Rebekah 201: Useless Stuff
Photographs
Poetry
Roy: December 2004 (II)
Good riddance!
Song: At Seventeen - Janis Ian
A former friend once told me, "Rebekah, you need to learn how to take a compliment." I finally realized what she meant. When people give compliments, they expect them to be received. I get so embarrassed at being complimented that I often blush and try to change the subject. That, in fact, offends people.
1/20/05
Song: Come Monday - Jimmy Buffett
I made a breakthrough in Riven! Yay! Maybe I can actually beat this thing without a walkthrough. I didn't think it was possible but I think I have turned into a bigger nerd than I was last year. Oh well. It's usually the nerds that become successful, so HA!
1/18/05
Song: The Flower Duet - Charlotte Church
I think Tuesdays and Thursdays are my favorite class days. The worst thing about it is that there's no time for a nap between classes. I so needed one today, yet I am still awake after classes are over. Oh, and the capital of Bolivia is La Paz. That's the name that was jumping out to me, but I was afraid it was wrong so I didn't say it. I don't like being wrong. I learned something recently, but I haven't learned to apply it yet. Don't discuss a topic that you know very little about with an expert. Like don't talk about college football with an ESPN addict if you've only seen a couple of games. That's definitely one way to look stupid.
1/16/05
Song: The Water Is Wide - Charlotte Church
I'm sick. I wonder if cats are contagious. (I don't like Biology, so I really wouldn't know the answer.) I think my Charlotte Church CD is the best 9 dollars I've invested in quite a while. Great song selection and a wonderful voice. I'm wondering more and more about holidays, and if it's really ok to celebrate them as a Christian. #1. Christmas has turned into a celebration of materialism, and not of Christ's birth. Santa Claus? Uh, no. #2. Easter Bunny and eggs. Need I say more? I mean the part about Christ's resurrection is good, just not the egg hunting and candy.
1/14/05
Song: Habanera - Bizet
Yes, I am in a classical mood. I'm starting to enjoy opera music. How scary is that? Last night I overdid the hide-and- seek (it's for college people too!). It made me feel sick, in fact. Actually I started feeling depressed because they were picking on me. I know they were just kidding, but I was made fun of on a regular basis in my younger days and I still take it seriously when I shouldn't. Just for clarification, I was made fun of because of my conservatism, naivity, and my long hair. Wow, this is humiliating. But I must be honest.
1/13/05
Song: Sneaky Snake - Tom T. Hall
I love rice bags. They do wonders. I've had a headache for most of the day. I'm starting to wonder if it's because my hair is so heavy. I think I'm progressing a little with my coping skills. Instead of hating myself for feeling stupid, I just feel ignorant. The simple fact is that I was never taught how to count in cut-time. The way to cure ignorance is to learn. So I'm going to teach myself. Less Riven, more rhythm learning. That's a hard substitution to make. I need a break anyway. I'm stuck. The best way to get unstuck I've found is to not dwell on it too much. Wait til my mind is clear.
1/11/05
Song: Unfriendly World to Me - Albert E. Brumley
I had the greatest dream last night. I think it's because I've been thinking about 'The End' lately. The sun exploded and began to fall, the moon fell out of the sky and onto the earth. This of course created panic. There was not much food or other resources so several of us were wandering around like nomads. I finally realized that we were wanderers before this happened and that we were all going to end up in the same place after the earth was gone. It's so true. People only choose careers and get married to find happiness during their lifetime. If 'The End' is near, why worry about things like that? Not that I would mind having a successful career and getting married. I just shouldn't worry about it because I don't know how much longer I'll be here.
1/10/05
Song: You Make All Things New - Steven Curtis Chapman
Finally my room has some color to it. Spongebob is just the touch it needed. I applied for an apartment today for next semester. Two years in the dorm has made me want something else. I was right about Music Theory. This class is about two chapters behind the other one. Yes, I was bored out of my mind. I can tell that Finance is going to be interesting, but I've already found some conflicts between it and Economics. Being the first day of classes, there's not much to do. I brought a puzzle with me, but I'm not ready to start it yet. I wish I could play Battlefront right now.
1/9/05
Song: Suerte - Shakira
Orange juice and waffles don't mix well. That is what I have learned this week. Other interesting news: My cat has a cold. Poor Percy. Anyhoo... I'm leaving tomorrow. Another exciting semester is about to begin. This time, no expectations. Last semester I lost two family members. Definitely didn't see that coming. No expectations means no let downs, but it still gives room for surprises.
1/6/05
Song: When You Say You Love Me - Josh Groban
"And the seventh angel poured out his vial into the air; and there came a great voice out of the temple of heaven, from the throne, saying 'IT IS DONE.' And there were voices, and thunders, and lightnings; and there was a great earthquake, such as was not since men were upon the earth, so mighty an earthquake, and so great. And the great city was divided into three parts, and the cities of the nations fell: and great Babylon came in remembrance before God, to give unto the cup of the wine of the fierceness of his wrath." - Revelation 16:17-19 KJV
1/4/05
Song: The Prayer - Josh Groban and Charlotte Church
I don't know why I keep thinking about him. Unrequited love. Of course. The one person I KNOW I would be unhappy with in the long run happens to be the only one I want. I haven't even spoken to him in at least two months. But he was there when it mattered. That's what I remember the most. Unfortunately he's also a jerk. That's why it wouldn't work.
1/3/05
Song: Can't Help Lovin' Dat Man - Show Boat
My friend brought her boyfriend over to my house a couple of days ago. I beat him three times at ping pong. That is what I miss during the non-school season: competition. I kinda like winning too. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I have a brother, but guys are more fun to play games with than girls. I love all these indoor games and I'm decent at them, but when it comes to actual athletic ability like soccer or something, I become the klutz. Speaking of that word, I lost my shoe on the way to work today...don't ask.