After Alan bought me a new phone,last friday.He said "your (late) birth day gift" So lovely.After then he left Bangkok on saturday.:-(
My weekend,was fine nothing bad,I was thinking about interivew on March25.03 only.And last Sunday I went to see maid in manhattan.
My best friends.Jamie still broken heart and hurt.He alway talking about his ex bf,Sometime I feel jealous. I have nothing exciting to day.It secert day to tell anybody. falling in love with someone.not Jamie.not Mr.Brian(my teacher) it too secert. And I might going to Koh Chang with him next month.
10.03p.m. I can;'t believe it.Since i was dating I made so many people going mad with me.Alan like me so much and finally he falling in love with me..Steve,He was falling in love with me also.he is very nice man.Yesterday i went to met him.he cook for me also.so nice..and lovely..His room on 20fr..can see Bangkok's view.very nice.I like tall building,,And can made steve falling in love with me..I dont know why.I did nothing.just be me! Pice.. or maybe it was because Oui.She told me about date with guy."Dont ever let them know then you really like him.just be you,shy sometime,dont talk much,and dont ever let them thing you are too easy to get on their bed,And they'll falling in love with you easily,Pice" Maybe it was because Oui..my best friends.
Sometime I thnk.Yeah,maybe she's right. I feel like,Something or someone is easy to get or have.i alway never look at them,,I know I'm evil..Like Alan,and Steve.He like me very much.and I was waiting for someone who's really love me.but when I found that.I dont know why i can;t stop to looking for new guy.And it make me think.Maybe another people do the same with me.Like Paul.who's I was so in love with him for 9 month..I alway ask him"When can you be my boy friends?" And he alway go out with some another people and never care about me. And now.I walk away from him.(but we are still good friend) now he alway ask me to be his boy friends.But I'm just dont care.dont look.. sometime in thie world in to difficult and sometime something it's alredy to diffilcualt to do.but why people like you and me alway make it more difficault. like.Why dont i love someone who love me? Yes,I do,I like Alan and Steve..(dont even know wisch one to chose) but i dont know why am i still looking for new guy,I dont know why I can;t stop it.and I dont even know what am i looking for.Or maybe I might to scare to love somebody because i dont wanna hurt anybody anymore.or maybe i am to scare to get hurt.And I dont know what am i writing about to day...just know then my heart is beating still.
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