That Stupid Girl... (Side Story #1)
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2001, April 6th.
I’m 19-years-old, next year I’ll be 20.
My parents and my younger brother will move to America soon.. and today, I once again, I eat my breakfast and head towards school.
Why have I chosen to stay behind in this stupid place still? ... there’s only one reason..
No wait.. only one PERSON..
It’s because of a damn human named Han Seungpyo.
“Hey!! You’re late!! Aren’t you going to run?!?!?!?!”
“D~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~on’t close the gates!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TT_TT!!!”
+CLICK+
In between the bars, the stupid guy smiles.
That stupid guy behind the bar is the reason I’m still in Korea..
“Aren’t we friends? TT_TT.. Seungpyo, don’t do this..”
“This is my duty as the gate keeper.”
“...I made Kim-bab today~ ^0^”
+CREAKKKK+
“Quietly~ Quietly~ Sh! Shh!! Hurry get it!”
“...thanks... I guess...”
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I ran past Seungpyo and into my classroom. That’s right.. that guy’s my friend.. <_<..
Our moms were close... and we’ve grown up together since we were 9. Seungpyo’s little sister Yewhon and my brother Jungmin have known each other since they were both in kindergarten.
.....the one problem was......
........as he got taller... I started seeing my FRIEND as a GUY...
A LOT..
“OH~~~ Lee Jungeun, you came early~~”
“Oh my gosh, shut up.. If I hadn’t made Kim-bap, I’d probably be doing squats outside.
“Why? Is the guard outside?”
“GUARD?! It was Han Seungpyo!”
“Oh right! My friend at Gong called me last time and asked if I could introduce Seungpyo to her.. can you ask him for me?”
“You ask yourself!”
“The only girls he talks to is YOU and Suh Inah!! Yeah, he’d really answer me if I asked!!”
....Inah... the girl Seungpyo’s liked since our first year of high school..
She’s a different type of girl...
She’s one of the best students at school... she’s as pretty as a doll, white and she’s the daughter of a rich man. She’s good at playing piano... and plays the violin...
“Like you said the only girl Seungpyo know is Inah.. I’m just a friend... He likes Inah, I don’t think he’ll want to meet someone else.”
“Aw FuQ~~! What do I do then!?!”
“There’s nothing you CAN do. There are a lot of guys. Pick one of them! Threaten them! Hit them, I’ll help you.”
“Forget it.. She says she only wants Seungpyo. I’m so dead TT_TT...”
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.........the long and boring period known as 4th period passed, and the lunch bell rang.
And with that, the classroom door opened as well..
“I knew it’d be you.”
“Rice~ Rice~~ Yummy, Kim-bap! ^0^!”
“I heard you the first time, shut up <_<..”
“Aw~ I don’t like the ones without sesame seeds.. TT_TT...”
“Then don’t eat it!!!”
“Why’d you make Kim-bap anyways?”
“I don’t know, Jungmin’s school went on a picnic. Didn’t Yehwon go?”
“...she was sleeping... <_<...”
“I don’t believe you! You didn’t wake her?!”
“I lose my appetite when I look at her sleeping, so I just left her. She wakes up on her own when she’s hungry.”
“Well, if she did go on her picnic, she’d have nothing to eat. Poor thing.”
“MUNCH, MUNCH.”
Seungpyo shoved some Kim-bap into his mouth and carried my food to the front row..
I know where he’s heading towards.
“Inah!! Have some!!!”
....looking up surprised from her own lunch was..
SUH. IN. AH.
“...wh....at?”
“Have some! Try it!”
“Uh.. thanks.. they look good ^_^..”
.....once again, Seungpyo walked over to me.
“Who told you that you could give away my lunch.... <_<..”
“If you ate all of that, then you’d have been a pig.”
“But you ate all of it in the first place!! TT_TT..”
“Your breath smells like Kim-bap!”
“Damn!! TT_TT...!! Meanie!”
The back door to our classroom open, and my friend Joohee walked in.
“Hey! Jungeun, let’s go have a smoke!”
“..okay~ Hold on. Seungpyo want to come to?”
“...I told you before not to smoke didn’t I?”
“.....tch! When’d you start worrying about me?!”
“...don’t smoke.......”
“Go eat Suh Inah’s Kim-bap for her!!”
“........retard....”
He got up from his seat and walked out with his lanky legs.
If I would have had something to eat..
He’d have probably stuck to me until I gave it to him..
I know him too well..
“What’s wrong with him?”
“I told him I wouldn’t smoke before.. but.. oh well! Whatever!”
“Does he like you...??”
“What the hell are you talking about? You know he’s liked Suh Inah for 3 years!”
.......I think I talked too loud...
Suh Inah glared at me...
“Hey b***h! Who the hell are you glaring at?!”
Lee Joohee, your true self comes out once again~~
“Forget it, stop. Every time you do that, I like you a little less, you know that?”
“TT_TT.. you don’t like me? TT_TT...”
“My little baby~ Don’t cry. Let’s go! Let’s go!! ^0^”
“TCH!”
We climbed up the stairs to the attice.
“Joohee, where are the others?”
“Detention, they can’t eat lunch remember?”
“That asshole of a guard. They have to eat in the least.”
“Hey, Lee Jungeun.”
Joohee called my name seriously as she exhaled some smoke.
“What.”
“I told you before but, you and Suh Inah really look alike.”
“She’s a LOT better looking than me.”
“No! Just grow your hair out a little! Then you’d look a LOT better!! That b***h is all hair!”
“Whatever~ Phew~~~ Let’s just admit that she’s pretty.”
“No! I’m serious! If you’d just wear some make-up and grow out you-”
CREAKKK...
“Who is it...? What are you looking at?”
...........a group of guys.. they look like 1st years...?
The new kids at school..
......O_O.......damn they’re good looking...
I’d heard that they were good looking but DAYMN!
If I was one year younger TT_TT...
“Hey~ hey Jungeun, who are they?”
“The first years.”
“HEY! HEY! Look! Look at him!”
“The one with the cigarette in his mouth?”
“YEAH!”
“....damn, he’s hot. He looks like an ass though.”
“He looks really muhshesuh (<--- TN: 1 guess who that is ^0^ ) Hey over there!! Come here for a second!”
“Are you crazy? He’s 2 years younger than you!”
“...yeah! The tall one! Come over here!!!!!!!!!!!!”
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The guy frowned, and his face didn’t change much as he looked Joohee up and down.”
“Your sunbae’s calling you! Come here! Want nuna to go over there instead?!”
“...dammit.... she’s hella loud. Hyunsung, let’s go <_<...”
“Huh? ..yeah...”
And like that.. they walked inside...
The cigarette that was in his mouth didn’t come out at all...
“AHK!”
“Let it go. You just got blown~ Who told you to talk to them in the first place? Look at his face, he looks like an ass with just one glance.”
“WAHHH!! I’m so embarrassed!! Jungeun!! TT_TT...!!!”
“Yeah, I bet you are.”
“I’m going to smoke this whole pack today! TT_TT..”
That day.. that psycho girl, did exactly what she said she’d do..
In front of the gate was Seungpyo and a few other 3rd year guys.
Joohee and I were both about to walk out the gate.
Seungpyo’s closest friend Sungho in the group acted as if he knew us.
“Where are you guys going?!”
“....home, where do you think?”
“Aren’t we going to hang out today?!”
“Aren’t you sick of drinking? I’m going home today.”
“Aren’t you going to ask me??!” <-- Joohee..
“Well, I’ll see you out later today.. I always do.. hey, is there something wrong with you and Seungpyo? Did you guys fight AGAIN?!”
Sungho place each hand on my and Seungpyo’s shoulders.
“What are you doing. Let go.”
“Seungpyo, you said you’re not going drinking either right? Well then you two could go together! Lee Joohee, let’s go sing Karaoke!!”
“Hey, Han Seungpyo, are you still pissed about earlier?”
With a blank expression, he looked in another direction. I poked his side.
“About what?”
“I won’t smoke! Okay?! You’re hella happy now huh?!”
“I told you not to say hella....”
“Okay fine.. a LOT... happy?”
“Hey! You can have your lover’s quarrel on the way home!”
Sungho yelled as he pushed us forward..
TT_TT...
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.........it’s kind of awkward....
We both walked down the small alley...
“Han Seungpyo, are you mad?”
“....no..........”
“I won’t smoke okay? I won’t~”
“....liar.. I’m not going to believe you anymore. You always lie.. <_<...”
“Okay, I REALLY won’t. Hey, what’s that on your cheek? I’ll pop if for you, come here.”
“GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“If you don’t pop that, it’ll become a freckle!!”
“Fine then, I thought my face was too plain.”
“Come here! If that becomes a freckle I won’t be your friend anymore!!!”
“Go away!! What are you doing?!”
“If you just leave it to swell it’ll hurt!!!”
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“Hey, Lee Jungeun..”
“............what...........”
“...............I have something to ask you.......”
“What is it.......”
“...answer it okay? And be sure about what you answer.”
“...okay.... O_O...”
What.. what if he tells me, “I’ve liked you for a long time...”
“Let’s go out, Lee Jungeun” <-- it might be something like that also!!
AHHH!!
“Suh Inah wanted to go out with me.. what should I do.....?”
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“What...?”
“She wants to go out, should I say ‘yes’?”
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“Why are you asking me that? You like her don’t you? Go out with her...”
“.....are you sure....?”
“Yeah, duh!!”
“You want me to go out with her?”
“Yeah, go out with her. Are you deaf??”
“..I really am......”
“Okay, go out~~”
“Fine, I will...”
..............inside the awkward silence, I finally arrived home..
That night....... I emptied a whole tissue box....
You know how crappy it feels to cry by yourself...
I think I listened to Roller Coaster’s ‘Seub Gwan’ song over a hundred times...
......I just cried...
Chapter 2
Next Day... School..
Like the day before, Seungpyo was in front of the gates...
I feel as if I’m getting smaller...
“Hi~”
“Yeah~ Hi”
“Did you eat breakfast?”
“No, I didn’t.”
“Why not? You always eat breakfast..”
“Since I eat everyday... I didn’t eat today.. You think I’m you to eat everyday??”
“Tch.. the first thing you do when you see me is pick on me... <_<... I’m going in, I hope you suffer..”
“Okay~~”
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Today was the same as always...
Does he really not feel anything...?
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My throat started tightening up... But with a happy expression I walked into the classroom.
The first thing I saw was the backside of Suh Inah’s head.
If I was in middle school, I’d have probably eat the **** out of her...
......
But he said he didn’t want me to fight.. tch...
Should I tell Joohee or not?
If they find out, they’d probably bombard me with questions.
...ow... my head hurts...
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...........my 1st period.. I feel asleep..
...........my 2nd period... I had a dream....
.........my 3rd period... my face was smothered into my desk...
And this is how three periods passed...
Why isn’t Joohee coming?? Should I go look for her?”
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............the classroom door opened and a familiar head walked in.
“Oy! Seungpyo!”
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As I’d predicted, he ignored me and started towards another girl..
“Hey! Han Seungpyo! You’re going to ignore me now?!”
“It’s our first day~”
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He said calmly putting his arm around Suh Inah.
It bugged me so much seeing that....
“Oh really? ^_^.. Lucky, good luck you guys.”
“Hey, you be Inah’s bodyguard.”
Suh Inah looked over at Seungpyo with a small smirk.
“Why the hell am I her bodyguard?”
“Then you want to be something else?”
“...you can protect her on your own, she’s your girlfriend after all..”
“You’re my girlfriend~”
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“......what?”
“Inah’s my wife, and my girlfriend is you. And I’m asking you as a friend. ^0^.”
“...you’re lucky.. having a wife and a girlfriend... you must be happy...”
“Tch.”
“You guys can stay together, your friend will leave you guys.”
Seungpyo grabbed my wrist..
.....if I stay like this for a second, I think I’ll start crying...
I turned my head and said with a shaking voice.
“What the.. hey, let go you’re wife’s looking.”
“You’re going to smoke again aren’t you...”
“.....what’s that matter to you...?”
“I told you not to smoke yesterday..”
“Whatever.. I’ll be back.”
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“What to let go..?”
“You said you won’t.”
“You’re wife’s looking.”
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However his hand was still on my wrist.
...in a second,
A tear had already fallen down..
But that stupid guy hadn’t seen it..
“Hey.. forget it...I’m not going to smoke... I’m going to get bread for the kids who have detention.. happy??”
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IT was then when his hand slowly let go...
“You guys can just whisper love words to each other~ I’m going to go eat bread.”
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...........it was silent.
I quickly left the room.
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****.. this is why I didn’t want to like something..
I guess I really have to stop hoping now...
...I think I’ll go to the attic...
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.....huh....?
“Haebin what are you doing here?”
“I’m smoking.. what are YOU doing here?”
“You??? You want to die?!”
“^0^, Nuna, what are you doing here alone?”
“I don’t know... phew.. I’m not in the greatest mood.. give me one smoke..”
“Smoke your own~”
“I want to smoke a Dunhill~”
Haebin put out a packet...
“Hey, what are YOU doing here alone?”
“....because of Hyobin.... sometimes I think I know how she feels but then again, sometimes I think I don’t, nuna..”
“What is it? Tell me ^_^, nuna will listen for you.. who’s Hyobin..?”
“Are you kidding me? <_<..”
“No, I really don’t know who is it?”
“Hansung’s sister.. she’s a first year...”
“Oh!! The girl you told me about??”
“Yeah...”
“But what about her..? She doesn’t like you back?”
“There’s someone she likes already..”
“Who?”
“My favorite junior...”
“I guess I’m not the only one going through hard times.. It’s okay Haebin.. Love is......”
.......
I skipped 4th period tell my wonderful little junior about love...
I listened to my juniors problems..
Who’s supposed to listen to mine....
.........Lee Jungeun...
You’re strong.. you don’t need someone to help you or listen to you...
If you lean on a guy... then who do YOU have to lean on??
........okay! From now on! I’m just a TREE standing by myself!!
TREE!! TREE!!! TREE!!!!
“Where are you going with you’re nostrils flaring like crazy? Did you get hit by the guard?”
“What are you doing not eating lunch? And why are you in our room?”
“I came to see my wife.”
“I see........ yeah... I see....”
“SNORT SNORT...”
“What the hell are you doing...”
“You smoke-”
“Oh! I forgot something!!!”
With that damn personality of his, he’d probably bug me to death..... so before I could hear him get pissy, I quickly ran away....
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Now that I think about it.. there’s no reason to stay in Korea anymore..
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How can I just watch you...
Holding another girl’s hands...? Hugging another girl....? Smiling with another girl...?
I know it’s me I’m talking about.. but it’s still too hard for me to handle...
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Starting that day, I got busy packing...
And three days passed...
What I noticed in the three days though was...
That Seungpyo and I had grown so far apart ever since he’d gotten a girlfriend..
Seungpyo would come to our room just to see her...
.....and it was too hard to watch so during break I’d always go out....
.....as if Seungpyo had noticed I was avoiding him..
He didn’t pay much attention to me either...
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And.. on my desk right now.. there’s a small note...
“To Jungeun..”
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.............who?
My friend couldn’t have written this....
They don’t even bring their bags and pencils to school...
It’s a girl’s handwriting... who is.. it?
#3
I picked up the note...
.......it’s my first time I’ve gotten a note in the past like 4 years...
Maybe.. it’s a LOVE... LETTER???
With that thought, I quickly snatched up the note, and opened it up faster than you could say ‘yo.’
(A while ago, I got the nick name “quick fingers” during my stealing phase.)
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“To Jungeun....
Hi, I know it’s a little weird to get a note... I won’t tell you my name... I wrote this letter after a lot of thought... But I think it’s better to tell you... I’m Inah’s friend... and I know I shouldn’t be writing this as her friend... but it’s not like I haven’t liked him before.... but this is really wrong..”
What the hell is this girl talking about???
My heart was starting to thump a little faster... And my hands started shaking for no reason at all...
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“Do you know the reason Inah’s going out with Seungpyo? ..... Inah has a boyfriend at a private school... a boyfriend she’s been going out with since 2 years before. These days, the guys at our school have been bugging him a little... so... Suh Inah wanted them to stop it.... that’s why she’s using Seungpyo....”
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.......................It’s been a while since I’ve been this pissed of....
A really long time, huh, Jungeun?
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No one stopped me, it was study hall, and all the kids were just studying..
But I quickly headed towards Suh In. Ah.
“What?”
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SMACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!
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I could hear the kids around me gasping,
But I didn’t care.....
The only thing I know right now.. is that I wouldn’t be able to stop myself even if I wanted to.
....with tear filled eyes, Suh Inah looked up at me...
“Last chance.. get up... get up if you don’t want to get beat in front of everyone...”
“....what are you doing?? Why are you doing this to me?!??!”
“I’ll say it one more time.. get up.”
“Why should I?”
“Why??”
I grabbed Sun Inah by the collar and raised her up. And pulled her out of her seat...
“Because I’m going to kill you today..”
“Jungeun!! Whata re you doing?! Jungeun!!!”
A few kids called my name.... and tried blocking me...
But the only thing I saw while pulling Suh Inah out of the classroom was ... well nothing...
except...
Sun. In. Ah...
The kids who were trying to stop me failed...
And the only thing they could do was look at her pityingly.
There wasn’t one person in my room who could stop me...
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I let go of her behind the school...
I don’t know how long it took for me to drag here there...
It didn’t matter...
Because the only thing that mattered.. was that I was going to kill this b***h in front of me..
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“Why- why are you doing this?? Let me just know the reason... Why are you doing this?”!
“...shut your mouth...”
“...let me just know why you’re doing this... please...”
.....I can’t see the tears trailing down her face....
Only 10 minutes... for 10 minutes I’ll be my middle school self....
(TN: In middle school, I guess she beat people up.)
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You used... you used... Seungpyo??
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I shoved her to the floor....
......this isn’t enough....
Should I slap her...? No.. I’ll just punch her...
Blood was flowing down... and her eyes were already so swollen that she couldn’t open her eyes.... but I didn’t stop.
No wait.... I couldn’t..
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+SLAM!!!+
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“Lee Jungeun.....”
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...............a quiet voice...
It’s a voice I haven’t heard it a while... It was Seungpyo’s....
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“....Seung...pyo...”
+SLAP+
....
“Inah.. can you get up....?”
.........without any expression on his face.. Seungpyo slapped me....
Picking up a half dead Suh Inah...
He walked past me...
.......
“....Han Seungpyo....”
“Lee Jungeun... there’s no reason for me to look at you anymore... Make sure I don’t see you... it’s not a warning.. I’m threatening you...”
“........you know the reason I did this...?? Do you!??!?! You’re stupid girlfriend, you know why I did this to her?!??!?!!”
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“.....this is the first time... you’ve looked disgusting.... Don’t even think about looking at me anymore...”
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“I won’t have to!!!!!!!! Even if I wanted to!!! I won’t be able to!!! You don’t know anything at all!!!! Have you even thought about me??!?!?!?!! ...have a good life Han Seungpyo... bye.... I don’t really feel like looking at your face either...”
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I left a frozen Seungpyo, and ran out of school....
I just ran....
I ran because I didn’t like crying.... Because the tears wouldn’t stop...
Because I hated crying because of Han Seungpyo... so I just ran.....
#4
“AH FAWK!!! Which bastard did this to you!??!?!?”
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“Joohee, pour~~”
“Aw fawk.. Hurry and tell me... who did this to you...What the hell is wrong with you!??!?!”
“....phew.... I won’t be able to see you guys in 5 days.. huh?”
“...why do you keep saying things like that? Is that why you’re like this??!”
“Joohee, don’t give her anymore, it’s her fifth bottle already.”
“No, no, it’s fine Huieun.... I just want a little more.. please... just today...”
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“....is all this because you’re going to America?”
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Of all the 3rd year girls at Sang.. the strongest..
Jooyun asked quietly....
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..........Yeah... after I’d run out of school....
My friends who had heard stormed into my house....
And my four friends are all seated inside a pojangmacha.
“Yeah, it’s because I’m going to America.”
“...it’s not because of Suh Inah?”
“No, it’s not.. Jooyun, believe me. It’s not because of her.”
“...phew... fine then. Just drink... Just drink it all... If the reason you’re like this was because of a person... I’d have gone and killed that person for you.... I can’t do anything about you going to America...I’m sorry I can’t to anything..”
..my tough friend Jooyun...
But unlike her image, she can’t drink..
She was just looking at me with teary eyes...
“Jungeun... Jungeun.. don’t go to America, you can just live with us...huh? Jungeun, don’t go.... if you go... if you go... then who will I go to when I’m mad..? You’re the only one who makes me calm down.... How do I live without my best friend...”
Joohee asked hugging me tightly....
The two of us just continued to cry inside the pojangmacha...
3 in the morning...
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“Hey, Huieun, go tell your boyfriend to bring his car, we need someone to take Jungeun home.”
“Okay.”
“Joohee!! EHEHE!! I like you so much!! I really do!! >_<!!”
“..me too~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!! I’m going to marry Jungeun!! EHEE!!” (<--obviously drunk)
“REALLY?? ^0^!!”
“Yeah!! Really!!!!!!!!!”
“Yippee!!! Me too! Me too!!”
“HEHEH!!”
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“Huieun, I’ll take care of Joohee, so go call your boyfriend and take Jungeun home. Okay?”
“Yeah, I got it. Go home, I thought you said your mom was sick.”
“Yeah, I’ll see you tomorrow. Take care of Jungeun.”
“Okay!”
With that.. Jooyun pulled Joohee along and disappeared...
And Huieun and I were the only ones left.
“Jungeun, want me to pat your back for you?”
“No, I’m fine hehehe!!!”
“Crazy b***h... Why the hell did you drink so much... I think you drank every single bottle of soju there today..... I’ll go and call Huichul to come so want to wait here? Fawk, my phone’s not working...”
“Yeah.. yeah~~”
“Want to come with me?”
“No~~ no~~ >_<...”
“...dammit, I don’t feel like I should... If someone comes by, just spit at them and glare okay? I’ll be right back. So just call okay? I’ll pick up the phone booth and smash their head in okay?”
“Okay! Okay!! Hurry~”
“... I’ll be right back!”
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As Huieun slowly disappeared..
I finally let go of all the tears I held back....
.....I don’t want to pretend that I’m happy anymore....
When I go to America.. I’m not going to pretend....
......Han Seungpyo.... Bastard....
I won’t be able to see you anymore... you know that.......?
Even if I want to... I won’t be able to... I’m going to America...
I’m going to America.....
“WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!”
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............................I’m going to cry until Huieun comes back.
I can’t cry when Huieun comes back... so I’m going to let it all out right now...
“Hey, do you know me?”
.......
“Who?”
“What are you doing crying here?”
“..what the hell...”
“Didn't I see you last time? I go to Gong~ I thought I saw you before.”
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.................in front of me, there were two guys smiling at me.. Gong..?
...I THINK I’ve seen them before....
I don’t feel too good.. I don’t like Gong kids....
“...yeah, I know you.. see you.”
“Why were you crying? Did you just get dumped? ^0^”
“Get lost.”
“Who cares? I got dumped by a b***h today~ Want to get a drink??”
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“Take your hand off...”
“Let’s go! Let’s go! We’ll pay.. Huh?? Chulmin, you have money right?”
“Of course~~”
“I said take you hand of.. don’t you hear me??”
“You’re even hotter trying to play hard to get~ let’s go, Let’s go~~ Chulmin, grab her other arm.”
“....hey, you bastards, let go of me.”
“....girls aren’t too attractive when they swear... hmm, it doesn’t feel too good being called a bastard...”
“Get lost before you feel even worse... Let go of me.. didn’t you hear me? Let go of me!”
BEEP BEEP... it’s a voice mail....
“Man, let’s just take her.”
The Gong guy said grabbing onto my arms...
“FAWK!! Let go!! Want to die?!?!?! Let go! let go!!!”
+BEEP BEEPE+
I got another message...
.............
..............
“Let go!!! Do you know who I am?!!?!?!”
“Yeah, I know who you are..^0^.”
“Huieun!!! Huieun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
The Gong bastard covered my mouth with his disgusting hand...
I was too drunk to do anything.....
...............
#5
My uniform jacket was already ripped off...
I could only cry.... Why is this happening to me....
This hands were reaching towards my blouse buttons...
...
His other hand was on my mouth....
So I just let out muffled screams.
“MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMFF!!!”
“It won’t hurt~ You won’t even know it happened.”
“HU----- Huieun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“Hey b***h, you want to die???”
...........
...................
......................
...............Seungpyo.. .please.... Seungpyo.....
Seungpyo......
“Jungeun!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where are you!??!?!?!?”
.........ㅇ_ㅇ....
It’s Huieun’s voice!!!!!!!!
I bit the bastard’s hand and yelled as loud as I could.
“Huieun!!!!!!!! Don’t come over here!!! Go call someone!!! Go call Seungpyo!!!! Don’t come over here!!! Tell someone to hurry up!!!! AHHHHHHHH!”
One of the bastards hit my head...
And I collapsed...
.........
“Hey! Chulmin, don’t let that b***h get away!!!”
..........
..........
“Huieun!! Run!!!!! Hurry! Run!!!!!!!!”
I heard footsteps all around me...
Don’t get caught... Huieun, don’t get caught.. you can’t..
................
“You.... you’re a part of Seungpyo’s gang?” (<--TN: Gang as in group)
The Gong bastard asked seriously...
“Get lost.”
“Aw fawk, why the hell is everything so complicated?! Hey, b***h you’re a part of Seungpyo’s gang?!?!?!”
“.....don’t say his name from your dirty little mouth.... after you’re done today...I’m going to make you kneel in front of me... I’m going to make you know what pain is...... I swear to God.”
“....hey... uh.. don’t tell anything to Seungpyo... huh?”
Instead of answering, I gave him a smile..... and I spit in his face...
“You b***h!!!!! I’ll- ARGH!”
He hit the wall with his fist..... after Seungpyo’s name came out..
The bastard didn’t even looking down at me again....
I watched him disappear...
................................................
Why me....
I have a big hole in my heart because of Seungpyo...
It still hurts.......
But why did something like this have to happen to me....
Lee Jungeun... what did you do for this to happen...?
I can’t even cry....
Hui- Huieun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I said standing straight up...
“Huieun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Huieun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
........crap.....
“Huieun!!! Jung Huieun!!!! Huieun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
She’s not here either...
...................what if.....
....
“JUNGEUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
ㅇ_ㅇ!?!?!
It was Huieun...
Inside a phone booth was Huieun with her eyes swollen from crying...
“Huieung~~ What happened!!?! Are you okay?!?!”
“Stupid!!! Don’t worry about me!! Are YOU okay?!??!! What happened?!??!?!”
“...nothing happened.. I’m fine...”
“WHAHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I’m sorry!!!!! I’m sorry JUNGEUN!!!!!!!”
“Hey, stupid. Why are you sorry? I’m sorry.. don’t cry....”
For a while.. I just hugged Huieun...
..............when will I meet someone who’ll hug me...... But wait... Lee Jungeun it doesn’t matter.. you’re a tree remember? You’re supposed to give shade... not get shade from someone else....
“TT_TT.. I called Seungpyo!!! But he was acting weird!!!!”
“...what’d.. he say?”
“...as soon as I called him... I said that you were in danger.... to hurry up.... but...”
“...yeah.......?
“He started singing and hung up!! TT_TT...”
“...what.......?”
“I don’t know what song it was... but he just started singing and hung up!! TT_TT...!!! What a retard!!!!!!!!!”
“......oh.. yeah... okay...”
“...Jungeun...!! Are you crying?!??! Are you crying?!”
“No.. I’m not.. Huieun, no I’m not.”
“JUNGEUN!!!!! Don’t cry!!!!!!!!! Don’t cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“I won’t.... I won’t Huieun....”
.....I hate crying.... I hate crying....
Huieun and I just cried hugging each other...
Until her boyfriend came to pick her up.... we cried...
And for 4 days, I didn’t go to school....
...............during those 4 days, I used America as an excuse and just drank with my friends....
And finally I went to school.. to discuss some things with my teacher...
Praying that I wouldn’t see Seungpyo...
#6
My slow footsteps echoed inside the hallway...
Luckily, it was during class.... so I wouldn’t run into anyone.
.............
“NUNA!!”
.............??
“Oh, Hansung...”
“Nuna, why didn’t you come to school the past few days?”
“I was.. just a little busy..”
It was Hansung, a 2nd year... my junior.... He looked a lot like the pissy 1st year we’d seen on the attic that one time.. my pretty little junior...
“Nuna... Nuna, I heard something bad happened with those bastards from Gong a few days ago...”
“....where... did you hear that...”
“Today.. It’s all over school...”
“.......it ...is....?”
“Yeah~~ All over~~ Right now, Joohee nuna is going to all the classrooms and saying that if anyone makes up random crap that she’ll kill us..”
“...where’s Joohee?”
“Around the 1st year rooms...”
“Okay..”
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah, I’m fine... Aw.. my cute little hoobae~ worry about his nuna and all..^0^”
“....Nuna.. when are you going to America?”
“Tomorrow.”
“WHAT?!??!?!”
“Kim Hansung!! Get inside!!!”
...the door to 2:3 opened and the teacher yelled loudly...
“Hold on! Just 10 more minutes!! You can continue teaching!!”
“WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?!?!!”
The teacher walked over with a scary expression, and wordlessly, grabbed Hansung’s ear painfully and disappeared into the classroom.
“Ow!! OW!! That hurts!!!”
.......…^_^..........
..................
.......................
.....
....
“Okay... so if you go to America.. when will you be back..?”
“It’s a permanent move...”
“...I’ll be going...”
“Huh?”
“I’m going.. please be healthy..”
“You too.”
.......
.................
........with the envelope I had my passport and belonging in, I walked out of the office.
...is this....really....bye.............?
..............
...................
I guess I just sneak into my classroom for the last time...
...
I don’t want to see Suh Inah.. I’ll just go....
...........
.....................
..........................
+SLAMMMMMMMMMMMMMM+
ㅇ_ㅇ?!!?!?!?
The door to 3:1 opened abruptly..
Very abruptly.... even though it was during class....
The kids all looked up in the classroom...
And behind the open door... I saw.......
.........Seungpyo...
........I didn’t want to see him....
I don’t want to see that bastard who threw away our friendship....
....I really.. don’t want...
...............
Seungpyo pushed past me.....
Even as he was passing me, he didn’t see me......
..........
Right then, I spotted something in Seungpyo’s hand....
And on that, written in black marker was...
-Lee Jungeun-
It was sloppily written.. as if his hands were shaking when he wrote it.. it was my name....
The thing Seungpyo was carrying had my name written....
....what is it....
..Seungpyo’s backside got smaller.....
If I don’t see you today... I might not see you ever again...
.....Seungpyo......
...................
There’s nothing that changes though....
The only thing that does change is that I’m going to America and I’m never coming back....
....I’m going to leave everything behind me...
What’s the use of taking unwanted feelings...?
Right then, the teacher inside class 3:1 hurriedly walked out...
“Huh? Jungeun, long time no see~”
She said and quickly chased after Seungpyo...
..............
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#7
........what is all this...?
The door opened again,
And a few guys walked out with stern faces....
And one of Seungpyo’s friends.. Donggyun was there...
It looked as if Donggyun wanted to chase after Seungpyo,
But paused when he saw me..
“Jungeun, something’s happened.”
“What? What’s wrong with Seungpyo?”
“Seungpyo!! That bastard’s going to Gong right now!!!!!!!!”
“....what.....?”
“Today.. that thing 4 days ago... it’s all around the school!! Seungpyo just heard about it.. and he just left during class....”
“....what....?”
“You don’t know? He’s going to go to Gong to beat the **** out of those guys with that stick that has your name written on it!!!!”
"...................."
“Fawk... Jungeun.. what do we do...”
“Uh.. you go call all the guys... I’ll be there first.. I’ll try stopping him, so go gather all the guys... and if you can come to Gong as fast as you can.. okay?”
“Okay!”
..................Seungpyo... Han Seungpyo....
What the hell.... I don’t think I can understand you.....
....so started singing.... she said you started singin....
But why....? Why are you acting as if you care, Seungpyo?
I ran as fast as I could,
I have to get to Gong before Seungpyo... somehow....
“TAXI!”
“Gong Highschool!”
“The highschool...??”
“Yes!!! The highschool!!!!”
........
..........
...........
“Hurry!! Ahjuhshi~~ It’s an emergency~ Hurry~~”
.....
............the taxi stopped in front of a large building...
.......it was the wrong school....
Dammit..
“No! Not here!! KYUNGSUNG Gong, not KYUNGKI Gong!!!!”
“You should have told me before... Where’s Kyungsung again?”
“Whew...forget it...”
I threw the money at the taxi driver...
And got out as fast as I could.
My heart was beating too fast for me to stay in that taxi....
Seungpyo.... Han Seungpyo......
As I was running, one of my shoes fell off....
...........but I just continued to run...
I have to stop Seungpyo... somehow.. I have to stop him....
.........
“Excuse me!! Do you know where Kyungsung Gong is from here?!”
“Just continue up, and then turn left at the light.. you’ll see a red building...”
“Thank you!!!!”
..................I’m almost there...
Seungpyo.. just a little while longer... just wait a little longer stupid.... a little more...
...............
...............
.................
As if it were lunchtime, there were many students outside...
They stared at me as I ran in...
................
.....................how... how do I look for Seungpyo? WHERE do I look for him?
****....
I just ran around the school... but Seungpyo wasn’t anywhere...
“Huh?? Is that you Jungeun?”
...................??
It’s a girl I met a while back....
Mijin....? I think it was...?
“...Mijin!! Seungpyo!!! Have you seen Seungpyo?!?!?!”
“...Seungpyo? Your school’s Seungpyo??”
“Yeah! Seungpyo!!!! Have you seen him?!!”
“...uh no...”
"................"
............I want to cry.... no wait.... I want to die.....
What if Seungpyo gets hurt?? If he’s getting hurt, I think I’ll just crumble down...
“Jungeun, what’s wrong? What are you doing here?”
“.......was there anything weird that happened today at your school???!”
“..no, everything was normal.”
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“..Mijin!! Where do your kids go if there’s a fight?!”
“HUH?”
“Where do your kids go beat other kids up at this school!??!”
“...O_O.. the construction site behind our school... why?”
“THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
.......
............
......................
I left my Gong friend and ran towards the construction site...
.........................
...........
.......and I froze when I saw the scene before me eyes....
.....................................................
..............
.............there were 6 gong guys on the ground...
............I spotted the 2 guys from 4 days ago...
....those two, couldn’t open their eyes....their blood mixing with the dust around them....
........and... behind a bag of cement..
I saw a familiar form....
.............
“SEUNGPYO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
........
............
............
................his uniform was ripped up... his hair wild....
Blood was pouring down his face.... His arm bent at a weird angle....
His eyes swollen shut...
But as he heard my voice, he forced a smile.... TT_TT... Seungpyo....
“HAN SEUNGPYO!!!!”
"........................."
“Seungpyo~~ Han Seungpyo.. open your eyes! Han Seungpyo!!!”
“Ehehe~~ Win~~”
He said weakly, making a ‘V’ with his two fingers.
...........
“Retard.... Retarded bastard... I can’t be.....” My voice died down....
And I hugged Seungpyo tightly...
......very tightly.....
Because I was thankful, because I felt guilty.... and because I ...loved him.....
“I tried not to break the stick~ ^0^”
.........
............
.....
.....................
.........................he said....
I spotted it lying next to him, with my name written boldly on the front.
“Stupid bastard..... TT_TT.... stupid..”
......and hugging his tightly, I cried.....
The words I wanted to say to Seungpyo..
Explained themselves with my tears....
........Seungpyo’s two hands, touched my shoulders weakly....
“OH~~~ A little romance going on, eh?”
..................****......
......................
........a group of Gong guys had appeared in front of us...
At least ten....
Not right now.........
...........................
Seungpyo’s cold hands grabbed mine tightly...
And he whispered...
“..you... trust me... right?”
..........
.............
“...yeah... of course I do...”
..........
...........the Gong bastards neared closer....
............all of them had something in their hands....
.......I closed my eyes........
..............And to follow that... I heard the happiest thing I’d ever heard...
“AHSSAH!!! Come on dudes!!!!!!!! It’s WAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
.......it was Sungho.............
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.............................
Sungho’s voice echoed loudly....
......smiling brightly, the groupd of guys from our school headed closer...
Tch, they’re making me all teary...
..............
The war that Sungho had yelled out so happily for...
.................
Was over in 10 minutes....
I was supporting Seungpyo up with Sungho on the other side...
And we left quietly....
..........
........my head hurts............
.......................................................
.......................................................
We quickly took Seungpyo to the hospital....
We waited 3 hours for Seungpyo to get out of surgury....
and when it was over... I was the first one to go in...
#8
....he was wrapped up in bandages
But he was still smiling....
It probably hurt a lot.. but he was still smiling....
“How are you feeling?”
“I haven’t worked out in a while... I guess I got some flab..”
“.....you’re not funny...”
“<_<..”
“..retard! What are you? Some kind of fighter?! Why the hell did you go alone?!”
“Because of you....”
“.....................why’d you go alone, retard?? Why..”
“I said I went because of you...”
“...Han Seungpyo... Really.. I can’t be-”
“When are you going to America?”
“...............America...?”
I can’t tell him I’m leaving tomorrow... I can’t...
“Why?”
“When...are you leaving...”
“Who cares?! Just a few days ago, you slapped me! You know how much it hurt!? <_<...”
“........sorry.... but... it pissed me off a lot.”
......he still doesn’t know.. this retard..
The reason I hit Suh Inah..... He still doesn’t know......
I should tell him...
It’s probably hurt him a lot thought.... Now that I think about it...
I can’t tell his bastard who’s lying on a hospital cot that the girl he likes lied to him....
.....................
.........
................I’ll tell him in America... over the phone.. that’d be better.....
I don’t want to see Seungpyo with a sad face next to me because of another girl...
No.. I can’t
“Yeah, it was my fault that time.. How’s Inah?”
“She doesn’t come to school.”
“I guess it hurt a lot... a lot...”
“...........yeah...........”
“.........how are you?”
“When are you going to America...”
“Soon..”
“Don’t go.”
..............
........................
..........................
“Stupid~~ Why not? I got everything already~~”
“Cancel them.”
“You think what you’re saying is making sense? Sheesh!”
“Cancel them... cancel them now.... Tell me you’re not going...”
“.........this isn’t something you can control, Seungpyo.. I have to go...”
“No.. you can’t.”
.........
............stupid... if you keep coming off like this.. then I’m going to think you like me....
It’s going to be harder to forget you...
..................
“Eat... eat everyday... and.. when you get out... uh... just stay at home.... Don’t go around okay? ... take care of Yehwon... and just eat porridge.....okay? ....don’t fight from now on.... and sleep before 12 at night... and.... and....”
“Are you not going to see me ever again...?”
“....huh...?”
“That’s what it sounds like... you sound like this is the last time you’re going to see me...”
“No, it just came out that way... why would I not see you again?”
“Don’t go to.... America...”
...........
.............
............
He stared at me......
...........I don’t want to go... Seungpyo.. I really don’t want to....
But I don’t want to me nothing but a friend to you.... I don’t like looking at you as a friend.... Before I end up liking you anymore... I have to go.. I have to..
“...I’ll be leaving....Seungpyo, I’ll be leaving.. I’ll come back later...”
“I’m asking you.. I’m begging you... Lee Jungeun.. don’t go...”
“..........I love you Seungpyo...........”
"......................"
Look at that... look at his face....he’s just staring at me....
If I say something like this... you’ll leave me....
That’s why I can’t be around you, idiot...
“As a friend... don’t be so surprised.. I’m going~ Stay healthy!”
“...Lee Jungeun.........”
“You have to be good.. okay?... if you don’t eat...”
........
............If I stayed any longer... I was going to cry....
So I quickly ran out....
..............my friends waiting outside called my name loudly....
But I just waved my hand and left the hospital...
I’m crying again... again....
I hate crying.. Lee Jungeun hates crying....
But she’s crying because of someone.. again..... like an idiot...
Next morning 7.
I opened my swollen eyes...
And headed towards the airport.
I told the wrong departure date to my friends on purpose....
......if they find out, they’ll probably come to America and beat the **** out of me though....
............I couldn’t tell them though.....
Because I’m not strong enough to show my backside to my friends...
The biggest reason being Seungpyo....
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................Seungpyo... bye.... bye~~
...I won’t forget you... Seungpyo...... no, I don’t think I will be able to...
...............................
.....I’m sorry...... and I’m thankful....
And I love you Seungpyo.........
..................
I was already an hour into my flight....
This is really good bye.... bye....
Right then.. I remembered about something...
my voicemails from 4 days ago....
2 voicemails I hadn’t been able to listen to...
I got a weird feeling....
I quickly took out my phone...
“Two new messages~~”
#9
...
....with shaking fingers, I held my phone up to my ear...
The voice coming out of my phone was Sungho’s..
“Hey, Lee Jungeun.. want me to tell you a hella funny story? It’s a story about this stupid bastard... yeah? That stupid bastard’s liked this girl since he was 9. Yeah? But then all of a sudden, that girl he’s liked started doing all these things starting from their 3rd year in middle school.... Yeah? Well that bastard hated that a lot. So starting from their first year of highschool, he started liking this girl in their class who looked the same but were opposites.. no wait, he didn’t start liking her.. he wanted to see if he could find the girl he liked inside that loser girl.”
+BEEEP BEEEP!!!+
...........
................this is how the first message ended...
......................................
My hand was starting to shake even more....
And the second message started playing....
“Aw fawk, why the hell did it end so quickly? Anyways... Ahem!! So that stupid bastard went to that stupid girl he’s like for 10 years in hope to get her to say that he shouldn’t go out with the loser girl, right? But you know what happened?? That stupid girl just told him to go out with the loser girl without a change in her face expression... And guess what I heard today..? I heard that that stupid girl beat the crap out of the loser girl... And my stupid retarded friend slapped the stupid girl in the face.... why do you think he did that?? Because she hit the loser girl?? No, no it’s not that... it was because the girl he loved had hit someone... and he didn’t want to believe that that’s what she’d done.... Because the girl he loved the most in the world disappointed him... Want to hear the funniest thing though? ...........I just heard that that stupid girl is going to America.
.......Lee Jungeun.. right now, this bastard half drunk... He’s singing and won’t shut the hell up... We’re in front of your house, hurry up...”
........
...........
.................Seung...pyo.....
.....Han Seungpyo.. that bastard’s you isn’t it....
The ... that stupid girl... is me....???
Is that it........................???
...
.....what do I do.... what do I do.....
I didn’t even know... I didn’t know anything......
I thought you didn’t care that day Huieun called you....
.........
............I didn’t even know... I stupidly thought.. that....
I didn’t know... Seungpyo...... Seungpyo.........
I bent my head and started to cry, and the people around me just kind of stared...
.....****....
..............
I can’t use my phone right now....
.........
............the only thing I can continue to do.. is cry......
Seungpyo... Seungpyo... what do I do.. It’s not like I can jump out of the plane....
.............
I had no clue.... I didn’t have a clue......
I started looking back at everything that had happened with me in Seungpyo....
.....how he’s always been angry if I drank or smoked.....
.......that day I told him to go out with Suh Inah, how he’d turned around with dark face....
During my 2nd year of middle school, how I’d told him that I was going out with this sunbae and how’d he disappeared for 3 days...
.....I had no clue......
............inside the 10 hours on the plane.. it felt as if it were longer than the 10 years that had passed....
As I ran out of the plane, I searched for a pay phone....
.............
I didn’t bother to think about Jungmin.....
And I quickly ran towards a pay phone...
.........
.........
............
After redialing the same number 3 times due to my shaking fingers, I let out a frustrated yell and pushed Seungpyo’s number again...
....
..................
...................
........................
.............................
“........hello.....”
..........
.............Seungpyo’s voice.....
It sounds colder than usual....
.....For a second, my throat tightened....
“Hello...”
Seungpyo asked in a slightly panicky voice...
........
.............
“Lee Jungeun.... It‘s you isn‘t it...“
“........Seungpyo...........”
“....where are you.... where are you right now??”
“Seungpyo.. I’m sorry... I’m so sorry... I didn’t know anything...”
“WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU!?!?!”
“...I’m... in America... I’m sorry... Seungpyo... I didn’t want to say bye, I was scared..... I’m sorry....”
“......liar...”
“...I’m in America... Seungpyo.. I’m sorry.. sorry, I heard everything from Sungho... What do I do.....?”
“Tell me you’re lying.... Lee Jungeun, you’re in Korea I know you are... You’re playing a trick on me........”
“.......sorry, Seungpyo... I’m so sorry....”
...........
..............
................
“Come over.... Where are you? At home? Hurry over here, I’m hungry... hurry..”
“Seungpyo... stop it, just stop it....”
Hearing my shaking voice, Seungpyo was quiet....
........
...........
...............
...............
A heavy silence passed by us..........
.......................
........
“If you’re not here....who am I supposed to go to school with in the morning....”
.......
..........
“Seungpyo..........”
“If it’s not who.... who do I laugh with........”
"............"
“...if it’s not you... if you’re not next to me.... who’ll cry for a person like me......”
........
..............
.................
“If it’s not you.. Lee Jungeun, if you’re not here Fawk, I- I-”
“........Han Seungpyo.........”
"........................................"
“HAN SEUNGPYO!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“......................”
Seungpyo’s crying... He’s crying because of me.....
The ‘great and almighty’ Han Seungpyo is crying because of a stupid girl like me....
“...Han Seungpyo... just 2 years... just wait two years.....”
"..........."
“I’ll be with you forever okay?? I’ll cry for you as long as I live, and I’ll make you smile... forever.....”
“...........what are you saying..........”
“Lee Jungun’s..... proposing to Han Seungpyo.... retard....”
+++++++End++++++++
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....................
“Where are you?!?”
“In front of the airport~~ Hurry up!”
“Just wait about an hour.. there’s traffic..”
“What?!??! Are you kidding me!! TT_TT...”
“<_<...”
+CLICK+
...........
Stupid bastard... when you come...
I’ll shove a drill up your nose......
(Aren’t you worried about our Seungpyo in the future?? ^0^)