Today after the class at AUA i went to Coffee Society,i was waiting for the answer from one of my friend.He said he will answer me if we could me for coffee this evening because he might go to birthday party with his friend,but i thought i already knew the answer,he rather go to the party.And no,he didn't let me know.While another Thai friend of mine on the way to see his guy for dinner and while my close friend busy on the phone with her girl friend.What about me ? ..about me ?
I was sitting on the second floor,my favorite conner next to the window ,reading magazines,alone..try to find something to do to forgot the feeling which is called "lonely" ,I thought i had better leave.. and i left
I got home and I had to pretending to smile,dont want anyone to know what I felt inside,plus my family already got many things to worry about.I played with my dogs,answer the question "where you've been" to my little bro,I gotta pretending and lied that it was fun and it was excited day to me.But deeply inside i would say "the world out side it's so cold!". I got back to my room ,can't stayed long,then decided to 7-eleven to made a phone call to someone, 4 rings ,no answer, I called to the friend who was on the way to see his guy for dinner , 5 times , and had to left one message,hoping he will call back.Called to another friend and he was busy with another friend too,but we talked a bit.
If i have a boy friend right now,I wouldn't be this worry or feel this feeling 'why all the friend have forgotten me?".My boy friend might say 'it's alright,babe'.only that word and a quick warm hug (maybe long if he is not a shy guy) that would be powerful to recharge my spirit back again.I need something more than just good looking of him (my bf) and sex. I need someone who can stay up all night to talk with me after we make love. Someone who aways sitting in the middle of my heart because of his honest.Someone i feel comfortable when i talking to,Someone who;s not always laughing about my naughty joke stories but someone who's said "I have heard of that because and it's just basic and now listen to mine,much more funny than yours".Someone who can give me advice as good as his sex positions.But who's know ? maybe when I have a boy friend I wouldn't need friend like most people (have done to me).
Say u've gotta go with him
Say he can't live without you
Say I'll be alright
Say I'll make it through
Could I question you ,why?
What's make u describe that way
Wanna make it fair,do you?
Don't show your kindness for him to me
I wanna know,have u ever care about me?
Where do you keep me inside of you
I wanna know cos I'm sensitive too
Don't ever think I don't care
Say he's been good to you
Say you'd like to be as good as he was
But invisible man right here
Was never made sence to you
