March 29, 2003
Ahh! Kill me now! Accounting is *such* a dry read! No wonder I'm still working through the same chapter all day long! Man... I have six chapters to plow through. Thank goodness the final is still more than a week away...Other than that, this day has been pretty relaxing. Or chillaxing... haha. ;o) Keeps coming up at CCF for some reason, but hey, it's all good. Let's see, after lunch, I started reading fanfic, then accounting, then Agnes and I did laundry for like two and a half hours (wellll... we also watched some Higher Ground... as Becca said, Hayden Christensen is *so* type cast... he should model or something), then I fried myself my T-bone steak (thanks dad! wasn't dry this time...). After dinner, I played a few rounds of word racer on Yahoo, sang along to my Jimmy Eat World CD (hmm... I don't think the line "cheating gets it faster" should be heard right now), stared at a little too many Gregory Smith/Everwood pics (check out the Seventeen prom photo shoots ones... so nice!), printed old accounting finals (*gasp!* academic related!), and now I'm here, telling you all this useless stuff. Oh well, my page, my choice. ;o)
Oh yeah... I had a really fun time with Marianne yesterday after CCF. We watched (what else but) Moulin Rouge on her computer, and of course we sang along to pretty much all the songs that we could! Such a good movie... so good, that I felt compelled to update my bio page and mention it. Mwahaha... things to look forward to in Ottawa with her (ie. re-enactment of "Spectacular Spectacular"... could you imagine the chaos and hilarity???). I'm glad God placed her in my life, because she's the only person I'll know already in Ottawa!
Anyway, I think my browsers are threatening to close themselves, so I better fire this off before it does. :oP Have a great day, people, and have fun studying (try, at least).
March 27, 2003
Just got back from unit 7 after some sandwiches and a game of Marco Polo. Wished we could've bonded with our fellow blockies more over the two terms. Our house only sees the rest of them when we have block meetings, and our neighbours are a)always hiding, b)too far away (doorwise), and c)not participating in block activities. But anyways, it was fun, playing Marco Polo in the dark. Loved Sharon's hiding position... no one saw her! It was great...Anyway, just wanted to blurt that out. Back to doing nothing... :oP
March 25, 2003
*squeals of delight* The hoodies are finally in!!! It took at painless 30 minutes to drive to Immediate Sales, pick up the order, and drive back (thanks Justin!). We've got it all sorted now, so it's gonna be cool seeing everyone don on their hoodies tonight at the block meeting. Provided that they come, of course. The red hoodie that I got is a little bright, but hey, it's our block's hoodie... who can complain. :oP Well, this whole hoodies deal is finally over. I did enjoy doing it. Seriously. I *am* that geeky to be able to say that. If there was ever a need to order more hoodies... bring it on!*sighs dreamily* I'm in Everwood heaven again. So sad... if they only put ugly people on TV shows and had stupid, pointless plots, then I wouldn't be so addicted. Alas, the creative minds at the WB *had* to make a show with good looking people dealing with pretty unlikely yet sympathizable circumstances and get people who are hopelessly bored in their own lives (like myself) addicted. It's funny when I talk to Stephanie about Everwood... we talk about Ephram (another ultimate "emo"-boy, like Christian... guess I'm also hopelessly devoted to emo-boys - thanks for the term, Jasmine's-ex-housemate-that-I've-never-met!) and Amy and Colin and Andy like they were our friends back home! Can't help it. I'm a psycho. And I read and write fanfic (stop writing such good fics and inspiring me to write my own, people!!!), which makes me even more psychotic. Oh well, there *is* a reason I'm in psychology...
Anyway, I'm gonna go take a nap, since my "I'm gonna sleep at 10pm" plan backfired last night. Take care...
March 23, 2003, part two
I request a moment of silence for Sip, my alien water bottle. Today, part of his straw broke off. Emergency surgery (ie. ripping off the broken part of the straw) has restored partial function of Sip, but he can no longer can be closed due to the shortening of his straw. If you were to look at him right now, you will see that he is crying. I would show you a picture of him, had I had a scanner with me.I am not crazy. Just attached to my possessions. Thank you for joining me in my moment of silence. You may go back to your regularly scheduled programming. In my case, waiting for my almond cookies (which unfortunately taste like sugar cookies... not bad, but not what I want) to finish baking.
March 23, 2003, part one
After reading the blogs/sites of various people today, I felt I needed to update and tell you all this useless stuff floating in my head! Well, useless to you, I suppose. Anyway, Elevation was cool, as always. The discussion group was pretty cool today, and it was interesting hearing how everyone dealt with their "imprisionment" (I think the actual word I want to use starts with an "A", but I'm experiencing some mental block right now... I believe you're supposed to experience it at least once a week or something - useless fact one of the day... but hey, I'm applying to major in psych, so I should spew this info out to keep it all in my head, but now I'm just rambling...). May I also add that, man, this is THE summer to get married! Or get engaged. Or something. Too bad I don't have my shepherd man... (haha... you know you want one, Ceci! And Angela! And Becca!) But congrats to everyone attending Elevation/Embassy and are getting married or are engaged.Parents came up yesterday and we had a little family time. I bet my parents are glad that I ended up at Waterloo, in one way. They can just visit one city (or hicksville) to see both daughters. So I was recounting that we had dinner then coffee at Williams (*still* have yet to try their dessert... their drinks are so-so... go Second Cup!) to Agnes, and she says my family is pretty westernized. I suppose, in one way. Either that, or we're just plain weird. Unless all you out there can tell me the last time you went out to coffee with your family too. But I enjoy that... it's our own little thing. :o)
Oh yeah... had a mini jam session after CCF on Friday. Very mini... just me and Alex and Simon playing guitar and/or hammering away at the conga for about 10 minutes. Ah! I want a conga! It's so fun! I love the sound of it... it's a hopeless cause for me to learn the drums since I can't even keep an even strumming with the guitar (weelll... in some cases), so I'll just go for the one conga thing. Time to save up... Oh yes, may I also add that I've enjoyed my worship cell immensely this term. The group is great in practice and in discussion. It's too bad we only got to lead three times, but all three times were great.
Man... Plumb's "Pennyless" is playing for the umpteenth time right now on my CD player. I bet I'm wearing a whole in it by now. And annoying my housemates. But it's such a nice song! And sad. When I start my own band (or become a solo artist, but I'd rather not), I think all my songs will be in the minor key. The stuff that I attempt to write tend to be in the minor key. Anyways, I'll just dream on now because I'm too embarrassed to perform any of my little ditties in front of people... just relax with them in the private of my own room. I don't feel called in this direction anyways. It's not that I'm talented or anything.
Okay, I believe I've rambled on long enough now. Back to history précis reading/writing (but more likely working on my Everwood piece so I can post it soon...). Take care!
March 20, 2003
Don't really have much to say, but it's been over a week since I've updated, so here you are. Finally done all my midterms, and as soon as the third history precis is over and done with, I'll start gearing up for finals. I can't believe first year is almost over! Noo!!! Anyways, I think I'll be more focused on fic writing than finals studying. So sad... did you know I churned out two fics in less than a week? One for Third Watch (my main domain...) and the other for Moulin Rouge (only takes a watching of it over the weekend and Jasmine's lending of her soundtrack to give me inspiration!), which is a first. Shameless plug: go check them out. I'm also working on an Everwood fic and another Third Watch one... but back to *real* life...So. US is at war with Iraq. It's not hitting as hard as I thought it might, but I guess it has a lot to do with the TV and how visual images can make a lasting impact. I was wondering if the popular "it'll be over by Christmas" (not that Christmas is what people are aiming for, but that's what they said about both WWI and WWII and look what happened during those two wars) sentiment will prove true. It'll also be interesting to see if Bush actually kicks Saddam out, what the world reaction will be. Saddam is after all a tyrant that's been around too long...
Anyways, I'll actually go and try to get started on some homework, seeing that last night I avoided it by baking cookies and writing fanfic...
SONG OF THE MOMENT
Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love more and more
Listen to my heart
Can you hear it sing?
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change
Winter to spring
But I love you until the end of timeCome what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying daySuddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
But my world revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song
I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of timeCome what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh, come what may
Come what may
I will love you
I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day"Come What May", from Moulin Rouge
This song, and the entire soundtrack, is lethal to my academic career. I seriously could not focus on studying for that ECON midterm until I cleared it out of my system (which took a couple of hours...). Nonetheless, this remains one of the most beautiful love ballads ever written, and with Ewan McGregor and Nicole Kidman lending their voices to it, what can be more romantic? I think it has a lot to do with the fact that the plot of the movie meshes in really well with the lyrics of the song, so for us Moulin Rouge fans, it's even more endearing. Now if I can only find my own penniless writer... *sigh*March 11, 2003
Wow! Thanks to everyone who signed the card... man, so didn't expect to get a card for all the hoodies stuff, not to mention reimbursement for my hoodie. :oD The card is awesome... thanks 4B and D! CLT 1 to 12 rocks!!! For anyone actually wondering when the hoodies will arrive, I've been told by the end of March. I'll let you know an actual date when I finally find out.Well, I hope you elementary, junior and senior high school kids have fun during March Break. And to you fellow university students... only less than 4 weeks left! Keep it up!
March 8, 2003
I can't really describe the spiritual warfare that I'm battling right now. But the following song can...SONG OF THE MOMENT
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icharus
I collideWith a world I try so hard
To leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
To give and dieTo turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce
The skin of one who loves
More deeply than the ocean
More abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartacheCan I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch
The blood and water flowTo love you - take my worlds apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my worlds apart
To need you - broken on my kneesAll said and done I stand alone
Amongst the remains of life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers meDid you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need
And what I believe
Are worlds apart
And I prayTo love you - take my worlds apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my worlds apart
To need you - broken on my knees
On my kneesI look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
And wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remains
More and more I need you now
I owe you more each passing hour
Battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
Wash the feet and cleanse my pride
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
The sin-soaked heart and make it yours
Take my world all apart
Take it now, take it now
And serve the ones that I despise
Speak the words I can't deny
Watch the world I used to love
Fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
Wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
So steal my heart and take my pain
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
Take my worlds apart, take my worlds apart
I pray, and I pray, and I pray
Take my worlds apart
Worlds apart"Worlds Apart", Jars of Clay (from Jars of Clay)
March 6, 2003
Well, looks like thing are settling down. My Ottawa landlord got my cheque (yup, ended up taking the $450 house... I hope it'll be good since everyone says I will have fun!), and my Waterloo house is settled. Just need to get some lease signing done, and we're set for that. Thanks much to Emily, Becca, and John for helping me with the Ottawa situation! You guys are great... I appreciate all you've done! I really, really, REALLY hope that I'll get along with the 5 other people I will be living with there. If not, I'll probably hole myself up in my room when not at work. Oi.I'm done with some major stuff for this week, so it's nice and relaxing for now. I suppose I really should seize the opportunity and get caught up with various readings now. This term's marks are lower than the last. I wouldn't really care if my average dropped to the 70's if only I didn't have a scholarship hanging in the balance. I need an 80% average to keep it, but it's highly possible that I'll lose it right now, and that's not good. I'm so glad God blessed me with a job already, but it's not exactly high paying. I'll make just enough to get by for Ottawa and my 2A term. Actually, I'll probably need to leech off my parents, and maybe even OSAP (noo!!! not the lineups at Needles!!! and the prospects of needing to *pay off* the debt!!!), so ideally, I'd like the scholarship to be renewed.
Well, on a happier note, I won a cookie by rolling up the rim! Go me! Haha... maybe I'll be lucky enough to win the $1000 next time I load up on some java at Tim Horton's. Not nearly as much as the scholarship, but it'll get me by! I'll actually be able to buy some groceries in Ottawa. Right...
Moving right along... I read on CBC News today that Charles Reaper, the last surviving Canadian infantry soldier, who fought at Vimy Ridge passed away last week. The First World War generation is almost gone - are we still keeping their legacy? Doing all the war courses that I am in Waterloo has kept me thinking about war not just during Remembrance Day when we're supposed to adorn ourselves with a poppy. War is pretty darn useless, but it seems that some people still haven't realized that yet. Looking back in history, it seems absurd that millions of young men and women were sent to a place where death was always just around the bend, where the objective of hanging their lives in the balance was for a few useless, destroyed scraps of land. You'd figure people would finally put an end to the war, but with each new generation, we still read about war in the news. It was good to see millions of people ban together against war in Iraq, but it's sad to see the leadership not really taking any of that into account. Do we really need to learn the lesson each and every era?
Well, I'm dry of things to write here. Oh, if you're free and in Waterloo, come out to CCF's Lifesong, at AL 116. It's at 7:30pm and it's free! Take care, and hope to see you out!
SONG OF THE MOMENT
All the things my feet thought to be firm
Are falling with urgency
Tearing back my false sense of securitySome say things change, nothing stays the same
But the sweetness in my ears
Safe in your arms speak the words I love to hearYou have been more faithful than the morning sun
You have been more faithful than knowing night will come
You have been more faithful that the changing of seasonsAll the things I thought that I used to know
Are falling down again
Our disillusionment is how we growSome say things change, nothing stays the same
In a world of inconsistency
When everything's a lie,
What can cause my heart to believeYou have been more faithful than the morning sun
You have been more faithful than knowing night will come
You have been more faithful than the changing of seasonsYou have been more faithful than the morning sun
You have been more faithful than knowing night will comeYou have been more faithful than the morning sun
You have been more faithful than knowing night will come
You have been more faithful than the changing of seasons"More Faithful", Skillet (from Hey You, I Love Your Soul)
This song just popped into my head while doing my history précis. It's one of the most beautiful songs of God's faithfulness ever written. It's too bad I don't have a CD with the song on it, because it's just awesome. I'm tempted to download an MP3 of it, but alas, I'm not going to break the law and besides, my computer refuses to play any music. Nonetheless, this song is just wonderful.March 2, 2003
Who knew deciding on housing in Ottawa would be so torturous? Much easier here in Waterloo, just because I can look at the house and see if it's decent, not to mention pick the people I want to live with. I chatted with one landlord yesterday, and her property sounds pretty good - downtown Ottawa, utilities included, furnished, equipped kitchen - the only thing is that it's a tad bit pricey, at $450 per month. Talked to my dad yesterday and he's like just take it. Talked to Sharon today and she's also saying take it. I would, but I would hate to find out that there are better finds after I seal the deal.*Sigh* If only my parents and sister were home, then I can get them to convince me to make the call, or not... anyway, it's back to history précis writing for me. Right about now, the German Revolution seems less complicated...
March 1, 2003
First off: HAPPY BIRTHDAY CECILIA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY FONG FONG! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CATHERINE! I hope you will all have an awesome day today. :o)Time is whipping by. It's the last full month of classes for first year already! Next thing you know, I'll be updating my page in Ottawa. The pace is nice in a way, scary in another. It's gonna be sad moving out of CLT at the end of exams. This place has been a great home for me, with great housemates and great times (despite all the cramming that is done).
Well, that's all I'll say for now. Gotta get back to my history precis assignment!
SONG OF THE MOMENT
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I am gonna do when I get there
I take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of graceI am hanging on every word you say
Even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing is where I want to be, yeah
Where I want to beI am looking past the shadows of my mind into the truth
And I'm trying to identify the voices in my head
God, which one's you?
Let me feel one more time what if feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more timeI am hanging on every word you say
Even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Where I want to beI don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall off your table to the ground
I just want to be here nowI am hanging on every word you say
Even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing is where I want to be, yeah
Where I want to beI am hanging on every word you say
Even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing is where I want to be, yeah
Where I want to be"Breathing", Lifehouse (from No Name Face)
I've been having Lifehouse listening cravings lately, and this song speaks of what I long for too, and the flaws that come with the desire.