Urgh~~~had troubles logging into yahoo for the past few days!!! T____T thats y until now then i could come up here n babble...i feel so tired!!!! *pouts sadly*
Work..projects coming up..i dunno y i just feel so tired and sleepy these few days..too much stress in me? i worry too much? :/ But i am coping quite well in class..or at least there isnt any test to gauge how much i understand it now.There will be soon.By next week :(
Yesterday was Ryou's birthday! I got him a present a week ago...hahahaha...yesterday wasnt a happy day at all...im now as gloomy as the gloomy bear..but i have no one to scratch thats all :X
Had my jap lessons yesterday too...We were still talking abt katakana >.<;;;; Had revision on those past tense and she actually teaching...doko e n nani ka o.O;;;; i tot that was basic ones? er..nvm..then she seem to like to call me to answer question for that session.Is my name that nice to call?? She saw my laruku drawing and suggested i draw some for the shimbun too :D And she had larc songs and will play it next time XD XD im looking forward to that! haha!
Currently doing research on natsu matsuri for my presentation..then i come across this page..oh my god!! so cute!!!! There's this girl that skates with your cursor wherever it goes on the site.Haha!!! I also want something like this! It'll be so fun..but will be very distracting *lol*
Got to practice for adobe photoshop..heard that there's gonna be a lab test for it soon too.CD has test next week and my week's gonna do presentation on premarital sex abt it too.Cos i tot i was gonna go japan thus i pushed forward the thing.well..oh well....its fated. ;p
Today i missed call from hmv..actually i could have picked it up..cos my tutor was rounding off the lesson..but still the person ended the call just before i could pick it o.O;;; But just as i guessed..shoxx is here!!! I shall go get it tommorrow hehe.And get a notebook for my ICP.I think i want a notebook or wad to go along with the tutorials.Or at least some files or folders o.O;
Sigh...i feel so restless that i do not know of what i want to say anymore...i think i just used up many brainpower trying to keep myself awake n pay attention during the day time that now im so...lifeless....
Been thinking of life n death a lot....Just now i suddenly felt that...actually i wont have much regrets just dying like this....i had a rather smooth life..was once being pampered...had happy times with friends...even if they arent true friends....I wont mind death now...But of course i want a peaceful and painless one.......i dun like pain....U might say..hey u havent done this, havent achieved that...but u noe wad? Those dreams and goals are just...sort of stuffs that make u want to continue living...if not we will be better off dead? :P Agree it or not...u can say im odd....i just think of it this way...i dun really fear death...i just fear of painful ones.....
Maybe i'll think of this way cos i havent really found the "thing" in my life....
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