I sometimes worry if I could be hauled away on the basis of something as vague as the contents of this page, (then I am reminded of the lack of constitutional rights this country upholds for those such as the likes of myself, or anyone whom they don't like).
I would like this article to serve as a way for anyone who does read this crap to know that I always mean well in all my endeavors. I have found strength in a supportive and loving partner and this will hopefully continue to make me push myself as hard as I need to in order to make progress in my life. Whether it is a matter of maturation or emotional advancement, I am striving each day to move a little quicker and a little smarter towards my goals.
You get what you put into things and even if it never seems fair, you need to keep pushing. Some people get the real worst case scenario of life. Raped, or tortured, throughout and finally they're either murdered or freeze to death because no one cared so they had to run away. Or the people who will either literally starve to death or die of a disease because they have no money or health care, here or abroad. If you think you deserve to bitch about how bad you got it, just realize that you're lucky for what you do have and maybe you should just get over it, which ever way you can.
You are fine the way you are, fix what you can in you. Fix your life and except what you can't fix and seperate yourself from it as much as possible if it's not healthy, that's just the way it is. No one is going to do it for you, not your government, not your God, not even your family or friends. You are the only one who can make things happen for you. Life is a struggle, and if you give up struggling it gets to be pretty damn sad to look at.
I could never complain about shit that's happened to me and really mean it, because I know that no matter how bad it gets my complaining doesn't really fix a thing. I try not to curb others actions unless it will affect the rest of my life or someone else's. I guess I just expect the same level of professionalism towards life from others.
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I hope you have enjoyed your time here, as it has been a thrill typing all of this crap for no one to read. I do have a little time every once in a while and this hobby has become what I do with it, oh well this and poker.
I have slowed my bad habits to a crawl again and this stuff may very well be the minute addiction that curbs my others. For that I can be grateful if nothing else. I just don't know where to turn any more for answers, being an adult. It seems all the people I know ask me, so I wouldn't even know which one of them to talk to.
Everyone and everything pulls on you in a different way and direction and instead of fighting it you have to give in to someone, the problem is knowing who to listen to. I hope that I can be there when others need me and I am always glad to be there to help, but I am still barely able to talk about how I feel to others.