Rebekah 201: Useless Facts
Photographs
Roy: September 2004 (II)
It's all over now. I know there is a reason. Like a friend of mine has told me, "If God brings you to it, God will bring you through it."
10/10/04
Song: Walk By Faith - Jeremy Camp
It's funny that all of a sudden my life hasn't seemed so bad in the past. I've complained about things that don't really matter at all and ignored the people that matter to me the most. This is going to sound so cliche, but I've taken everything for granted. I took it for granted I would see my dad again like he always has been when I came home on Friday. I've always known it was possible that something would happen to one of us, but I've always kind of imagined it would be me. I've seen so many families in the waiting room and heard so many stories. One thing is constant. Even those families that aren't normally religious are turning to God. He's the only one that can help. The Great Physician. We've got so many people around the world praying. I know what ever happens is best for us. This peace really does pass all understanding.
10/8/04
Has it really only been two days? Daddy won't wake up. I was thinking about withdrawing from school...but Mama has convinced me not to. I'm going to need that scholarship as long as I can keep it. I feel as if I've aged ten years in the past 48 hours. It doesn't seem real at all. I keep imagining he's going to walk in at any moment because we are waiting on someone else. But it's not anyone else. It's him. Although the doctors aren't optimistic, we haven't given up hope. We have people from Washington to Georgia, to Costa Rica praying for him. I've seen a couple of miracles in the past few years. I know it can happen again if God wills it. But sometimes what we want isn't in our best interest. God knows that. There are so many verses in the Bible pertaining to this. I just never realized how many before. I've gotta go. We're going back to the hospital now.
10/6/04
Song: Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson
I've about decided to give up on this altogether. Nineteen years...what's a few more? Besides, it's ruining my grades. Okay, grades aren't That important, but I need to focus on Something right now, so grades it is. The reason I did make all A's the last two semesters was because I didn't have friends to distract me from studying. Anyhoo. Enough of the sob story. Shall I go back to my satire? * * * Song: I Still Believe - Jeremy Camp. My dad has been in a car accident. I'm scared. I don't know what to do. I can only sit here and wait for someone to get me.
10/5/04
Song: Roses - Outkast
Hmm. I'm not quite back on my high again, even though things are looking better. Now I'm sensing a second problem. I do know, however, that my video game skills need some work. I had to write down a list of hobbies last night also. It read "Piano, Music, and Reading." That makes me sound like a horribly boring person. I don't think I'm boring, but I'm probably just fooling myself. I do that a lot. It is yet morning, so there is time for my mood to change. I've been told I'm moody. It doesn't sound like a good quality to have. Oh well. Take it or leave it. * * * 8:28 pm. I'm getting the feeling that very few people, if any at all, listen to me. Maybe they take advantage of my lack of talking. I'm usually ready to listen, but when I would like to say something, it seems that they don't have the time or they don't care. I don't require a lot of time. I just want what someone would be willing to spare for me. But who am I to ask for that? No one, really. I guess I'll stay silent then...If you can believe it, my mind is a very loud place. I suppose that if I did lighten my burden it would only put it on someone else. I've handled it so far, I can keep doing it.
10/4/04
Song: Piano Concerto No. 1 in C Major - Beethoven
Yesterday was horrible. Hey, I figured something like that would happen sooner or later. It always does. If it's not one thing, it's another. I suppose it was time to come down from the high of life. It probably wasn't good for me. Sigh...I don't know. Sometimes I act like such a moron. Here I am...back at square one...are you happy now?
10/3/04
Song: Wonderful Grace of Jesus
Sunshine feels great. It makes me think of that John Denver song that I don't know very well. I'm suppose to be writing about Benjamin Franklin's opinion of religion. As usual, I'm procrastinating. Something is wrong with me right now. I'm too distracted. Wait. No...I'm usually distracted. Ok, nevermind. Did I tell you I found my backup Tetris software? It's a beautiful thing. If I win this time, it's because I really am more skilled than the other person. I hate it when guys let me win.
10/2/04
Song: I Wanna Talk About Me - Toby Keith
I've had an extra weekend day to ponder things, and not to mention a wonderful conversation with someone I really need to forget one of these days. Anyways...I need to be rational about this. What are the pros and cons to this possible upcoming situation? First observation: this is not a "rational" topic. In fact it's highly emotional. That would explain my reluctance to it. Second observation: Other things constant, this could actually increase my contentment with life. Third observation: I am currently in a fun stage. Eventually the fun will wear off. What priority does "fun" have in my life?
9/30/04
Song: You Get Me - Zoegirl
I'm trying to keep an open mind here, but I'm not sure how long it will last. Anyways, last night was interesting. I witnessed a baptism in the wee hours of the morning. About 1:15 to be more exact. Aside from that, I found out what it was like to be Catherine Morland. It was quite funny, yet tormenting at the same time. In fact right now I am tempted to laugh out loud because of the irony of it all. You know how I love irony.
9/29/04
Sorry, no song today. But I do have some good news. "I just saved a bunch of money on my car insurance by switching to Geico!" Ok, not really. I just like saying that. Plus, the gecko is cute. * * * 5:32 pm. Song: Take My Life - Jeremy Camp. Yay my tests are over! No more studying! At least for a few days. I think I've given up hope on maintaining my 4.0. It's just not looking pretty.
9/28/04
Song: I Believe - Third Day
Let's consider the opportunity cost here. I can afford to make a B on the economics test because the lowest grade will be dropped. I need to make an A on my Lit. test to be cautious. So what should I do in my spare time for the next two days? Literature, obviously. But then you add in the two dinner plans I have and I end up with less time. The question really is "Is an increase in my social life worth a decrease in my academic life?" Good question. I'm still thinking about it. I'll figure it out when I get there. * * * 12:44 pm. I believe I have a convincing piece of evidence to support the academic life side. Twenty percent of my accounting grade is now stamped with an "80." Not only a B, but it's practically a C! Not acceptable. I'm going to study now. * * * 6:12 pm. Life can be surprising sometimes. In a good way.