| 1/19/02 What do I see in the mirror, you ask, Do you really want to know? Yes, you say. Well okay. I see no one. A faceless girl, I see nothing. I�m alone in this world. I�m not loved. I�m not liked. I�m not pretty. I have no life. So mirror, mirror on the wall Tell me why I�m here at all. 3/15/02 So far today I�ve been ok. I haven�t felt sad, Or ashamed Or mad A boy I like even smiled at me. Today has been good. But later I know That I�ll sit in my room And cry. I don�t know why. The tears just fall. Like raindrops on a summer day. Stealing the heat As they fall at my feet. 3/1/02 little girls in sun dresses running on the beach. Swimming in cool water. Making castles in the sand. �I cant wait till I grow up� that was what we said. �im gonna be a singer� �well im gonna be a movie star� we thought for sure we�d go far. We�d laugh and try to imagine love. We�d giggle and discuss our future We�d whisper when we saw a boy �I cant wait till I grow up� that was what we said. Now I�m almost there And it seems growing up has driven us apart. We used to be like sisters. Now I don�t know you. Sure we still run and laugh on the beach. But you and I aren�t able to reach The real us. We cant be the same little girls that we were. I guess were all grown up now. But now we say� �I wish I could be young again� that�s when we were little girls in sun dresses running down the beach. 4/20/02 I have this rage, That swells up like a storm. It takes control of me And makes my insides squirm. It makes me feel so hollow And useless and untrue. It makes me feel so empty Until I think of you. 3/15/02 Once I read a poem That moved me deep inside. Once I read a story That nearly made me cry. Once you opened up your heart And tried to let me in. Once was just enough for you, So you never did again. |