hate

i hate myself, i hate myself for who i am:
a failure
a loser
a nobody
a crybaby
not having a personality
not being sociable
not being outgoing
not taking chances
not enjoying life
not being smart
not being liked
not having talent
not having a mind of my own
not being more caring
not being less humble
not being less selfish
not helping myself
not wanting to help myself
not being more direct
not being more creative
not being more organized
not being more dedicated
not being more assertive
not knowing who i am