| Recently I have found myself as a college student attending the University of Wisconsin - Stevens Point. It's not that great, I grow to despise it more every day. A lot like high school. I'm a pyschology major, doing my thing. I'm mostly interested in drug abuse counseling and criminal profiling, I'm working on a way to work them both in together. Someone is going to be going to school for along time, unless I can't afford it. I did just vote for Kerry in the past election. Damnit all. I grew up in a rather secure environment, but at the same time I was always insecure. High school really takes it's toll on you, when you find yourself staring at your best friends and realizing you hardly know them anymore. Maybe it was time we all got re-aquanted with eachother. For the most part, everyone is changing, and I can't entirely exclude myself from this process. As the days go by, I find myself becoming more and more cynical. I'm plagued by the thoughts in my head, that are generally only fit for a plot on day time television. Here I am, trying to make something out of myself. Breaking away from what I never knew to be the only thing life had in store for me, yet...I find myself stuck. Stuck in this place I can't escape from. Don't want to esape from. Being held hostage in. Someone once said that 'love is patient, love is kind'...well I'd like to think love is just as cruel as I am. Maybe even more so. A lot of event have shaped me into the person I am today...too many to list on an obnoxious page in a seldomly viewed website. I rock harder than I should, listening to music that suggest a lot of things about me that probably aren't true. You can throw whatever sterotype you'd like at me, and I'll gladly return the favor. Although I feel I've already gone through an idenity crisis, to which I found a place inside myself where I could be content with myself, I find that now I'm searching for a better understanding...of myself, of my friends, and of everything around me. I'm really emotionally attached to a lot of things. I'm a metaphorical mess. Reach out and touch faith... |
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| make it go away everything and all it meant let me disappear why do we do this do this to ourselves erase |