Ai no Nagareboshi
Sequel to the songfic - "Lullaby"By Rizukiyatchan Kou Irvine
* Again, starts in Seiya's POV, I'll let you know when it's in Yaten's -- Er. You'll know by the sudden change of attitude. But if not, Yaten's POV will be surrounded by - on both sides of the text. I s'ppose you could call the first part of this a prologue.. For here is the first part with a title, ne! Hmm. Not my fault his persona's taking over. ;-; *Whistles innocently and frolics away* Slight shounenai going on in here. ;-; Fa la la! ::Giggles like a chibi.:: *
-riZuki.
Chapter 1 Private Thoughts
We, unwillingly, got into the van and closed the doors. Taiki went on about how we should try to look more alert and remember that this is for the Princess. How the hell could we forget? I turn in my seat beside Yaten who I figured was about to start insulting Taiki aloud, but I facevault. He's fast asleep, his head pressed against the window. Damn. Somebody didn't sleep last night.. Oh. I shouldn't be talking.
I didn't sleep either, but I'm wide awake.. How could I not be? Part of me was internally kicking myself for doing what I did, the other part wanted more. Half of that second part wanted to march back into her room and just pick up where we left off. The second half wanted to stay up to see if she'd come back for some reason. But I guess she had no idea what she was doing.. Because at breakfast he wouldn't even look at me.
He wouldn't even look at me.. That's why the first part of me wanted to jump off a cliff. Or just stuff myself in the closet and never come out. I don't want him, or her for that matter, to be scared of me. I don't know why my emotions are so out of whack. We're here for the Princess. The Princess. OUR Princess. And I love her as much as any soldier would. Then I bumped into Odango. I could not hide from her shine. I still can't! And now why, out of NOWHERE, do I start to have mixed feelings over Yaten?
The drive has been going on for a while, when it started I didn't notice. I was too busy contemplating my feelings. Once we're just about at the school, I see Yaten's eyes open out of nowhere. Partially. He sits up with a yawn and fixes his ponytail, not turning in my direction for any reason. Damnit, why can't you just LOOK at me? My feelings, revealing them rather, screw me over repeatedly. Don't you dare tell me that my own ally, friend, is going to do the same to me. I'll hate myself for it.
And Taiki? Feh, he's oblivious, I think. ...I think. I don't know if he's starting to get the hint that I can't help but feel this way toward Odango or Yaten. I hope he knows that. And I hope Yaten does, too. Last night was.. Unexpected. Too unexpected. But of me? Hnn, I'm rather unpredictable.. But I think Yaten is more than I am. I didn't expect to have to talk him into the whole 'male pop group' thing. He nearly passed out when he realized how powerful this disguise was. I thought I'd die laughing. Taiki actually looked like he would, too. Something he said.. The 'I'm too sexy this way to have THIS over here!' thing, I believe.
I miss those days. It took us a long time to get adjusted, but I miss it. Now, it's like.. Everyday things. But ever since last night there's that added pressure placed on me and Yaten's shoulders. And I hate to have done that to him. The fans drive us crazy, now to him he must think I'm falling into the same trap as them, merely falling for his looks without knowing the guy. Lie! I know him.. Better than anyone else besides our Princess and Taiki. I could go off and give the galaxy blackmail on him for years, I know that much. Eh, now I'm getting tired. Just thinking this hard is making me tired. But what can I do? We've just arrived at the school. Here come the fans.. For once, I want to get out of it.
********** -I don't know. I don't know how to react, how to feel, what to think, nor what to say. Damnit! Life on Earth is hell! I hate it all! And we haven't even been here as long as others. How in the hell can Seiya and Taiki tolerate this? And how in the hell can I tolerate Seiya? I can't even LOOK at him. Who goes out of their way to do whatever in the name of creation he was doing, in my room nevertheless, and then goes and just.. Does what he did. How was I supposed to know it was him? Am I supposed to see all even through my dreams?
I, to be honest, had absolutely no idea who I was kissing, at first. I just thought I was kissing some guy in a dream. But suddenly it registered in my brain that I was actually making contact with someone, so my eyes opened. I couldn't make out who it was. Well, when you first wake up everything's all blurry till you blink a bit or rub your eyes. I couldn't I had some complete stranger kissing me like..like.. Like the world was crashing down as it happened and that was the last thing he wanted to do. So it seems.
Then my eyes flung wide open once the blurryness disappeared. Seiya. It was Seiya. Of all people. Seiya. Seiya, Seiya, Seiya. WHY HIM OF ALL PEOPLE?! I didn't want to hurt the guy's feelings pulling away so rapidly.. I mean, no matter what Taiki and I told him he was still head over heels in love with Sailormoon. I knew eventually his heart was going to be broken into little bity pieces. It hasn't yet, but it will. And I didn't want to add more to his future heartbreak, so I allowed him to continue.
Even though that is my excuse as to why I replied to the kiss and allowed it's continuation.. I don't seem to be able to find an excuse as to why I followed him into his room and just kissed him back. It seemed like...the thing to do. Why, though? I don't know. Thinking about it is driving me crazy. I was SO out of character!! I'm not a hopeless romantic like he is. I'm not. I'm Yaten Kou. Sailorstarhealer. The 'annoying little bitch that never shuts up' of the Threelights. Why can't it stay that way? I suppose his emotions are pouring out so terribly, controlling him, they're taking control of me.
We're inside our homeroom now. I just want to die. Aino won't leave me alone, she never does. Tsukino just BARELY makes it before the bell. Mizuno is reading. Kino is talking to some girl. Taiki is reading as well, well DUH, a bunch of girls are staring at us all drooling and all, a few guys are just there and others are sending us glares. Oh it's not my problem that your girlfriend likes me. We know we're good-looking. And we also know that...maybe.. WE'RE NOT BOYS!
But I'm missing someone. Where's Seiya? There he is. He's leaning against a chair, staring into space. Pushing back and forth, back and forth.. He stopped suddenly, his eyes blinking a bit before staring in Usagi's direction. Well duh, he sits behind her. Suddenly his stare goes down to his desk before slowly going in my direction. Unable to help but blush, I turn rapidly, pulling a piece of paper out. Little circles.. Smaller, smaller, larger.. Letting out a yawn, the last thing I remember is watching the pen fall to the ground, before I fell asleep. Again.-
Where are you now..?
My Princess...
Answer me..
..Right now
Answer me..
....So softly..
Search for your love..
Damnit. Why won't you look at me..?
End of chapter 1.
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