Secret Diary.... (Seungpyo & Kyungwon teaser...)
++Seungpyo’s Diary..++
2001, September..
....It’s been a......... a week since Kyungwon broke up officially with me..
Today, I went to sing karaoke with the guys..
I wanted to forget about Kyungwon with singing..
....I spotted the same booth Kyungwon and I had gone into...
I didn’t want to do in... I really didn’t want to but...
....I missed Kyungwon so much, I just decided to walk in..
.....on the wall... I spotted a small note Kyungwon and I had written when we had come together...
“Seungpyo and Kyungwon~ Let us love~~”
The not was faded...
And I took a pen out of my bag and went over the little message to darken it..
I don’t want out memories to disappear like our relationship...
If Kyungwon sees this... maybe Kyungwon will come back to me...??
++Kyungwon’s Diary++
2001, September...
Today, I decided to go to the arcade with Yehwon to pull off some stress..
I’d decided to sing a rock ballad so we went to sing karaoke.
The booth we had gone in with Yehwon... was the booth both Seungpyo and I had gone in...
I spotted the small message on the wall..
....I’d have thought it faded away... the big message written on the wall...
“Seunpyo and Kyungwon~~ Let us love~”
Phew... today I only sang rock ballads... and parted ways with Yehwon...
I couldn’t pretend to be happy anymore... I feel bad towards Yehwon...
And... I felt bad for Seungpyo also....
++Seungpyo’s Diary++
2001, October...
Today I went to the dry cleaners to pick up my pants...
Hyunsung was in the PC Bang, and I went to go find my uniform in the dry cleaners under the PC Bang. And I heard a familiar voice...
“I thought you said you don’t feel anything when you see Seungpyo!!!” (<-- The Guy was Muhshesuh chapter 90)
It was Yehwon’s voice...
.............and following that... another familiar voice....
“But I still don’t like if we see each other!!!”
.....it was Kyungwon... and Kyungwon passed me quickly... I don’t think she saw me..
...............
....she said she doesn’t like me....
The girl I love... said she doesn’t like me....
Pretending to be happy, I talked to Yehwon.... and with Yehwon’s pulling, we went to the PC Bang Hyunsung was staying at.
...........
I acted as if nothing was wrong around Yehwon....
But while I was playing Hyunsung’s game... I started to cry... I so stupid...
++Kyungwon’s Diary++
2001, October..
Today, Yehwon and I went to the dry cleaners to get my skirt fixed...
....and at the dry cleaners, I saw Seungpyo’s pangs he had left to get fixed...
Thinking that Seungpyo might come by any moment... I quickly ran towards the arcade...
And Yehwon that b***h, took Seungpyo to the PC Bang.
Leaving me with a crappy text message..
Something feels weird.. a little sad? Why’s this.. I talked with Jungmin earlier..
Why can’t I forget about Seungpyo? I’m.... a bad person...
I feel bad.....
++Seungpyo’s Diary++
2001, October...
The 3rd years barged into our room! And they took Eunsung and Hyunsung out!!
Kim Hansung sunbae doesn’t usually come to the 2nd years classes...
Something makes me nervous...
I have to do something....
I couldn’t think.. but right then I remembered about Seungpyo hyung. Yehwon’s brother.
I quickly called Yehwon.. but it was Kyungwon who answered..
........I could recognize that voice... with the words...”Hello..”
It was the voice I had wanted to hear so much... Kyungwon’s....
But Kyungwon said that her name was ‘Duhkja.’
Does..... she hate me... that much....??
.............
.....................I wonder if she knows the person that always calls and hangs up....is me...
I recorded small conversations we had on my phone... and listen to them over and over..
In a short while, Seungpyo hyung came to our school.. and I think everything turned out fine...
.........
............I was sitting behind school.. listening to Kyungwon’s voice on my phone when...
I saw Kyungwon and a Sangwon sunbae... The Sangwon sunbae was pulling her wrist and taking her somewhere..
.....I don’t know what came over me, but I stood up to the sunbae..
.....luckily, Kyungwon was able to run away... but I got beat up pretty bad... it hurts...
........but my heart hurts more....
....the recorded voice... Kyungwon’s voice... It’s been forever since I’ve talked to her...
....the thing I’m sad about is... that I miss her.. but I can’t see her...
++Kyungwon’s Diary++
2001, October..
I was at school with Yehwon... when Yehwon’s phone rang...
We thought it’d be Kim Hansung.. but... it was Seungpyo...
..I said my name was Duhkja..
..........I think Seungpyo’s forgotten my voice...
I quickly ran towards Sang with Yehwon... I’m really scared...
..I saw Yehwon’s brother.. dressed weirdly... and holding a stick....
I could see him hitting the 3rd years...
Some scary looking Sang guy asked if I had any time...
I was crying.. wondering what to do... when some guy behind me stated cussing at the sunbaes....
I quickly ran away...even though I didn’t know who it was...
She’s my life saver...
I thought I’d run into Seungpyo.. but I didn’t see him once...
These days, Jungmin is going through hard times.. so am I.
Tomorrow’s Yehwon’s birthday.. what should I get her?
++Seungpyo’s Diary...++
2001, October...
Today’s Yehwon’s birthday!!
With all his money he earned.. Eunsung rented a cafe!! I went with him!!!
He even wrote Yehwon a love letter.. how can a person change so much..? He’s so greasy...
And I saw Kyungwon there also....
.........I saw Kyungwon....
...as if nothing was wrong.. I greeted her cheerfully... Smiling.. Kyungwon greeted me too...
We talked a lot.. like friends.. it wasn’t awkward... we talked about a lot of different things..
I was nervous.... that she’d think I was boring... that she’d think I was stupid....
...I’m so stupid....
Kyungwon said she was doing fine....
Like friends, Kyungwon and I were able to talk face to face...
...I was happy... really happy... but then Kyungwon got a call..
It was the bastard named Lee Jungmin..... Kyungwon.. left.. talking on her phone...
...and I drank everything I could see and started home... man, I’m dizzy...
...I listened to all of our conversations I recorded on the phone... again.. and again...
....I can hear Kyungwon’s voice..
I saw her earlier.. but I miss Kyungwon again...
I wonder how long it’ll be until I can think about her without starting to cry...
....Kyungwon....
++Kyungwon’s Diary++
2001, October..
Today was Yehwon’s birthday...
Eunsung... is really muhshesuh...
I was really jealous....
But it was the first time I’d ever heard such a lame love letter....
I saw Seungpyo there...
I didn’t know how to act.. but Seungpyo greeted me smiling...
..........why....
.....why do you supposed I got sad? We’re back on speaking terms... but I became sad...
I was so stupid....
While we were talking.. I got a call from Jungmin...
.........and I felt guilty towards Jungmin....
...I quickly left, thinking I’d end up liking Seungpyo again....I quickly started home...
Seungpyo seemed happy.. He seemed.. truly happy....
....he’s probably forgotten about me right??
I’m so stupid.....
++1 Year after the entries.....++
++Seungpyo’s Diary++
2002, July..
This morning.. I saw Kyungwon.. in the alley.. she was drunk and was crouched on the sidewalk....
I saw the Kyungwon I’d longed after for 1 year...
She was surrounded by Gong high kids...
I felt myself get angry and I threw myself at the Gong kids...
...I think I got beaten for at least 2 hours....
........I forget how long it’s been since I’ve been hit like this...
I didn’t get angry for being beaten.. but I got angry at the fact that Kyungwon was being bother...
I pulled myself up slowly and carried her on my back...
Kyungwon was very drunk....
.....knowing that Kyungwon was on my back.. my heart started beating like crazy...
The only thing I felt was pain...
....and I heard Kyungwon whisper....
“Thank you.. thank you so much...”
I think I started crying.....
..............
....because it was Kyungwon who had said that to me... I started crying.. like an idiot...
I felt a boost of strength.... and wanted to talk to Kyungwon.. to tell her to come back to me...
But then Kyungwon whispered something again...
“Jungmin... thank you so much... I drank a lot today.. it’s your first time seeing me drunk right....”
.....
............I guess...... Kyungwon thought I was that bastard...
...I sat Kyungwon down on her front steps... and pushed her doorbell and ran...
Because I didn’t think I could look at her in the face....
Kyungwon‘s voice recorded on my phone.....
.....
.......was erased today.....
I’m the stupid one... even after a year....
Now.. really, now.. no tomorrow.. no.. starting from this moment.. I’m going to forget about Kyungwon...
I won’t want to behave stupidly anymore....
I’m sick of crying...
.....Kyungwon....... bye......
++Kyungwon’s Diary++
2002, July...
This evening.. no wait.. morning...? I drank a lot....
Jungmin had said he’d pick me up on the sidewalk.. so I was sitting on the sidewalk when some guys came up to me... Right then, I think Jungmin ran towards us..
..............
...I don’t know how many minutes... maybe hours passed.. and I was placed on Jungmin’s back...
Jungmin.. took me all the way home...
............I wonder if he knows the reason I drank is because of Seungpyo...
I felt guilty... And I felt thankful to him for looking over me...
....I told him I was thankful...
....and I stupidly said....
“I.. don’t think I’ve forgotten Seungpyo... I think I still like Seungpyo... Jungmin.. I’m sorry... Jungmin... I’m so sorry....”
.............
................luckily, Jungmin ran away before he heard me...
It would have been better if he’d heard... I couldn’t tell him today either....
But it’s weird, I just got a call from Jungmin...
And he’s never carried me...
I guess he was drunk too.. seeing that he can’t remember anything...
..........if he’d heard me...
.....if only he’d heard me...
No.. I can’t think like this... I can’t hurt two people....
I’m going to forget Seungpyo.. I really am....
That’s the best for Seungpyo and Jungmin....
...but for some reason.. I miss him a lot....
........I got a feeling that this wasn’t the end of the pain though... I think.... it’s going to be more painful starting tomorrow... I get a sad feeling.....