January 29, 2003
The double midterm slaughter is now over. The best I can say about the midterms were they went okay. Econ wasn't the greatest, but I knew my stuff enough to at least make educated guesses. Psych was definitely better, but there were still several things I needed to guess on. Crazy application questions! It'd be nice to get my results back soon, since it was all MC. But who knows how long it will take?

Amidst the no's for interviews that people tell me that they keep on getting, my yes' have exceeded my no's. To date, I've got 4 interviews, 1 no, and 1 cancelled job. That leaves 10 jobs to go, but I don't really care one way or another for the remaining ones. I don't know why God is being so gracious to me by giving me all these interviews, and for jobs that I actually want to have. Of course, I'll take what I can get. I beginning to feel that God really wanted me to be at this school, and that is definitely very comforting. However, the mystery remains as to what I'm supposed to do here, but He'll reveal that in His time.

SONG OF THE MOMENT

Love is many a splendid thing
Love lifts us up where we belong
All you need is love

Please don't start that again

All you need is love
A girl has got to eat
All you need is love
She'll end up on the street
All you need is love
Love is just a game

I was made for
Loving for you baby
You were made
For loving me
The only way
Of loving me baby
Is to pay a lovely fee

Just one night
Gimme just one night
There's no way
'Cause you can't pay

In the name of love
One night in the name of love
You crazy fool
I won't give in to you

Don't leave me this way
I can't survive without
Your sweet love, oh baby
Don't leave me this way

You'd think that people
Would've had enough
Of silly love songs

I look around me and I see
It isn't so (Ha ha) no

Some people
Wanna fill the world
With silly love songs

Well what's wrong with that
I'd like to know
'Cause here I go again
Love lifts us up
Where we belong
Where eagles fly
Over mountains high

Love makes us act
Like we are fools
Throw our lives away
For one happy day

We could be heroes
Just for one day

You, you will be mean
No I won't
And I, I'll drink all the time

We should be lovers
We can't do that
We should be lovers
And that's a fact

No nothing
Will keep us together
We could still try
Just for one day

We could be heroes
Forever and ever
We could be heroes
Forever and ever
We could be heroes

Just because I will always love you
And I can't help loving you

How wonderful life is
Now you're in the world

"Elephant Love Medley", from Moulin Rouge
You just gotta love this song! It's the best medley I've heard to date, and with Ewan and Nicole singing it... what can be better? I've got to get myself the soundtracks sometime. :o)

January 26, 2003
My first CCF Winter Retreat has come and gone. To be honest, I wasn't really looking forward to it. I was, at one point, until I felt the weight of having two midterms and a precis to do the week after. My goal was to meet and get to know more people, but to my disappointment, over 70 people went to the retreat as well, so that made the whole getting-to-know-people business a little tough. It did feel a little like TC with an older crowd, but faces were familiar, and people were friendlier. I guess I'm also a little disappointed that I didn't make too much of an effort to get to know people. But it would be a little too unreasonable to go around to all 76 people and have meaningful conversations with them.

I've never been a lover of rec, but it wasn't as bad as they the rec leaders alluded to. The worship was really good, the speaker delivered a good message, and I enjoyed my Bible study group. Being in a group where people were not afraid to speak up always makes things interesting. The dumpling making session was cool... who can say they made dumplings on a retreat with ten other people until 3 in the morning?

The best part was defintely the sharing. For a long time, I wondered why the current Christian church, or maybe the Christian churches/fellowships I've gone to did not reflect how the early church was (1 Corinthians 2:42-47). I didn't think that I would learn much about unity this time around, but was I ever wrong. At the sharing, I was amazed at the vulnerability displayed by some of the brothers and sisters, and what blew me away was the time we spent in prayer as a group united by Christ. What I experienced at this sharing session - the love and the UNITY that was felt - is how I believe God wants us to live. Imagine living in such beautiful vulnerability and love day in and day out...

That's definitely something I need to strive for. It's interesting how God has brought up the issue of community has come up over and over since WAY Summer Camp with the whole honesty, integrity, vulnerability, community, consistency and openness concept. And the "it's not what you do but who you are" phrase has stuck to me like crazy glue since that time. God is definitely trying to tell us all something really important...

Will we listen to Him?

January 17, 2003
Just Married was a really cute movie! I enjoyed it thoroughly... Ashton and Brittany make such a cute couple - they have awesome chemistry. Well, the best part is the message it conveyed. One that is all important, yet sometimes is thrown aside due to self interest. That would be, no matter what happens, stick with the one you've committed to for the rest of your life. I plan to do that with my future spouse - what a legacy to leave, right?

Well, on a totally different note, my spiritual walk is on an upswing since school has restarted. So that's a good thing. But there are still times I slip back to my old ways, and there are definitely things in my life which I still need to change. But no one said the road would be smooth, so the only thing to do now is stick it out.

Okay, having a little mini-trip with Mich and Agnes tomorrow. So I better get going. Toodles!

SONG OF THE MOMENT

Sometimes I'm a liar
Sometimes I'm a fake
Sometimes I'm a hypocrite everybody hates

Sometimes I'm a poet
Sometimes I'm a preacher
Sometimes I watch life go by sitting on the bleacher

But I've never been left alone in any problem that I've known
Even though I'm to blame
There were times when things were dark and I've been known to miss the mark
But someone fixed my aim

Sometimes I'm a man of God
Sometimes I'm alright
Sometimes I lay down close my eyes and pray to God

Sometimes I don't feel good
It's hard to start the day
It's hard to climb the obstacles that sometimes come my way

If I make it, I'm a good man
Am I a bad man if I fail?
I know I'm never good enough so I let grace prevail

Sometimes I'm a man of God
Sometimes I'm alright
Sometimes I lay down close my eyes and pray to God
I'm ready for the night

Right now I'm alright
Right now I'm alright
Sometimes I'm alright
I'm alright
I'm alright
Thank God
Thank God

Sometimes I'm a man of God
Sometimes I'm alright
Sometimes I lay down close my eyes and pray to God

"Man of God", Audio Adrenaline (from Bloom)
The "man" word aside, this song reflects my spiritual life really well. I guess that's an unfortunate thing, but I'm letting God sanctify my life.

January 16, 2003
Well, the whole co-op schebang is in full swing now. I'm a little worried for myself, since I only applied to two jobs in the first posting! I don't know if I should be selective, or apply to everything I have a remote chance of getting an interview for. But then again, there *are* for other postings, so hopefully some jobs will pop up then. I'm hoping that I will at least find 8 other jobs that I'm interested in... after all, who wants to be stuck in a sucky job for 4 months?

This term has been much busier than the last. Maybe because I don't get to come home as often as last time. Definitely because of the whole co-op process. Four hours on two cover letters, I tell you! Job hunting sucks up so much time and effort. The readings are piling up already, and that ain't ever a good thing. :oP The only class I'm totally caught up in is French, and I'm lagging behind in all the rest. And it's only the second week of school. *sigh* Hopefully I'll have a productive weekend.

Anyways, I should get back to reading textbooks. Going to see Just Married tonight with Jasmine! Woohoo! Take care, all... :o)

January 13, 2003
First off, let me wish NIETTE a happy 20th birthday!!! Hope you have a wonderful birthday - don't party too hard (remember the little thing called school you are actually at!)! Have a good one... :o)

Anyways, had a pretty good weekend back in Mississauga. Watched "Catch Me If You Can" - I liked it a lot. Leo finally shows his acting skills once again! Not his most impressive performance to date (would be interesting to see him top his awesome performance in "What's Eating Gilbert Grape?"), but he did well nonetheless. I enjoyed it more than "LOTR: The Two Towers" because it was more captivating and interesting to see how Abagnale would pull off his stunts. Not to put down LOTR or anything...

Moving right along... nice hanging out with Cecilia and Angela after church. Swiss Chalet, Second Cup, chatting back at home - ahh... the makings of what I like to do. :o) Well, maybe not so much Swiss Chalet, since Lucy's can top them any day, but it was enjoyable nonetheless.

Okay, I should either sleep, do devos, or read some textbooks now. Take care and have an awesome day!

January 5, 2003
Well, I'm back in 'loo now. Can't believe school starts tomorrow... not looking forward to my business related courses. :o( But have to suck it up and endure it for the next 4 months! On a better note, I get to start off the term with Embassy and a new episode of Third Watch! And life is good again.

Watched Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers on Saturday. I'd have to say that I enjoyed Fellowship of the Ring better. It had a better flow to it, whereas the second film was more choppy. Kind of made me thing of a TV miniseries or something. Alas, I haven't read any of the trilogy by J.R.R. Tolkien yet, so I'm guessing the structure of the second film has much to do with the one of the book. Anyways, I can't wait until the third one comes out!

Anyways, I'm going to go now. There's school tomorrow! Take care everyone...

January 3, 2003
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! This is the year that I turn 20! That is definitely a scary thought. My teen years are almost gone... well, okay, I hafta wait another 11 months for it to actually come, but this is definitely a landmark year, in terms of age. It's definitely nice to know that there are people older than me *ahem Rebecca ahem*.

This holiday was one of the quietest ones I've had in a while. They get less extravagant by the year, I tell you. That's okay though. We'll plan big next time. :o) Nothing can top the 1999-2000 transition, eh girls? Oh well. Life can't be always big and grand (yes, trying to console myself...).

Well, I guess this is the best I can do for the first entry of the new year. I wonder what 2003 has in store for us all? We'll have to wait and see. Take care everyone, and happy new year!