I'm the artist, too confused to draw a straight line all the way from here.
I'm forsaken. All the misery I've been through made me feel this way.
Jump through time in my mind, back to thoughts I left behind.
I see people dying. I see my parents crying.
Make my way through the day. Wishing, everyone would stay,
Forever here beside me. To teach me and to guide me.
But that's a fiction. A conservative addiction.
Now you're leaving. Wish I was dreaming. Forever dreaming.
The distance that has come between us,
We are drifting us further apart.
You've gone away to"another life,"
To make a new start. You'll stay in my heart.
Walk through the day. Dream through the night.
Lost in a room with no doors. Locked inside.
You're leaving this life behind you,
To meet my mother on the other side,
Where so many have gone to.
They are the creatures of the night. They are deceivers of the light.
Trying to go on. Trying to belong.
Facing the dark times ahead. They must be strong.
Anger anger, is what I feel.
Anger anger, vicious and real.
Anger anger, is taking control.
Anger anger, infecting my soul.
Oh god why did you take them.
Oh god why did you make them,
Come running to you.
Tell me if there is a meaning,
For every human being leaving.
Come running to you.
Anger anger, on my face.
Anger anger, revealing its ways.
Anger anger, makes me blind.
Anger anger, is all that I find.
Oh god why did you hurt me.
Oh god have I deserved to be left in such pain?
Not to be or not to be, is our final destiny.
There is no return.
Anger anger, is what I feel.
Anger anger, vicious and real.
Anger anger, makes me blind.
Anger anger, is all that I find.
Anger anger, is taking control.
Anger anger, infecting my soul.
Anger anger, on my face.
Anger anger, revealing its ways.
I want to get closer to heaven,
In the darkness of the night.
I'll climb on a starbeam, I'll fall from the moon.
I'll follow my heart, I will be with you soon.
I will jump, from star to star.
Just one more galaxy, it can't be far.
And I know, that you know what I feel.
And I feel, that you know what I know.
I will care till the end of time.
I will care till the end of my own time.
I will search for you. I will long for you.
I will remember you. We'll meet again some day.
I'm the artist, too confused to draw a straight line all the way from here.
I'm forsaken. All the misery I've been through made me feel this way.
Jump through time in my mind, back to thoughts I left behind.
I see people dying. I see my parents crying.
Make my way through the day. Wishing, everyone would stay,
Forever here beside me. To teach me and to guide me.
But that's a fiction. A conservative addiction.
Now you're leaving. Wish I was dreaming. Forever dreaming.
I hear, a rumor's going on.
Accused by the accused.
I plead not guilty.
I hear, the news has spread around.
They say I've changed the world.
I take my tranquilizer, glide under the sheets.
And I'm wandering through a ruined landscape.
Climbing a solid rock. Head for the unknown.
Exploring a new world.
I swear it wasn't me.
I plead not guilty.
I can't stand the accusations.
I hear a lie. Meanwhile I try to clear my name. Survive the game.
No one else can see the thing that I have seen
I'll be free, with myself and me
All I've seen
Nature calls in her mystical ways
Chilly white impressions make my body cold
I'll be free, with myself and me
In darkness I awake
And then suddenly the sky is turning green
With all his might
Why do we care so much?
They shoot to kill
We together
The chase is on
His time has come
No time left to live, left to give
Little child in the dark lonely night
I don't have time for you
Remember that it's hard to see
Heart stops beating I crawl
I become mellow,
All the nights before I was down on my knees
I see a bright light leading me on
I...
I feel cold I feel so coldInnocent Victim
Words: Huigen
Music: Koopman
They're talking about me, but I've done nothing wrong.
Convict me, but show me some proof.
Give me the evidence, and some room to move.
Victim of abuse.
Target of slander,
Makes me a defender.
I've done nothing wrong.
I am not filthy.
I just seek justice.
I seek the one who caused this.
I've done nothing wrong.
But the culprit just can't be found.
Going through hard lessons in defeat.
Can't walk the streets by day. Can't eat can't sleep.
They claim I stopped it to turn.
I would have changed the water into poison.
Now all I do is hide in my shame.
Taking my best shot to survive the game.
They say I've changed the world.
They say I caused it to burn.
But at the time I wasn't there.
And if I had known I wouldn't care.
I couldn't care less.
I'll have my peace when I go to sleep.
Suffering another headache, trying to forget the pain.
Knowing that tomorrow it still will be the same.
On the second floor a party's going on.
I rest my head on my pillow and dream.
In search for a solution to bring things back again.
I wish I could turn back time.
To find out what happened, to prevent the crime.
I will try to stay alive.
But it's too late to change.
The things that happened were all arranged.
Drowsy and drugged. I stand alone.
Wavering I climb upon a slippery ridge.
But in a second I slip away.
And there is nothing left for me.
Living in this new world.
They say I've made it empty.
But I swear it's not my doing.
Though I'm the one that they are sueing.
I swear it wasn't me.You've got the wrong guy.
Let me be!
Why can't you let me be?
I swear I didn't do it.
But there is no way that I can prove it.
I am not filthy.
Target of slander.
Makes me a defender.
And negative vibrations.
This thing has gone too far now.
Please let it stop now.
Go back in time. Fighting the crime. Chasing the truth. But it's no use.
Views
Words: Huigen
Music: Huigen
Watching from the mountains over an endless sea
Offering my future
Giving up my soul
To be forever floating is my final goal
Amazing graze, that they can't replace
Nature calls in her mystical ways
It's all around and I feel its breath in my face
In my face
All I've done
All I feel
All is one
Every face
Every trace
Every place
Lost in space
It's all around and I feel its breath in my face
I want to know what's out there before I get too old
Visit foreign landscapes and admiring all the views
Maybe in some other life they might come to use
Amazing grace, that they can't replace
Nature calls in het mystical ways
It's all around and I feel its breath in my face.
Colossus
Words: Huigen
Music: Koopman
Is this a dream?
Last thing I remember:
I was walking on the shore
I was trying to bide the time
I was trying to ease my mind
Find some peace within my heart
Find a brand-new way to start,
All over again
The sea becomes restless
You won't believe what I've seen
The colossus rising right before my eyes
Against the light
A fading sun
I feel reborn
In a magic trance I stepped into the water
I was paralysed and struck by beauty
How can I explain?
I want to step inside you
Feel your hunger,
For freedom thet will guide you
Through days of thunder
In this sea of dangers
There are so may strangers,
Trying to hunt you down
I will guard your body
Wake beside you
So no one else can harm you
Or surprise you
They hunt you still
You're so big but fragile
No mean machine
The water is your castle,
But liberty is a dream
They hunt you still
They shoot to kill!
We are one
I need to protect you for you have become:
The colossus hiding far out at sea
Your time has come
The whales just cry:
Please change the tide!
And so we've become warriors of the sea
Wearing a thin disguise so no one else can see us
Go away!
And then suddenly the water feels cold
Lost its will to fight
He has become too old
The colossus dying right here in my arms
The spirit's gone
He shuts his eyes
The whales just cry!
Please stay
Don't go away
No time to make up for the things we've done wrong
All the whales gather round and they mourn
They mourn
Now you've gone, look at what you have become
Too scared to face the daylight
Too scared to make them pay.
Six Minutes closer to Death
Words: Huigen
Music: Huigen
Just sitting here waiting in my room
Solitary environments
And I'm not getting younger
All the nights before I was down on my knees
No reason and no rhymes
Forever lost in my needs,
Until the end of time
Whenm all becomes blank
Remember that it's hard
When no one lends you a hand, I...
Lungs stop breathing I fall
It is too late, my senses start to fall,
And they wash away like the sand
And words will turn into stone
I have got no time just to stand in line
It doesn't make much sense when I am past tense
No reasons and no rhymes
Forever lost in my needs,
Until the end of time
Inviting strongly
A tunnel with no end
Passing through I see there's no one else but,
A mirror watching me, looking at myself
I...
I...
I...
Is this time to say, goodbye?
Is this time to make them cry?
© Peter J.R. Vermaat February 28th, 2002