you, Ica! evil grin
Wednesday, December 25th- 12:15 a.m. \| Mood: Tired \| Music: Carol of the Bells - Trans-Siberian Orchestra
Wahoo! Guess I haven't updated in a while... Monday, Paul came over and we hung out and baked cookies and got in a powdered sugar fight and had a jolly good time. Yay! Today, (well, I guess it's yesterday seeing as how it's midight.) Lena, Rachel, and Ica came over and we exchanged gifts. Thank you guys so much! I love you all dearly. And I'm so happy everyone liked their gifts. I gave Rachel my Playstation, bought Ica a pogo stick, and got Lena a really cool light saber. I love giving gifts. I just got back from Ann's sister Diane's house for their Christmas Eve. Got some clothes I'll never wear, but it was a nice gesture and I appreciate it. I love this song. Using guitars in Christmas music is great. I LOVE CHRISTMAS! Well, most of it. Hmm. I ought to