Benjamin Feusi

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Wednesday, 11/19/2002

God is faithful. Financial struggles are among the many difficulties Lamont, my roomate has faced before and since his arrival at Moody. Though it seemed like a long shot, the Jerry B. Jenkins Award seemed like an excellent way for Lamont to testify of God's faithfulness and possibly help relieve some financial distress should he win. Even third place would have been a huge blessing. Lamont forfeited other studies to put on paper the beautiful testimony that recounts the faithfulness of God through His provision and making a way for him to come study at Moody. There was of course no guarantee he would win anything, but he asked me to pray heavily over the matter during the days he was writing. I did so and did my best to encourage him when he felt like giving up. The morning of the day it was due he asked me, "It's due at noon right?" "I think so, but we'd better check to make sure," I replied. So i open the pamphlet and read: "Entries are to be submitted...betweeen 8am and 4pm..." I went off to class. When i returned around 2pm i found Lamont horribly distraught. "It was due at noon, not 4pm," he said,"they won't accept it." I believe the phrase, "God is faithful means more to me now then it ever has after this confusing turn of events. Though it is wonderful and worthy and even acceptable to praise God for His faithfulness when things "work out," that is not necissarily the piont of God's faithfulness. He IS faithful; THAT is the point. His faithfulness is or ought to be the focal point of our thanksgiving particularly when things are NOT "working out." Who needs a god who is faithfull when things are "peachy." I suppose it is only the Holy Spirit who could cause me to see things this way; that God's faithfulness shines so vividly to me on this day, In this time i find myself especially thankful for books like Job and Ecclesiastes where our faith and God's faithfulness come crashing together and the pile of theology that's reavealed when the dust clears at first glance seems just plain wrong and rather embittering. But really...in the end, God is God and Man is Man. God remains worthy to be praised and in this i find immeasurable comfort.

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