| Falling into Madness By Rinault I stood on the roof of the Phoenix House, contemplating with myself, fighting my inner being... "What am I?" I whisper to myself, and sit at the edge Am I a Man? Or a monster? at this point I couldn't decide. I love, I have a sister, and I have emotions. But I have also attacked without reason. I have a Demon inside me that, even with his artificial heart could not be contained forever? That demon had shown it's ugly face before, and in doing so had hurt Shawn, Trista Avani, Krysta Fanel, Telian, and Eris. I lower my eyes, thinking of what I had done those two nights. I was too moody, letting himself be set off by a light disciplinarey action. I had no right to do what he did that night. No right to stab Shawn's leg, to Hurt Trista like I did, to Slam Telian's head into the wall....to beat Krysta....no right... I furrow my brow as I think of the second day. "I Should have kept my guard up" I murmur to himself Eris...the only one in the house that was innocent, the gentlest soul to dwell in the House, the last person in this world he would ever want to hurt. He was an idiot, he should have kept his guard up, not let his "other half" come out to hurt her. I stand, and stare over the edge of the roof. "Why don't I just jump...end it all...prevent the pain from coming to others?" I say to myself As I contemplate, something inside me tugs me from the edge, and my legs turn and drive me back into the House. So am I a man? If so, will I remain one? or will the Monster within me take over? |