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To day i went to see my ex at Coffee Society, I know he's coming with his new boy friend so i broung my friend,Su, with me ... Cuz i dont know how to act if i was going there alone. When we got there so we made lot of conversation,manything to talked and i talked to his new boy friend also. I tried to not look into my ex boy friend's eyes. Think that abit not safe for me. he might knew what was i thinking ? I did try pretending to be happy and smiling all the time and I knew I did quite well.(almost win Oscar) We left , I was alone with my friend.and I asked "How long you think will they be together ?" "stop it,he's not for u" said Su 'Yes I know that but I just asking!!!!i dont..." " I know you dont love him and you dont care about him,but you just wonder why when he was with you,why did not he did to you like he do with his new bf,right?" said Su. "Yes,just wonder"said me "he's not for you Pice,hey how about Matt ? will he come,when he come you have to introduce me to him" he could make me felt riser by talking about Matt...
When I got home I came to online and I met another ex boy friend.. he's got new boy friend also .. but has some problem.he's not quite sure about his boy friend,he ask me how to be sure about his boy friend in Thailand and he in Italy. I gave him some advice..and i tell his that love is about two people being trust,caring and sharing then will be come loving but if you love to much it will be come care.and if you care to much,it will become jealous of him and if you jealous to much,then nothing going well. just broke and broke and broke up!!!!
Tonight I can;'t deny really that i dont care both of my ex boy friends..I still do,cos my feeling is tell me when I listen to their story,it could still feel sad and hurt sometime and wish,'why it not me?' but it just tonight.. I know it. I know it very well.tomorrow I will be fine..and i hope they will not angry with me if they both up with their new boy friend and trun to me but i dont feel sorry for them like I did before. I hope they won't .......
*silent boy*
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