Today a guy I've never meet, from school died and even though I'd never know him, nor even knew what he looked like, it affected me deeply. Here there was this 19 year old guy, who died and was mourned over. A young guy with all of his life ahead of him, and he gets ill and die. I couldn't help thinking, he's lucky, he will never go through the agony of love or life again. It would only be fair if we changed, he would live and I would die, this went through my head while I was looking at the crying students.
I think it would have been the best thing to do. He was loved, athletic, social and I'm just a guy who is hardly being noticed, why should he die and I live? I can't help feeeling guilty. I don't long for death but it seems like a very good alternative to living. That guy doubtlessly loved life more then I, but faith had chosen him for death and me for life, at least until I take faiths decision in my own hands and goes over to the realm of the dead. I'm just sorry I can't give him the life I'm about to reject.
They only have me to blame,
that their world will never be
the same.
Despite it's my ultimate gain,
it will for some time cause them pain.
In my eye there was a tear
when I faced my final
fear.
I turned my eyes at the sky to see
if I could my soul set
free
When I took my final breath,
by my side, there stood
death.
He knew that I was all alone
so he was there to bring me
home.
My life was a living hell
but is no more, now
it's well
Beneath the grey tombstones
you can find my rotting
bones
The wolfs are hunting in packs
the zombies are longing for your flesh
the werewolves are on the prowl tonight
the vampires are thirsting for your blood.
If you see a wolf , you can be sure that the rest will attack you from the back, ripping it open.
The slow zombies will keep pursuing you till you are drained from all your power, and then eat you.
The werewolves will destroy you before you can scream for help. Eating you thumping heart before your eyes.
The vampires will surduce you, become your friend and then slowly move in to drain you for your blood.
Anyway you see it, you will die tonight.
Like a shooting star I'll shine the brightest just before I'm extinguished.
In history my life will be as one. Comes from nothing, then flares up in a second and is thereafter forever gone.
Only a lonely flame illuminating the huge darkness in a short breath, stored in memory of man through time.