I trusted you
And loved you
You were a friend
A best friend
You were always there for me
I could talk to you about anything
I came to you with my problems
And would follow your advice
And live by your values
Then you brought a storm into my life
And you didn't even know you blew the winds
You asked me what was wrong
And I didn't know what to say or do
I wanted to tell you everything
And let myself cry on your shoulder
But a voice inside me kept saying
Look at what she's done
You left me confused
Not able to understand my own feelings
I love you
No, I hate you
She is my mother and has always been there for me
She is a bystander, watching me stumble by
I pray every night
For the hatred to leave me
And wake up every morning
With it burning inside of me
I hate you even more
For making me feel this way
Making me want to hide and cry
I should be out enjoying my life
Instead of at home
Thinking of ways to end it all
I wish I never found out
The way you really are
I wish we were able
To laugh and talk to each other
I wish I had a magic wand
That could make me young and innocent again
But most of all
I wish I could say
I love you
Once again.
-Heather ?Gordon
