Now that the drugs are wearing off
and all the shaking starts to cease,
it's giving rise to feeling guilty,
causing problems to increase
I meant to get away from this
and not live in the dark no more,
but stepping out into the light
means opening that sacred door
The one I struggled to keep locked
and never show you what's inside,
the one that you have now kicked in,
not leaving me a place to hide
Don't ever think I'm not in love,
don't think I want to let you go,
but all my demons are rebelling
and I'm ashamed I hurt you so
If nothing else left in this world
had been enough to let me live,
I should have seen your love for me
and taken what you had to give
I can feel the wall between us
that will separate us now
I have destroyed our precious bond,
invalidated every vow
I don't think I can let you stay
and live with me the perfect lie,
when every day you aren't here
my only wish is still to die
The reasons sure have changed through this,
but the result remains the same,
too much has happened in this life,
it's not my nature to be tame
You cannot make me love this life,
it is impossible to do
You would be carrying a burden
and your rewards would be too few
I'd rather see you moving on
and be the man that you can be,
than trying to show me all the world
when there is nothing left to see
Stop pulling me into your arms!
Stop talking to me sweet and tender!
Stop loving me with all your heart
so I can finally surrender!
Copyright Jan 2006 by Adrienne
