December 28, 2002
Wow! A whole 10 days between updates! Can you believe that? Well, finals are well over, heck, even Christmas is over. It's been nice, getting to sleep in, finally not having to mope about the finals, the torturous finals! It's also been nice seeing old friends again, at church and at hotpot! Although, of course, it turns out that my high school buds pretty much changed from a Streetsville crew to a Waterloo one. A big blessing for me on that part. :o)
Christmas was okay. It never seems to be what it used to. Whatever that was. I guess being Chinese, we never really established traditions of any sort for the day. Seems to be more of a caucasian thing to do, even though we are Christians. I don't like the fact that I need to remind myself that we celebrate the season because of Jesus' birth. Shouldn't it be ingrained in part of the holidays?
Well, on another note, Fong Fong came and it was nice having her for almost two days. Mei is also a cool guest to have. A couple of dinners with my parents' friends, hotpot last night with high school buddies. Oh yes! Boxing Day shopping at Square One - for once the roads weren't ugly. And I got my first interview clothes... oooh... aaah... Ikea today! Gotta love that place. Stuff to do next week as well. Then it's back to school... oh well. Too steep in the holidays to care about school.
Well, the smells of home cooking are floating upstairs. Take care, everyone, and have a safe new year's eve celebration. :o)
December 18, 2002
Just wanted to put up yet another Jimmy Eat World song. I just can't get enough, I just can't get enough! *Victoria boogies* Back to forcing down cold New England Clam Chowder Chunky down... and studying French, or something.
SONG OF THE MOMENT
Are you gonna live your life wondering
Standing in the back lookin' around?
Are you gonna waste your time thinking
How you've grown up or how you missed out?Things are never gonna be the way you want
Where's it gonna get you acting serious?
Things are never gonna be quite what you want
Or even at 25, you gotta start sometimeI'm on my feet
I'm on the floor
I'm good to go
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonightAre you gonna live your life
Standing in the back looking around?
Are you gonna waste your time?
Gotta make a move or you'll miss outSomeone's gonna ask you what it's all about
Stick around nostalgia won't let you down
Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about
Whatcha gonna have to say for yourself?I'm on my feet
I'm on the floor
I'm good to go
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonightCrimson and clover, over and over
Crimson and clover, over and overOur house in the middle of the street
Why did we ever meet?
Started my rock 'n roll fantasy
Don't, don't, don't let's start
Why did we ever part?
Kick start my rock 'n rollin' heartI'm on my feet
I'm on the floor
I'm good to go
So come on Davey, sing me somethin' that I know
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonight
Here tonight
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonight"A Praise Chorus", Jimmy Eat World (from Bleed American)
Another great track, this time an upbeat one! Weird observation: if you listen to this, and then to "The Middle" (actually, that's what you get when you pop in the album), "The Middle" actually sounds slow! Can you believe that? Anyways, some of the words in this wong apply to me at the moment. Can you guess which parts?December 17, 2002
The almighty accounting exam is over. Man... I made so much stuff up for it, it's scary. I hope I pass the course. It would be a bonus if I got 75% in the course. Now, I hafta start studying for French. *sigh* Finals... *sigh some more* Finals on the last day of finals!
Well, one good thing about today is that I found out a bunch of books that were listed for various courses I need to take were taken off, which means I get to save money! Yay! I was supposed to dish out $636 something dollar, but now it's now under $400. Thank you Julie for her Econ text! :o)
Well, that's all I hafta say for now. Another reason why I updated today was to post up some more Jimmy Eat World lyrics. Okay... I'm gonna go sleep, or study, or eat, or something...
SONG OF THE MOMENT
The time I would spend with pictures I would not send
I watched you go from left to right
I followed you all night across my blindsYou'll change your mind come Monday
Turn your back on me
Take your steps away with hesitance
Take your steps away from meMaking my peace
Making it with distance
Maybe that's a big mistake
You know I'm thinking of you
I miss youYou'll change your mind come Monday
Turn your back on me
Take your steps away with hesitance
Take your steps away from meYou'll change your mind come Monday
Turn your back on me
Take your steps away with hesitance
Take your steps away from me"Cautioners", Jimmy Eat World (from Bleed American)
I think this is the most expressive song of the album. I love the transition from verse to chorus, where you can actually feel the song release the tension. It's especially awesome that the lyrics reflect that release. Once again, the lyrics are so sad. Seems I've been posting a lot of moody songs lately - but moody songs always sound the best.December 15, 2002
Three down... two to go! *sigh* Why did French have to be the last day??? Well, at least Niette will be there! Woohoo! Looking forward to it. It shall be fun! Yeah... if watching me study is fun. :oP
Decided to cash in my HMV certificate today. Apparently the 2 CDs for $30 is over, because when I brought my 2 CDs up (Jimmy Eat World! Woohoo! And I took Barenaked Ladies, but I really wanted the Moulin Rouge soundtrack, but no avail...) and my long awaited Spider-Man DVD, they charged me regular price! So I took off BNL, although I might get it sometime... we'll see. Anyways, can't wait to watch Spider-Man again... and I'm enjoying my Jimmy Eat World CD. Love it! A nice change of music for the last week of studying...
Elevation was cool today. But then again, it's cool everyday. ;o) It was on Escatology, or the second coming of Christ. That always makes me re-evaluate my current life situation, and sad to say, but every time it pops up, my evaluation comes to the fact that I'm just not ready to go to heaven. And I sure don't want to be left behind, but I feel lazy and don't want to work towards righting the wrongs. But I have to! I need a kick in the head or something...
Well, I'm not feeling very serious today, but I must comment that my mind is drifting back to the idea of going into health care again. *sigh* I hate how I keep changing my mind over and over! It's annoying! But I think I will really enjoy the health care sector, so I think I'm going to pursue it. I need to dig a little deeper into what areas I can go into.
Okay, all for now. I will go and studying the much dreaded - 100-120 MC! 4 short answer! 1 essay! all in 2 1/2 hours! - accounting exam now. Take care, all!
SONG OF THE MOMENT
I see it around me
I see it in everything
I could be so much more than thisSaid my goodbyes
This is my sundown
I'm going to be so much more than thisI need you to show me the way from crazy
I want to be so much more than thisWith one hand high you'll show them your progress
You'll take your time
But no one caresLovely time, tinsel shine
Goodbye, I'll be fine
Good good bye
Good good night"My Sundown", Jimmy Eat World (from Bleed American)
One of my fave tracks from the CD. It's so gorgeous, but the lyrics are so sad. So glad I bought the CD... it's awesome!December 12, 2002
Since I had three days before my history final, I decided to procrastinate a little bit. Okay, a lot. I have some web space with the university, and since there are certain file types GeoCities doesn't support, I decided to upload some desktop things I made onto that server. So, if you're as obsessed with Third Watch as I am, I think the Third Watch Desktop Goodies page will be a place you want to hit! I'm not great with graphic design at all (maybe I should get you to do all of this, Ceci... Miss Graphic Design at York!), but I am good at sharing. :o) So if you want some stuff from there, feel free to take it. If not, I won't get mad.
Okay, that's it from me. I think I should hit the sack now... it's 3am!
December 9, 2002
Wanted to make this page a little more festive with the little cute Christmas trees, courtesy of Angel's Web Graphics. Spend my time procrastinating... printed a bunch of songs - FINALLY found Amazing God (Your Voice)!!! - , played guitar, ate dinner, printed more songs, ate curry fish balls and chatted with my housemates, listened to my new favourite station (105.3 - Kool FM), and now I'm updating my homepage.
Speaking of which... I was listening to the radio the other day, and they played the song from Santana and Chad Kroeger, and I thought, what is happening with the world? It's a good and catchy song, but the pairing seems a little odd to me. Oh well... a nice little song, so I'll post up the lyrics.
Anyways, I'll go back to studying... or maybe I'll sleep. Before I leave... it never ceases to amaze me how I can go think profound thoughts to superficial ones within days. Oh well... doesn't really bother me at the moment.
SONG OF THE MOMENT
Since the moment I spotted you
Like walking round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach's filled with the butterflies... and it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never going to come down
If I said I didn't like it then you know I'd liedEvery time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Seems like everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out rightSo I'll say 'why don't you and I get together and take on the world and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never going to let me in
And slowly I begin to realize this is never going to end
Right about the same you walk by
And I say 'Oh here we go again'When's this ever going to break?
I think I've handled more than any man can take
I'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around
And it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never going to come down
If said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied"Why Don't You & I", Santana featuring Chad Kroeger from Nickelback
December 6, 2002
As a Christian of almost 9 years, I often wonder how I still have so much of the sinful nature in me. Selfishness, self pity, inconsideration, judgement of others... just some of the things I struggle with. A big one would be materialism. I know I shouldn't seek the world, but sometimes, the tangible world is so much more accessible than God, and He gets left in the dust. On the flip side, there's always something inside that berates myself for being so worldly.
Like right now. I'm just wallowing in some self pity (those would be words right out of a song from Plumb, I believe it's "Crazy", but anyways...) that on one side, I can't help but feel, but on the other side, I wonder why I still compare myself to people richer than myself than poorer. I mean, we can do without so many things of life... I guess society has brainwashed me to believe that I need, need, need, when it's actually just wants in life.
Anyways, I've been brooding too much lately... let's talk Operation Christmas Child. I went to the processing warehouse for Ontario, which is right in the K-W area. It was fun going through the boxes, and sad that we had to take stuff out of it. Some people said it felt like a mini-Christmas, getting to open so many present that will be given to children around the world. I guess that's true. The cool part is that the warehouse is actually an old supermarket (Maxi & Co., I'm told), so it wasn't a dingy place that I thought it would be. Oh, and another silly but exciting (for me, anyways... I find joy in small things) is that some of the tags were in French! I guess I'm just a little French freak somewhere deep inside.
Okay, as it always ends, I'm going to get back to my psych now. Take care, y'all.
SONG OF THE MOMENT
I keep trying to find a life
On my own apart from you
I am the king of excuses
I've got one for every selfish thing I doWhat's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behaviour
This only serves to confirm my suspicion
That's I'm still a man in need of a saviourI wanna be in the light
As You are in the light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Oh, Lord, be my light and be my salvation
'Cause all I want it to be in the Light
All I want is to be in the LightThe disease of self runs through my blood
It's a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring this sickness under controlHonesty becomes me (there's nothing left to lose)
The secrets that did run me (in Your presence are defused)
Pride has no position (and riches have no worth)
The fame that did cover me (has been sentenced to this earth)
Has been sentenced to this earth"In The Light", written by Charlie Peacock (from dcTalk's Jesus Freak)
This song popped into my head when I was thinking about the events of the past two days. It's so true... I'm still living a worldly life in many ways, but there's a part of me that yearns for something better. There's absolutely no way to change myself - except to give myself to God. And that I'm still working on as well.December 3, 2002
Classes are officially over. But darn it! There's still a psych review session to go to on Thursday. It would be advisable if I started studying for it, huh? ;o)
Anyways, went to lunch with Yunping today at Ground Zero. Had non-breakfast food this time, and it was good. Then we went eatery hunting (ahh... a fellow foodie!) around campus, and that was kind of fun. Didn't actually sample any of the food though, but oh well. Let's see... we went to Festival Fare (or something) at SCH, then off to Browser's at Dana Porter, and then ML's and ML (what creativeness!). After, it was the PAS Lounge in PAS, and lastly, we stared at Pastry Plus at Needles. Hmm... on the next show, we'll explore the math and science buildings, and the unexplored territory of the engineers! We'll see... hehe...
Okay, this update was purely for posting up the song of the moment. Uh-oh... I'm listening to harder stuff now! But it's Christian, and it's all good. The song is actually from the CD that Ceci got at Kingdom Bound. These are partial lyrics, because I scoured the 'net and couldn't come up with the full lyrics at all! But here you are... enjoy. Until next time, bundle up, because the temperatures keep on dipping!
SONG OF THE MOMENT
May your grace shine on me
May your grace shine through me
You're everything I want to be
And only you can set me freeI don't care what you think
I don't care what you think about me
'Cause my Father knows me
And I will be whatever He wants me to be"I Don't Care (Pointing Fingers)", Justifide (from The Beauty of the Unknown)
Partial lyrics from an awesome song which is just called Pointing Fingers on their album. For some reason, on the Simply Groovy which has this song, the title is longer. Anyways, just a couple days back, those lines from the song hit me hard... struggling with making Jesus all the more real in my life, I just wanted His grace to shine on me and through me. And I want nothing more than to be whatever He wants me to be. The powerful and emotional singing of Justifide added a heartfelt edge to the song. Okay... gonna pop it in my CD player for another spin...December 1, 2002
Wow! It's already December. That means finals are just around the corner. Someone slap some sense in me and TELL ME TO START STUDYING FOR PSYCH!!! But the cooking! The baking! That's important too, isn't it??? :oP
On a more serious note, today's topic at Elevation was pretty controversial within Christian circles - the Holy Spirit. Coming from a baptist church, the Holy Spirit doesn't get talked about too much. We acknowledge its existence, but we perhaps don't allow Him to work in us as fully as He can. I mean, the early church experienced it. Why not us?
I've felt the Holy Spirit before, can't deny those times. In fact, He gave me a calming peace that only He could give when I was really struggling with a certain issue the other day. All the frustrations just ceased and although the issue hasn't fully been resolved in my head, it's getting there. Anyways, as for experiencing Holy Spirit's power by way of speaking in tongues, that I still have reservations with. But if it's true, then why deny it?
Well, I should be doing better things with my life now. Although reflecting on my spiritual life is not a bad thing. :o) Take care, all, and don't get too stressed on your exams, you hear?
SONG OF THE MOMENT
I caught a glimpse of Your splendor
In the corner of my eye
The most beautiful thing I've ever seen
And it was like a flash of lightning
Reflected off the sky
And I know I'll never be the sameShow me Your glory
Send down Your presence
I want to see Your face
Show me Your glory
Majesty shines about You
I can't go on without You, LordWhen I climb down from the mountain
And get back to my life
I won't settle for ordinary things
I'm gonna follow You forever
And for all of my days
I won't rest 'til I see You againShow me Your glory
Show me Your glory
I can't live without You"Show Me Your Glory", Third Day (from Come Together)
With what happened this weekend (the issue, the peace, the sermon), this is a fitting song to have. Humans have a way of making things a little screwed up, and the only way we could fix things up again is to look up at Him. This song also talks about the same thing that Oswald Chambers keeps talking about in My Utmost For His Highest - that even after our mountaintop experiences, we will need to get back to our daily lives. But Third Day adds a nice concluding point to the pursuit. We shouldn't settle for ordinary things any longer.