Everyone just stood there
not knowing what to do. Kevin started walking towards the house to go after Dawn when Jess
stopped him.
"I think AJ should be the one to go after her honey."
"Obviously she doesn’t want to talk to him so someone else should go. I
don’t see anyone else volunteering."
"Stay here, Kev. I’ll go talk to her. I messed up and now I need to fix
it," AJ said, walking past them and into the house.
AJ searched the house high and low but couldn’t find Dawn anywhere.
‘Where could she be?’ he asked himself as he looked out the window. ‘Our
car is still here so she’s around somewhere.’
Out of the corner of his eye he saw a shadow sitting on the front porch. He went to the
front door and opened it and stepped onto the porch. He sat down next to Dawn on the
steps. He could see she was crying and he felt like a total ass. He reached over and
pulled her to him. He lifted her face so she was looking at him. He wiped her tears away
with his fingers and looked into her eyes. She was hurting and it was all his fault.
"Angel, listen to me. I’m sorry that I told my Mom and D about the wedding. I
wasn’t thinking. I was so excited that you had finally decided on a date that I had
to share it with them so we could start planning. I never guessed that you had just did
that to make me happy. Baby, I want you to be happy too. That’s all I’ve ever
wanted. We’ve got a beautiful baby girl, great friends and more important we have
each other. We’ve been through so much together. I want us to get married more than
anything. I know you have an issue with not being able to have anymore kids but I
don’t care. Arianna is my daughter and always will be."
Dawn pulled away and stood up.
"You say all this now Alex but how do I know five years from now you're not going to
change your mind, how do YOU know? You’re going to want a child of your own someday
and the thought of me not being able to give that to you just kills me."
AJ got up slowly and went over to her. He didn't know what else to say, but somehow, he
had to make her understand.
"How many times do I have to tell you that it doesn’t matter to me that we
can’t have anymore children? There is some little boy or little girl out there who
needs a mother and a father," AJ cupped her face in his hands and looked her in the
eyes. "I love you with all my heart and soul. I can’t live without you. We have
to get past this, baby."
"I don’t know if I can," Dawn whispered, closing her eyes. Her body falling
helplessly into his arms.
AJ held her as she cried. They sat down and he rocked her back and forth and stroked her
hair, trying to sooth her. She pulled away from him and looked into his eyes and sighed.
"I’m sorry that I got upset with you. It’s just so hard for me to deal with
this. I love you more than anything in this world, Alex, and I want to give you more
children someday. I know we can adopt but it’s just not the same."
"Angel, you, me and Arianna are already a family. I love her just as she was my own
flesh and blood, just like we can love another baby like it was our own. It seems like
we’ve been having one problem right after the other. We’ve been through so much,
baby. We’ve always been able to get through everything."
"I know."
"Can we get through this?"
Dawn looked into his those eyes that she loved so much. She didn’t want to lose him.
They had to get through it...they just had to.
"I think maybe we should see someone about this. Our relationship is in trouble and
we need to do something before it's too late."
"You’re right. Maybe therapy would be a good idea. I don’t want this to
destroy us, Alex. I’ll go after the tour. I just don’t have the time right now
but I promise you, I promise us that I’ll go. I think I should go alone, it’s my
problem."
"No, I’m going with you. It's our problem."
Dawn smiled at him. How did she get so lucky? He was the most amazing man she’s ever
known. Therapy was their only option right now. She couldn’t bear to lose him, but
could this wait until after the tour?
"I love you," she told him, tears welling up again.
"I love you too, baby, so much."
He leaned in and kissed her gently. They pulled apart and Dawn sighed and wrapped her arms
around his neck.
"So should we go back to the party or do you want to go home and properly
makeup?" AJ asked her with a smile.
