Rebekah 201: Useless Stuff
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Song: Song of the Cebu - VeggieTales
I'm hungry. But then, when am I not? My mother thinks I'll balloon when I'm older. So reassuring. For now, I'm enjoying my high metabolism. Anyhoo, Rebekah is happy. Life is good. God has always been good. I just need to appreciate it more.
5/27/05
Song: Vincent - Don McLean
Yesterday someone told me that I was a good person. I try to be, but I know that statement only applies to works. Sometimes I feel like I'm just going through the motions, and doing what I know I should do. I'll never get to Heaven that way. Being on the road to Heaven does not mean being flawless, it means having a soul that loves God and doing good works because of faith, not of obligation. I like to have a definite set of rules of what I can and cannot do. I operate better that way, or so I think. But as much as I like that idea, it is not the best one. God sent his Son to die for us to establish the new covenant, which is a law of faith, and to abolish the old law of works. My human mind cannot completely comprehend why, and I won't ask.
5/26/05
Song: The Yodeling Veterinarian of the Alps - VeggieTales
I've finally got a sample of my piano playing. Warning: the orchestra is a little out of tune. It isn't my most impressive piece, but it's the only one I have professionally recorded. Piano Concerto No.1, Largo - Beethoven.
5/25/05
Song: Margaritaville - Jimmy Buffett
My, a lot of things have happened in the past few days. This summer will definitely not be boring. I think I'm going to go take a nap. Details may or may not follow.
5/23/05
Song: I'm Still Here - Vertical Horizon
"I hate Mondays." What a great quote. One-seventh of a life is spent in a Monday. And now I feel like throwing up...Remember when I said "I don't trust anyone who would ask me out who didn't know me." Guess what happened.
5/22/05
Song: I Want a Hippopotamus for Christmas
Ok, it's a little early for the Christmas songs...I usually don't start til mid-summer. But since I happen to be in an exceptionally good mood today, I'm changing the tradition. And maybe I do want a hippopotamus for Christmas. It can live in the creek and scare all the trespassing hunters. I think I'll name it Hubert.
5/20/05
Song: Treason - Kutless
He had the nerve to say that nobody in recent car accidents had been seriously hurt. My father is dead. A friend had her foot crushed. A woman had several bones broken, then eventually died after her car was hit by a dump truck. I would call that serious, wouldn't you? Only one person I can think of in the included group was not injured. I believe that to be truthful the statement should be changed.
5/18/05
Song: Will I Ever Tell You? - The Music Man
So I was watching a dating show on tv (don't ask) and you know what? There are some shallow men out there. No surprise there. Actually, because of that knowledge I don't trust anyone who would ask me out that didn't know me...which has happened a few times. Being single has its advantages...the power to choose. There's still time to keep any mistakes from happening.
5/17/05
Song: Ten Minutes Ago - Cinderella
I've been reading my past entries again. Sorry for being so whiny. Sometimes I wonder if I'm really all here...
5/16/05
Song: I'm So Lonesome I Could Cry - Hank Williams, Sr.
Good news. It's Monday and I didn't fall down the stairs. Woo. But I did go through about 7000 in large bills in two hours. In fact I was carrying 2000 when I fell down the stairs last Monday. Do you know how unsanitary money is?! It's disgusting! That is why I carry around my trusty bottle of germ-x...
5/15/05
Song: It's Like Me - Kutless
This is an awesome CD. Sounds a little like Default with some Linkin Park mixed in. Anyhoo, I am at this moment making my life too complicated. A couple of days ago I thought my life was boring. Maybe I'm trying to make it interesting, but I'm headed for trouble. But really, it's always all or none. It's not a problem right now, but it is potentially life-wrecking. I would say that I know what I'm doing, but really I don't. No worries, though. Something will come along.
5/13/05
Song: Alla Marcia - Benjamin Britten
I'm a little concerned about my progress in my piano repertoire. For one thing, I don't have a real piano. The piano I practice on isn't weighted as much as it should be. Also I am only able to practice for twenty minutes a day. This is ridiculous. My recital is next spring, and at this rate I won't be able to learn anything until I get back to school.
5/10/05
Song: Wasting My Time - Default
I got pretty riled up last night. I was trying very hard not to say anything because I didn't know how it would come out. I understand why he and my dad never got along.
5/8/05
Song: I Fall to Pieces - Patsy Cline
I'll admit it: I don't like change. But that's what life is all about, so I guess I better deal with it. I'm tired of hearing about the accident and all the "if only"s. I don't like to talk about it either, but it happens to be the topic of every extended family gathering and also it's also what people associate me with.. "I bet you're having a hard time" or "I bet it doesn't seem real." Comments like that. If I wanted to talk about it I would bring it up.
5/6/05
Song: Baby Girl - Sugarland
Hello insecurity! Hello exhaustion! Hello excruciatingly torturous roadtrip I'm taking tomorrow! Now that I've said hello to everyone, lets get on to business: My happy/fluttery little impressionistic phase is over. Out with the nocturnes!
5/5/05
Song: The Lion Sleeps Tonight
One day I will have a piano! I think. Yeah, like when I'm 70 and falling apart...Anyhoo, eventually I will save enough money to at least get one with weighted keys. Memo to self: Do your homework, already! How hard can it be?
5/2/05
Song: Don't Stop Believing - Journey
I spent almost an entire day writing one email. That's incredibly insane. It's the perfectionist in me, because I certainly didn't say anything important and awe-inspiring. Maybe this is a sign of OCD. Joy. I just love anxiety disorders...
5/1/05
Playing detective can get a person in trouble. I feel like I might know more than I should. So much for anonymity. I'm also in another unrelated awkward situation. I'd like to blame it on someone, but I know that I bring it all on myself. I'm too frightened, too curious, and too weak. Talk about a great combination.
4/30/05
Song: Crazy - Patsy Cline
My GPA is still flawless, and I have no idea why. I'm also a little befuddled because I'm doing something that I once criticized. But once I'm on the other side of the fence, it's not completely insane. I do think that I need a reality check every once in a while. I've got to keep everything in perspective.
4/27/05
Song: How Long Has It Been?
Guess what, Plan A is already flawed. Once again the future looks uncertain. Where will I go, what will I do, what will happen to the land?
4/26/05
Song: Wave on Wave - Pat Green
Ok, so I'm watching Dukes of Hazzard for the first time. Obviously acting and plot have very little to do with the show...Cars and looks, that's what it's all about. But it sells. Onto more important business: Why is that when you get to the climax of the plot of a dream that something wakes you up, such as a phone ringing? I was just about to confront an issue that's been bothering me the last couple of days. I tried to go back to sleep, but it was in vain.