February 27, 2003
"Look at the stars, look how they shine for you..." Stars never cease to amaze me. I love to look at them, and I love how God put them in the sky for me to enjoy. I can identify about two constellations - the Big Dipper (not as big here in Waterloo as in Buffalo... haha) and Orion's Belt (thanks Samantha! WAY camp rocks!). I think I found the Little Dipper today, but I'm not sure. I really need to find myself a map of the stars or something so I can go out stargazing. The conditions outside of CLT are perfect on a clear night. Too bad I can't drag anyone out to see them with me. Stars... *sighs dreamily*Tonight's other cool thing is worship discussion. I had two discussions so far, and both have been very edifying. Sam gave us all A.W. Tozer's "Whatever Happened to Worship?" (thanks soooo much!), and I'm really looking forward to reading it. I've been struggling with worshipping God and being right before Him, and I really hope the book will help clarify a few confusions I have in my head. It's about time I get on with what I'm supposed to get on with, instead of being crippled here on the side.
Well, getting on with the rest of my night now. Gonna fix some dinner after I play a few rounds of Graffiti with my housemates on Yahoo! Games.
SONG OF THE MOMENT
Look at the stars; look how they shine for you
And everything you do
Yeah, they were all yellowI came along; I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellowSo then I took my turn
Oh what a thing to have done
And it was all yellowYour skin, oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know?
You know I love you so
You know I love you soI swam across; I jumped across for you
Oh what a thing to do
'Cos you were all yellowI drew a line; I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellowAnd your skin, oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know?
For you I bleed myself dry
For you I bleed myself dryIt's true
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for...
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shineLook at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And all the things that you do"Yellow", Coldplay (from Parachutes)
Every time I see stars, the first line from this song always pops into my head. It's just such a nice piece to go with stargazing... well, at least only the first few lines. I really should go out and get my own copy of Parachutes sometime. Haha... once again, trying to duplicate what Becca already has! Oh well... they're good, and that's that.February 25, 2003
Man... I'm such a procrastinator! As my ICQ occupied (yeah, right) message says at the moment - "Forget diamonds... procrastination's this girl's best friend!" Well, as my last act of procrastination (we can't really count the block meeting as procrastination, right...?), I will now tell you some useless information about my day. :oPLet's see... I signed my job acceptance form today. I will have to mail it on Thursday, since tonight must be devoted to econ studying (still on chapter 7!). Got some Ottawa information from the field co-ordinator, so that's kinda nice. The bus map had the street of my work place on it! A bus runs nearby it... now if I only had a house! I should get a move on that. But... I might need to leave it until after next Wednesday, as this weekend I need to do various studying and precis writing (*ahem*). Oh yes, I also finally ditched my ICQ 2000a or b or whatever it was and downloaded ICQ Pro 2003a. I also got some new skins, so instead of Larry Boy, I have Spider-Man adorning my ICQ panel.
Okay, I better get back to studying. And one word of advice: do NOT procrastinate like Victoria jeh jeh, okay kids? It's not good for you!
February 23, 2003
Back in the 'loo now. Enjoying a few fics (hopelessly hooked on Everwood now... I actually started reading Everwood fics before I started watching the show! weird...) before I eat dinner and study econ. My upcoming weeks seem packed with midterms and assignments. I really should start doing work soon!That's about it from me for now. Oh yes, rediscovered Plumb's self-titled debut album (I believe it's their debut...), so one of the songs will constitute today's song of the moment. Take care everyone! Have fun getting back from reading week, or enjoy your reading week1
SONG OF THE MOMENT
Blind soul lost in Chicago
She fell asleep under a bridge
Drowning out the sound of her sorrow
She's finding it hard to existShe keeps running into herself
Hoping to find somebody else
She keeps running into herself
Hoping that she'll get out of wonderlandFame and fortune didn't become her
So she says pennyless
Needing so much more than tomorrow
As she stares at the scars on her wristShe keeps running into herself
Hoping to find somebody else
She keeps running into herself
Hoping that she'll get out of wonderlandShe keeps running into herself
Hoping to find somebody else
She keeps running into herself
Hoping that she'll find somebody betterShe keeps running into herself
Hoping to find somebody else
She keeps running into herself
Hoping that she'll get out of wonderland"Pennyless", Plumb (from Plumb)
A dark but beautiful song I've loved for a long time. Man... I'm a moody person. I'm into these dark themes, I suppose. I don't feel like the girl in this story, but I guess I would like to reach out to people like that. It's just sad to know that there are hopeless people out there, needing to find something better. The good news is that there is something better that I've already found...February 19, 2003
Well... it's the middle of the Reading Week, and finally I'm doing some econ definitions! Go me! It's been nice and relaxing here in Mississauga. Not to mention homework free. Well, that is, until now. But I need to do what I need to do, right?Anyways... let's see. I finally watched Chicago last night. Not as good as I was told, but it wasn't bad either. It was cool how the storyline is mixed with the musical numbers and they run in parallel (hehe... sorry if I spoiled things for you!), but the draw of the plotline isn't as strong as the movie that I was making the comparison to all movie long. That would be Moulin Rouge. The dancing was pretty good though... especially Catherine Zeta-Jones' high kicks! I suppose Moulin Rouge was more original in concept (compared to other contemporary movies) and so Chicago wasn't as cool.
Okay, enough film reviewing. Let's rant about Third Watch not airing this Monday! So I hear that NBC execs replaced it with the Michael Jackson special instead. Nice job! Now I have an episode of CSI: Miami on my tape. Grr... they better air it next week. And why wasn't I told of the change? Anyways, at least now I have my own NYPD RMP! Haha... go Wal-Mart for stocking up the coolest toys. Maybe I'll go out and buy another one and I can finally re-enact scenes from Third Watch like I suggested long ago...
Oh yeah, I'm hooked on Everwood now. I guess I need a nice, calm drama mixed in with those high speed car chases and firy explosions of Third Watch. The WB (hmm... ever since Roswell, there's been one WB series a year that gets me hooked) posted the Valentine's poem that Andy read as a voice over to that you can check out. Nice, emotional writing!
Alright, I better get back to doing my econ. And maybe writing one or two fanfics afterwards! Take care!
February 13, 2003
Ranking forms are out on ACCESS today. And I GOT OFFERED A JOB!!! :oD It's with Indian Residential Schools Resolution Canada located Ottawa, near the border of Hull. God is GOOD, all the TIME! That's one burden off my shoulders. Interestingly enough, I also got ranked for the jobs that were on the top of my list, so I've really been blessed with so much opportunity. AND I haven't been rejected yet, although I'm still awaiting info from certain employers. If I am rejected, who cares? I have a job, and backup if it falls through! Yay!Okay, I should go and study for my accounting midterm lest I desire fail. Ottawa... here I come!
February 11, 2003
Un petit "update" aujourd'hui. Turns out that my video conferencing interview was actually a phone interview. So much for getting all four interview types in my first co-op term. Now the waiting begins, full blown. Don't have to wait long though - rankings go up this Friday. Earlier, Chris tells me. We'll see. I really wonder if I've secured myself to a job or not...Man I want to write fic! Just read a really beautiful Everwood piece called "Days Go By". I like my emotional packed stories! Stuff like this inspires me to crawl back to my work-in-progresses and type. But alas, my history midterm is tomorrow and all I've done is type up some terms. So I guess that means goodbye for now...
February 10, 2003
Five down, one to go: that's my interview status. Frankly, they've been cryptic to me, meaning I have no idea if I got the job or not. I don't think I performed the best I could in any of them, but it's not like I screwed up in a major way either. I just really thank God for keeping me calm, cool, collected, and able to have a functioning brain in all of them. I do wish that I expressed my interest in the jobs a little more. I really wish I don't wind up in continuous!Oi... tomorrow's interview is making me a little jittery. Video conferencing? I've never, ever done that in my life before! My biggest question is do I air handshake the person? Haha... maybe I'll just stick with a wave or something equally sadly strange to do in an interview. Man, first work term, and I get the works - individual, group, phone AND video interviews! Talk about getting experience! I suppose it's good to have a variety since I had six interviews, so for future work terms, I don't need to stress over new forms of interviews or something.
That's about it from me for now. Gotta go back to interview prep!
SONG OF THE MOMENT
Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal
But lately I am beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and open eyes
So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?
It's driven me before and it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around
But lately I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself my light is found
So whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and open eyes, yeah
Would you kill the Queen to crush the hive?
Would you choose water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive?"Drive", Incubus (from Make Yourself)
I've always loved this song, and hey, I think it applies to my interview situation quite well. The uncertainty is definitely stinging quite clear to me, but I guess in my case, I'm going to follow whatever God grants to me. I just hope I will hold up okay.February 9, 2003
Hoodies, hoodies, hoodies. It's been fun organizing it, but also a little bit frustrating. I guess we all expected to pay way less than what we have to, but I still want it nonetheless! Makes a good memory of my frosh year, and hey, clt.onetotwelve rocks!!! Just have to get through tonight when we reveal the pricing and final shirt details. Hope not too many people will back out of ordering one so we can send the order in once and for all. It's gonna be *sweet!* when we get the hoodies. Can't wait!!!Interviews, interviews, interviews. Indeed, I have 3 interviews next week, all crammed in the beginning of the week. Two Monday, and 1 Tuesday. Then I'm done... I'm hoping forever. For this term anyways. I really am praying that God will be gracious to me and grant me a job during this initial phase. I mean... 6 interviews. Pretty good chance of landing something, right? But then again, I'm a pessimist, and so I always allow for the worse case scenario. I'm so gonna laugh my head off if I end up working at Campbell's... it sounds really interesting, and I think I'd enjoy it, but really, it has nothing to do with psychology! But we'll see... I'll take that if it means avoiding continuous phase!
Well, well, well... I think I'm done babbling for today. Gotta get on with acocunting now. *sigh*
SONG OF THE MOMENT
Blessed be Your name in the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
And blessed be your name when I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be Your nameEvery blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise
And when the darkness closes in Lord, still I will sayBlessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious nameBlessed be Your name when the sun's shining down on me
When the world's "all as it should be"
Blessed be Your name
And blessed be Your name on the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your nameYou give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord blessed be Your name"Blessed Be Your Name", Matt and Beth Redman
Awesome song sung at Elevation today. I especially love the "every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise" line. God has definitely blessed me with a lot of great things in my life, and He deserves all the praise I can give Him. Oh yes, btw, you can check out photos of Brandon and Melissa's new baby girl, Sophia Claire, at the Elevation link above!February 6, 2003
Ahh... the declaration of a major. In the afternoon, I wrote down Honours Psychology on the Plan Modification form. But just this evening, I was schpeeling to Agnes about all these historical facts that I knew, from the Cold War, to the Nanking Massacre, to Hitler, to appeasement, to nationalism, and I'm wonder if that Honours Psychology on the form should really read Honours History. After all, I did apply to Waterloo to major in history, and I really have a passion for history. However, I also really enjoy psyhology, especially this term with Cognitive Processes. There's just so many interesting theories and brain diseases that really blow the mind.*sigh* So I suppose the issue of my major will remain as is for now. I think I'll declare a minor in history sometime in the future. I would love to minor in it right now! I love that stuff!
Okay... I've wasted enough of today doing non-homework. Better get back to it now!
February 2, 2003
First off, happy belated Chinese new year, everyone! :o) Hope you all had a great time celebrating, wherever you were. I had a quite one, but it's all good. :o) Got to watch About A Boy which is a great movie. I actually got misty at the end. Moving movies are always great to watch...I'm enjoying my new I Could Sing Of Your Love Forever 2 worship songs collection. I would really like the first compilation, but it was nowhere to be found at Mitchell's on Saturday! Perahps another day... the second one is really good as well. Finally, a real live worship CD in my hot little hands! Woohoo!!!
I think I had more to say, but due to time constraints and a pressing French test tomorrow, I should get going. Take care everyone!
PS: Oh yes. Must mention that my prayers are with the grieving families of the seven astronauts who perished in the Columbia disaster and the seven high school students who were killed by an avalanche.
SONG OF THE MOMENT
Sing to the Lord with all of your heart
Sing of the glory that's due to His name
Sing to the Lord with all of your soul
Join all of heaven and earth to proclaimYou are the Lord
The Saviour of all
God of creation we praise You
We sing the songs
That awaken the dawn
God of creation we praise YouSing to the Lord with all of your mind
With understanding that gives thanks to the King
Sing to the Lord with all of your strength
Living your life as a praise offering"Awaken The Dawn", Delirious? (from Glo)
Seriously the song I was listening to at the moment I am typing this up. Glo is a pretty cool CD... too bad I don't own it. The song reminds us to worship God with all of ourselves... how many of us actually worship in this fashion?