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22 January 2004

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLES :D GONG HEI FATT CHOI! *blows kisses...* ... hehe

hRms.... lunch at the Lims was fuuuun...thanx bimbO! 'sif u ever come here anyways though!! huahuahuha. The whole bunch of them are so farnie with the yee sang.. hahahah... esp Bimb0 every two secs saying "whoOhoOooO" or "whEeeEe" while lifting the yee sang the highest he possibly can with the chopstix... hauhauha. :P Until it just got ridiculous and everything was falling OUT of the plate.. hahuahua. Okays, maybe i shouldn't single him out as being the immature one.. keke :P We were all lifting the yee sang as high as possible! mmm yums. :9~

I feel horrible for piking on r0bs birthday party though...If only it weren't on CNY day. Considering it is the first day of CNY today, i thought it would be best to be wtih mah family... even though it was with Bimbos extended family! :P Oh wells, i hope he (r0b) was extremely suprised... since that is the point of a suprise party!! :) If i coudl be in two places at once, i would defeinately havee been there!

HAPPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ROBIN!!! :)

Dinner tonite with MY extended family! i love family get togethers... and can u belive i'm actually being serious? :) I guess there's just something about the togetherness, and being with people u've known n played wtih ever since u could remember (gotta love the comfort zone!). Mucho loves for them <3<3 NOT TO MENTION ALL THE FOOD TOO!! keke :9~

//reminder for self: ring claire, weikhing n pern tonight.

much love to fadz in claire too :) My deepest condolensces to fad who lost her grandma recently and claire who lost her grandfather.... :"( i remember whene my grandma past away last year, it was a month after chinese new year or something. We recieved a call at 7in the morning. My grandma had past away in her sleep. We ended up flying to m'sia straight away for her funeral. When we reached m'sia at mid night the taxi dropped us off at the end of the road where my grandparents house is. So we walked up the rocky road with our suitcases. When my mom saw the coffin she ran in crying and screaming "ma come back"- in canto of cos-until she broke down on her knees and sobbed quietly. I've never seen my mum like that... her heart breaking into a million little peices. Just watching her like that made me cry more than i'd ever cried before. More than anything, i felt sadness for my own mother. I loved my grandma, and was filled with sorrow, .but i also felt a sense of peace with her death for some reason. I knew she'd be in a better place... she was such a beautiful person wtih the kindest heart. It brings a smile to my face just thinking about all the times i spent with her. I kept looking at her in the coffin... as though willing her back to life. I couldn't stop looking at her body, lying there so still, so peaceful.Ii wanted one more look at my grandma b4 they burried her. What i remember most is all the cousins gathering at the back of the house just bawling their eyes out. My aunties were extremely close to her... and sometimes i couldn't even bear to look them in the eye... for fear that all their sorrow would overwhelm me. What is it like to lose a mother or father?

I don't ever want to know.
--slurp[06:40]

19 january 2004_____I've never felt so weirdly upset in my life. It's as though i'm upset over nothing, or like i'm upset over something that shouldn't even be happening. Has anyone ever mourned the death of a friendship before? Is there even such a thing? Cos that's the only way i can explain what i'm doing at the momentt. I'm mourning the slow death of one of my most treasured friendships. A part of me just wants to terminate it right here right now so i don't have to go through the pains of watching it slowly linger upon death. The other part of me desperately wants to revive it, but doesn't know how. I'm probably the only one who notices it's dying anyway. I'm probably the only one that gives a damn. Or maybe it's dying because i think it's dying. You know, "self fulfilling prophecies". Well, whatever is happening, it's completely shocking. I never thought the day would come where i'd have absolutley nothing to say to that person. Where conversations once filled with genuine enthusiasm become nothing but trivial chit chat. Who would have thought it would have such an effect on me. Maybe it's just pms. If it is, then It's one hellova emotional rollercoaster this month. I'm sure i'll look back on this tomorrow and laugh. Hopefully. -- slurp [02:22am]

18 january 2004

I feel so out of it lately. I want to yell really loud and punch something really hard. It doesn't help that it decided to arrive this morning either. Bringing along stomach cramps and back aches. Well at least i know i'm fertile. I'm suprised noone called me a slacker when i walked into baddi 2 hours late this morning. I swear, i was just about ready to bite anyones head off, given the chance. I can be quite unreasonable when it comes to stay, just as warning to you all... and sorry to those of you who have already had the pleasure of experiencing my bad moods! It's as though it takes over my body and seeps into my mind as well. Ahh the joys of being female.

On to more pleasant things, Fadz comes back today... well, more like tomorrow.. since she's arriving at midnight? Just wanna say hi to faddy! hiii *Wave* :P Call me when you are settled down from your trip! -- slurp[05:57pm]



	22 January 2004 HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLES :D GONG HEI FATT CHOI! blows kisses... ... hehe hRms.... lunch at the Lims was fuuuun...thanx bimbO! 'sif u ever come here anyways though!! huahuahuha. The whole bunch of them are so farnie with the yee sang.. hahahah... esp Bimb0 every two secs saying "whoOhoOooO" or "whEeeEe" while lifting the yee sang the highest he possibly can with the chopstix... hauhauha. :P Until it just got ridiculous and everything was falling OUT of the plate.. hahuahua. Okays, maybe i shouldn't single him out as being the immature one.. keke :P We were all lifting the yee sang as high as possible! mmm yums. :9~ I feel horrible for piking on r0bs birthday party though...If only it weren't on CNY day. Considering it is the first day of CNY today, i thought it would be best to be wtih mah family... even though it was with Bimbos extended family! :P Oh wells, i hope he (r0b) was extremely suprised... since that is the point of a suprise party!! :) If i coudl be in two places at once, i would defeinately havee been there! HAPPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ROBIN!!! :) Dinner tonite with MY extended family! i love family get togethers... and can u belive i'm actually being serious? :) I guess there's just something about the togetherness, and being with people u've known n played wtih ever since u could remember (gotta love the comfort zone!). Mucho loves for them <3<3 NOT TO MENTION ALL THE FOOD TOO!! keke :9~ //reminder for self: ring claire, weikhing n pern tonight. much love to fadz in claire too :) My deepest condolensces to fad who lost her grandma recently and claire who lost her grandfather.... :"( i remember whene my grandma past away last year, it was a month after chinese new year or something. We recieved a call at 7in the morning. My grandma had past away in her sleep. We ended up flying to m'sia straight away for her funeral. When we reached m'sia at mid night the taxi dropped us off at the end of the road where my grandparents house is. So we walked up the rocky road with our suitcases. When my mom saw the coffin she ran in crying and screaming "ma come back"- in canto of cos-until she broke down on her knees and sobbed quietly. I've never seen my mum like that... her heart breaking into a million little peices. Just watching her like that made me cry more than i'd ever cried before. More than anything, i felt sadness for my own mother. I loved my grandma, and was filled with sorrow, .but i also felt a sense of peace with her death for some reason. I knew she'd be in a better place... she was such a beautiful person wtih the kindest heart. It brings a smile to my face just thinking about all the times i spent with her. I kept looking at her in the coffin... as though willing her back to life. I couldn't stop looking at her body, lying there so still, so peaceful.Ii wanted one more look at my grandma b4 they burried her. What i remember most is all the cousins gathering at the back of the house just bawling their eyes out. My aunties were extremely close to her... and sometimes i couldn't even bear to look them in the eye... for fear that all their sorrow would overwhelm me. What is it like to lose a mother or father? I don't ever want to know. --slurp[06:40] 19 january 2004_____I've never felt so weirdly upset in my life. It's as though i'm upset over nothing, or like i'm upset over something that shouldn't even be happening. Has anyone ever mourned the death of a friendship before? Is there even such a thing? Cos that's the only way i can explain what i'm doing at the momentt. I'm mourning the slow death of one of my most treasured friendships. A part of me just wants to terminate it right here right now so i don't have to go through the pains of watching it slowly linger upon death. The other part of me desperately wants to revive it, but doesn't know how. I'm probably the only one who notices it's dying anyway. I'm probably the only one that gives a damn. Or maybe it's dying because i think it's dying. You know, "self fulfilling prophecies". Well, whatever is happening, it's completely shocking. I never thought the day would come where i'd have absolutley nothing to say to that person. Where conversations once filled with genuine enthusiasm become nothing but trivial chit chat. Who would have thought it would have such an effect on me. Maybe it's just pms. If it is, then It's one hellova emotional rollercoaster this month. I'm sure i'll look back on this tomorrow and laugh. Hopefully. -- slurp [02:22am] 18 january 2004 I feel so out of it lately. I want to yell really loud and punch something really hard. It doesn't help that it decided to arrive this morning either. Bringing along stomach cramps and back aches. Well at least i know i'm fertile. I'm suprised noone called me a slacker when i walked into baddi 2 hours late this morning. I swear, i was just about ready to bite anyones head off, given the chance. I can be quite unreasonable when it comes to stay, just as warning to you all... and sorry to those of you who have already had the pleasure of experiencing my bad moods! It's as though it takes over my body and seeps into my mind as well. Ahh the joys of being female. On to more pleasant things, Fadz comes back today... well, more like tomorrow.. since she's arriving at midnight? Just wanna say hi to faddy! hiii Wave :P Call me when you are settled down from your trip! -- slurp[05:57pm]