Chapter 51
Considering the fact that I was sick… I think I ran faster than normal…
Praying to God that nothing bad had happened yet, I stopped in front of my room.
I calmed down my beating heart and opened the door slowly.
What I saw when I opened the door was Kang Heewon with Eungyu next to him. Nari was sitting on the end of Kang Heewon’s cot.
Kneeling on the ground was all nine of Jaegwang’s family.
The only one that wasn’t kneeling was Jaegwang who was sitting on my cot glaring at Kang Heewon as if to kill him.
“What the hells wrong with all of you, I asked what you were all doing here right now.”
Eungyu asked pushing around one of Jaegwang’s family.
“…I just came because… Jaegwang wanted me to…”
AHK! What a traitor, he calls himself a friend!
Eungyu’s cold eyes trailed over to Jaegwang.
“…what? What did I do wrong, huh…?"
“Kang Heewon, you tell me what the hell is happening. Why the hell is Yoon Jungwon’s brother bothering you.”
Ignoring Eungyu’s question, Kang Heewon just stared at me.
Are you telling me to get you out of this mess too, you bastard…? <_<
“You know, that time at the bar. Your friend Kang Heewon and my brother got in a fight, remember? They’ve kinda just, you know. Friction. That’s all, don’t worry about it. Hey you guys, get up, what are you doing kneeling down? Get up!”
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Jaegwang’s family looked up at Eungyu slowly.
Eungyu let out a sigh and took out a cigarette.
“Yoon Jungwon, what the hell did you teach your brother. I won’t let it go like this next time.”
“…uh… yeah, I’m sorry…”
“You said you were friends with Heewon in middle school. Go learn how to treat your friends…”
Shin Eungyu…
…in your eyes…
I’m the evil one aren’t I…
…in your eyes…
I’m the one to kill…aren’t I…
The only thing you hear or feel is Kang Heewon, isn’t it…
Funny thing is the only thing I see is your damn face…
Eungyu walked towards the door, and Nari chased after him…
“Bullshi+, Yoon Jungwon are you a fawking retard?!?!”
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Jaegwang yelled loud enough to knock the hospital down.
Everyone’s eyes fell on him.
Kang Heewon’s eyes fell on Jaegwang.
“Listen carefully, I won’t call you anything because you’re Sohyun’s brother. The Kang Heewon you see here…wasn’t your friend a few years ago, he was my nuna’s.”
“…I know…”
Eungyu said and started to turn around again…
“…Yoon Jaegwang! Stop it! Stop it, don’t say anything!!!!”
I said running over to him and shaking his arm, pleading with him.
“Then do you know this?! Why do you think my nuna’s in this damn hospital?! She got sick after you guys broke up!! Do you know that?! Do you know that this bastard here!! This bastard would call my nuna, bug her!! Threaten her!! Hit her!!! Did you know that hyung?!??!?”
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“…Yoon Jaegwang, I told you to stop. Shin Eungyu, don’t look so surprised, this bastard’s making everything up.”
I grabbed Jaegwang’s wrist and pulled him past Eungyu.
As I was about to pass him, Shin Eungyu stopped me by stepping in front of me.
“Keep talking.”
“…hyung, you still think I’m like this because of the fight we had at the bar? Does is seem like that to you?! My nuna, that time at the bar! The bastard was choking my nuna, you know that?! And I helped her!! My nuna’s birthday…that bastard said that he’d congratulate her…and you know what he did? He broke her half to d-”
+SLAP+
“I told you to stop, don’t make my anymore pathetic than I already am.”
Jaegwang rubbed his cheek where I had hit him, and with a strained voice, Jaegwang continued to talk…
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“…have you ever been beat so bad that you could barely open your eyes by the person you trusted most in the world…? Back then, it was dark every hour of the day for my nuna. You know what though? My nuna never said one bad thing about that bastard, she says she’s to blame. What did she do? What’s to blame on her?! The one who doesn’t know how to treat his friends is that bastard over there…”
I could see Kang Heewon staring at me numbly, and I quickly turned my head.
I hate the fact that I’m alive and breathing right now…
Jaegwang grabbed my shaking hand as he finished taking and grabbed for the door.
“Let’s get out of here nuna, let’s go to a place with a lot of nice people. Let’s go…”
The tears I held back had started flowing down my cheeks and nodded.
“…okay Jaegwang…let’s go to a place with a lot of nice people…”
…as Jaegwang was pulling me out, I felt Shin Eungyu’s hand grab my wrist…
Chapter 52
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“Hey…you want to let go…?”
I started twisting and turning my wrist to get it out of Eungyu’s grasp.
Fawk, it’s hella embarrassing that I’m crying, but why the hell are there so many people in here…
I didn’t want to cry in front of Kang Heewon again.
I really didn’t want to…
“…I…I really didn’t know… I’m a retard…no, I’m a fawking retard…”
Eungyu said in a dull voice, still grabbing onto my wrist.
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“You’re not a retard, I had his dad arrested. He was my best friend, but I had his dad arrested. Don’t break your friendship either. I’m just go to leave you guys alone.”
After I’d finished talking, Jaegwang and I both left the room.
Eungyu quickly followed after, but I ditched Jaegwang and I started running.
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Eungyu grabbed me and hugged me so hard that it was difficult to breathe.
...
With all the strength I had, I pushed him away.
“…I told you to leave, we broke up, Eungyu…”
“But I came back…”
“…Heewon…he’s hurt, he’s probably hurting a lot. If you come to me, he- he has no where to go… I have my mom, my dad…Jaegwang, Yoona… a lot of people to go to… But the only person Heewon has is you. Don’t come back to me, Eungyu…”
As if he was at a loss of words to say.
Eungyu’s two arms fell limply to his sides and stared at me.
I quickly ran past him and climbed into an elevator that had just opened.
I don’t know how, but Jaegwang sped in right after me.
The elevator arrived at the first floor…
As if I were used to crying, I wiped my tears away and grabbed Jaegwang’s hand tightly.
“…thanks Yoon Jaegwang.”
“Didn’t I sound hot, when I was tell him?”
“Yeah, sure.”
“…is this the end…? …what the hell, we didn’t get anything out of it.”
“…I feel as if a weight’s been lighted off me.”
Shaking our clasped hands, Jaegwang and I grinned at each other.
As we arrived home, Mom tried dragging me back to the hospital, yelling that I had come home without permission from the doctors.
Using Jaegwang as a shield and grabbing onto the walls, I was able to stay home.
+That Night+
I got a call from Nari.
“Unnie, what do we do? Unnie, what do we do?”
“…Nari…? Why? What’s wrong?!”
“Eungyu oppa and Heewon oppa are fighting…they’re fighting… Eungyu oppa’s crying…and Heewon oppa is too…Eungyu oppa just keeps looking for you…and Heewon’s oppa just keeps looking for you too.”
“What?! Where are you guys at?!”
“In front of the hospital… we’re in front of the hospital…but unnie, what do I do… Eungyu oppa just keeps crying… They’re on the ground, just crying and they’re both bleeding…”
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“…go call a doctor…you said you’re in front of the hospital…if it’s nothing serious just leave them alone to figure everything out on their own…”
“Ah Fawk… Yoon Jungwon!!!”
Over the phone I can hear Eungyu’s teary voice…
What the hell, what have these stupid bastards been doing?!
“…Jaegwang, I’m sorry. Nuna’s going to go out the attic one last time…”
“Who are you going to meet?!”
“…Eungyu and Heewon.”
“WHAT?! Why the hell would you go meet them!?”
Instead of answering, I pat him twice on the shoulders and went to go sneak out the attic…once again.
Beads of sweat were rolling down my face, Eungyu that stupid dork…he isn’t TOO beat up… please don’t let him be too hurt…
Kang Heewon’s hits hurt a lot, what if he’s hurt really bad…?
As I started running down the neighborhood alley, I a familiar shadow of a person leaning on a car…
The person starts running towards me as he sees me.
“Jungwon!!! Wifey, mon!! Let me see your face!!!”
<_<
I got out of the way, and was able to avoid Jungbin’s oncoming hug.
After that disgusting kiss, I haven’t even let him hold my hand.
“…Jungbin, go start the car. Can you drive me to the hospital?”
“Where were you, mon! I tot I was going to die of worry, mon! You gurlie, where were you?!”
“Start your car! You owe me a lot! You like stopping fights right?!”
“…I like fighting more… <_<…”
“Hurry! Hurry!! I’m in a hurry!!”
After shoving me into the car, Jungbin gave me a glare and then started off towards the hospital quickly.
Chapter 53
While I was in the car, the only thing I could think about was Eungyu’s face with blood on it.
Kang Heewon, I’ll kill you.
The friend you couldn’t live without was Shin Eungyu…right?
If one drop of blood of his blood falls onto the ground, I’ll kill you.
Right when the car pulled up to the hospital, I thought about the relationship between Jungbin and Eungyu…
Dammit…what was I thinking when I dragged him with me?
Jungbin slammed on the breaks to his car in front of the hospital.
I slammed open the door and started to rung.
“Hey! You stay here!!”
“WHY?!”
“..just stay here!!!”
“What am I supposed to do here alone, mon!! When are you going to come den, mon!!”
“..I’m off to save my real husband. Just stay here, Jungbin.”
He stared at me, his mouth slightly open.
…and then he looked down.
“I’m sorry, Jungbin!!”
I waved at him and then started running into the hospital.
Where are they…?
Did they get taken in already?
I pushed open the hospital doors, but someone pulled on my shirt.
“Who is it?! Nari?”
Nari pulled on my shirt, just crying…
For a long time, Nari just cried, her eyes closed and tears falling.
I slowly hugged Nari and started patting her on the back.
“…Nari, it’s okay. It’s okay, don’t worry. Unnie’s here, so it’s okay. Where’s Eungyu and Heewon. Where are they?”
She pointed to a small park in front of the hospital, the park wasn’t that big, around 100 meters?
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My heart started beating rapidly…
What…what am I supposed to do?
…what kind of face do I have to talk to him with?
What do I have to say to Kang Heewon…
I don’t know anymore…
I’m just cursing the fact that I’m Yoon Jungwon right now…
“…Eungyu!!!”
There was a small tree in the corner of the park.
And leaning on the tree…
…was Eungyu, smiling at me…
"......."
It’s weird… my heart was beating a little slower…
Kang Heewon…where’s Kang Heewon…
“…Shin Eungyu…why’d you do this…huh?”
Wordlessly, Eungyu just looked at me with his eyes and slowly closed them.
“…are you hurt? Are you okay…?”
“…yeah…”
“…why’d you do it huh..? You guys are friends…Kang Heewon and you are friends..”
“…want to give me a kiss ^_^…?”
"........."
Eungyu grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to him.
With his head bent, he closed his eyes and started talking sofly…
“…I could sing without Heewon…but without you, I can’t… I’m not saying he and I aren’t friends anymore…it’s not that…”
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“I can’t let you go… Just stay with me…just stay here…Don’t look at me from far away, look at me from here…”
“…okay….”
I lifted my head, and with a dirty face with a little bit of blood and dirt caked on, Eungyu smiled.
I grinned and started wiping at Eungyu’s face, but he grabbed my hand and neared closer…
My heart that was starting to slow down started to speed up again.
Right as soon as Eungyu’s and my lips were about to touch…
“..don’t…”
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I quickly drew back and looked around.
…behind the tree I saw an arm…
“Heewon, don’t bother Jungwon anymore…us three…let’s get along now, huh…? You and Jungwon will be friends… and Jungwon and I will be boyfriend and girlfriend…you and I will be friends…let’s not make this anymore sadder than it already it is…yeah?”
Eungyu said to the arm behind the tree…
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….I could see the hand shake slightly…
Replacing the smile on my face with just a blank face, I walked to the other side of the tree…
Like Eungyu…
He was leaning on the tree with his face dirtied with blood and dirt.
Heewon looked at me with cold eyes…
“…Kang…Heewon…”
He silently rubbed his face with his hands…
“Heewon, can’t you just be with Eungyu and me…? Heewon…can’t you just forgive me…?”
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I was silent…
For ten minutes, the three of us were all looking at different areas and the silence grew…
I could believe it…
I don’t know if I’d seen wrong…
But Kang Heewon looked up at me like 5 years ago…
…and…
The clear tears in Kang Heewon’s eyes brought a wave of sadness to me…
“…Yoon Jungwon…”
“…yeah…”
“…I’m sorry…”
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…I doubted my ears for a second.
Kang Heewon opened his mouth again…
“…I’m sorry… Yoon Jungwon, I’m sorry…I’m sorry…”
“What are you talking about.”
“Sorry I changed so much, sorry I made you cry. Sorry I hurt you knowing that I was hurting you…and sorry I couldn’t forgive you… “
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At the same time, a tear fell from both Kang Heewon and my eye…
Kang Heewon pushed against the tree and stood upright.
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He looked at both Eungyu and me and started walking away….
Slowly…he got smaller…
Eungyu wiped the tears falling from my eyes…
“…I’m going to make you two friends again, don’t cry… Jungwon don’t cry, don’t cry.”
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These days the only thing I do is cry…
Like a few years ago…the only thing I do is cry…
Back then and now… there’s only reason for them…
…and that’s Kang Heewon…
Chapter 54
+Next morning...+
Carrying my heavy backpack, I was dragging myself to school when Sohyun unnie passed by our house. As our eyes met, she gave me a goofy grin...
...how can anyone be so pretty...
“Hi, unnie.”
“Hi ^0^.”
“...are you looking for someone...?”
For a second she just stared at me dumbly, and then shook her head like crazy.
“...oh, I see...then, I’ll go ^0^.”
“Okay, bye-bye!!”
She has some kind of weird charm to her.
I can understand why Jaegwang’s so obsessed with her.
I bowed at her and headed towards the bus stop when...
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+THUMP! THUMP THUMP!+
Behind me, I could hear loud footsteps.
“Hey! Dragonhead!!! What the hell, you couldn’t wait for me!?!”
What the hell TT_TT...
Don’t call me that in the middle of the sidewalk...TT_TT
“My school starts faster than yours!”
Eungyu stared at me for a moment.
...he reached into his pocked and pulled out a necklace, and started to hang it around my neck.
...it’s the same one from before.
Out couple necklace.
“Hey, Dragonhead, pinkeye’s going around these days. Be careful.”
“Yeah, of course. You be careful too.”
“Hey, do you want to get pinkeye together and then skip school and go fishing?!”
He asked me sincerely as he was clasping the necklace on behind me.
Instead of answering, I turned around and hit him on the head.
“ <_<Don’t hit my head.”
“I probably shouldn’t, I mean you don’t even have a lot of brain cells to start off with.”
“Hey! Don’t meet that guy! What the hell’s his name? BIN?”
“...yeah, Jungbin. He’s that one Miyun girl’s brother.”
“...Jung Miyun...”
“...her last name is Jung? Oh, then I guess his name IS Bin... How nasty.”
I missed the first bus heading to school.
As if annoyed, Eungyu started pulling at my hair.
“Don’t pull my hair, my hair’s going to fall out!!”
“Tch, you kiss that monster and all of a sudden it’s like you’re married to him... <_<.”
“Ahk! Don’t bring that up! It was so disgusting, whenever I think about that day, I can’t go to sleep at night!”
“You stupid Dragonhead!! Why would you think about it in the first place?!”
“Then if that happened to you, would YOU be not able to think about it?! HUH?!”
“What did you do with that knife I gave you?! You should have stabbed him!!!”
For a second, I reached in my pocket and squeezed my knife, My Piggy <3...
“...I’ll just be friends with Jungbin. He’s a nice guy.”
He glared at me with his head turned at a 45 degree angle.
“Hey! It’s the bus! I’m going first, I’ll see you later hubby!!!”
I looked at the line for the bus.
Damn why are there so many people on?
I’m going to have to be squeezed in today...
When I turned around to get in line, Eungyu stopped glaring and stepped in front of me, quickly like Jungbin lowered his lips onto mine...
+A few seconds later+
After I’d pushed Eungyu’s face away, I looked at the bus window and I could see the girls gaping at me with their mouths wide open.
Dammit, Yoona’s on too... <_<.
Ahk, Jiyoung, you’re on it too.. TT_TT...
I could also see three other girls who are in our class.
“Now you can think about this before you go to sleep, and you’ll have happy dreams. Hehe, I liked that ^_^.”
“I can’t believe you just did that.”
“Hey, come over to our practice later. I’ll tie Heewon down too, okay? ^0^.”
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Eungyu waved his hand like crazy as I got onto the bus.
Yoona and Jiyoung tore their eyes away from the window as I got on, and I braced myself so that they wouldn’t knock me down when they ran over ot me.
+School+
“Crazy, you’re crazy doing that in front of everyone in front of a stopped bus. It was just yesterday you were depressed that you guys broke up, and now you’re showing that kind of affection in front of everyone. Foxy byatch.”
“ <_<Don’t call me a fox, mon.”
“Tch, you think you’re tough stuff? Did Jungbin rub off on you?”
Oh right, Jungbin...
“Oh you guys are going out again? Why’s Kang Heewon just letting it happen? Didn’t he make a big deal?”
Yoona asked shoving her face into mine.
“...you have pinkeye, get your ugly little face away from me!!! Why the hell did you come to school?! You should have just stayed home!!”
“I didn’t want to be sick alone so I came to spread it around to a few people.”
“If I get pinkeye, my mom’s going to beat me you bi+ch!”
The whole day at school, I avoided Yoona...
But when I poked my head into Shin Eungyu’s practice room...
...there was the stupid guy rubbing his pink bunny eyes while grinning brightly at me.
“You- you get away from me! Don’t get close to me!”
“Don’t I look like a bunny?”
“Bunny my big fat ass! You got it on purpose didn’t you?! Tell me the truth, you did it on purpose!”
“...no I didn’t! >_<!!
While Eungyu and I were arguing, the cool drummer unnie opened the door to the recording room and yelled at Eungyu loudly.
“Eungyu, you’re out of the band until your eye gets better!”
“That’s not fair!!”
“Hey! Don’t get close to me!”
“No! I’m good at singing again!”
“Who the hell cares if you’re good at singing?! Not Heewon can’t. Dammit, why the hell are you two complicating things. Is Jungwon THAT pretty? ^_^.”
The unnie asked flashing me a grin and a wink.
Saying, “damn my stomach’s screaming for food” she waved and left the room.
There was an awkward silence in the room and I looked around
“Let’s go.”
Eungyu said pulling on my hand.
Kang Heewon, where is he...
He probably feels that Eungyu left him also...
He probably feels that he’s been betrayed twice...
...who knows... he might never give his heart out to another person, in fear or being betrayed again for a third time...
That night, Eungyu and I were playing against each other on the computer.
Humming, Jaegwang slammed the door to his room open and started dancing...with something in his hand. What the hell... Crazy bastard...
“Ahk! What the hell is that?”
“It’s a cat. Isn’t it pretty?”
“Where’d you find that thing?!”
“Outside on the way home.”
“...that thing’s huge!!! It’s an alleycat! Get rid of it!”
“It’s pretty!! If it grows fur out of it’s bald patches, it’d be a total Persian!! Don’t cha think?!”
“...you got pink eye didn’t you.”
“Yup! No school for me tomorrow! ^0^, I’m going to go over to Sohyun’s with my cat!”
“Hey, don’t use my towel tomorrow morning! You better use your own!”
I logged off from my game with Eungyu and turned off the monitor.
Slowly, so that I wouldn’t touch any part of the ugly cat or Jaegwang’s disgusting disease infected eye, I stuck to the wall and left his room.
That night....
For the first time in a long while,
I was able to hear Eungyu’s pretty voice singing...
Chapter 55
After the full moon, we were all still happy and peaceful.
Jaegwang’s cat Pupu was growing rapidly... a little too rapidly.
Eungyu and I were busy trying to look for Kang Heewon here and there.
Thanks to all our walking around, I lost 5 pounds ^0^!!!
Just 10 more and I’ll be even happier.
Eungyu’s hair had grown out a little longer and whenever he’d sing, he’d shake it around so that his hair would flop around on his head.
The time was 6 at night in the Autumn. It was a little chilly, but still warm.
Licking his ice cream cone, Eungyu kept staring at picture we’d just taken in the picture arcade.
“Dragon, let’s go sing karaoke.”
He’s finally taken the ‘head’ out of Dragonhead and now calls me just ‘Dragon.’
“...karaoke? You don’t like going to sing karaoke though.”
“Let’s go!”
“...I mean, I don’t care, but how long are you going to keep calling me ‘Dragon’?”
“Until I start liking cola again.”
<_<...
Eungyu and I reached the karaoke place.
The girl working there greeted Eungyu happily.
“Hey, didn’t you come sing at my college last week?”
“No.”
“Yeah you did. You sand that song, ‘The Moon Loves a Star’ didn’t you?”
“No, what room do we go in?”
“Oh...uh, room 3 is free.”
The girl scratched her head confused.
When we reached the room, I opened my mouth to ask him the questions I had kept back earlier.
“It’s you isn’t it? You said you went last week.”
“I’m going to be more humble from now on.”
Oh my gosh, what’s answering ‘yes’ and being humble got to do with anything?
He grabbed the songbook and started flipping the pages.
With wide eyes, he looked up at me.
“Put something in.”
“You do it first.”
“After I hear you sing. If you suck then it’ll be embarrassing for me.”
“Yeah, that’s you should go first.”
We stared at each other for about 20 minutes.
Fine, you win. <_<.
I took the songbook from him and started looking around.
Man, I hate singing.
I picked out a ballad and I was just finishing the first verse when Eungyu picked up the remote and pressed ‘stop.’
He opened his mouth with a serious expression on his face.
“Damn, I’m sorry.”
“You sing it all yourself you bastard. If you make me sing again... <_<.”
“Poor Dragon.”
For a guy who doesn’t sing pop, he put a number in and then picked up the mike...
Out came a pop song... <_<
He encircled my waist with one hand and held the mike in the other.
“Aren’t you hungry?”
I remember him telling me a while ago that he hated it when people interrupted him when singing. Still singing, he glared at me.
“I’m going to buy some bread. I’m hungry, you want some?”
“ <_<“
I got up and started out of our room.
Putting my hands in my pocket, I headed towards the closest supermarket.
The sun had set already.
Since it was a Saturday, there were a lot of kids wearing school uniforms also.
There were also a lot of kids just wearing regular clothes.
Walking down the sidewalk with a lot of people around me and music coming out of music stores.
Man I love this ^_^.
With the thought of buying bread, I towards a supermarket, but something made me stop in my tracks.
I started walking backwards to check my eyes to see if I’d seen correctly.
In front of a bar was Heewon with a cigarette in his mouth.
My breath caught in my throat.
What am I supposed to do?
Am I supposed to call Eungyu?
Should I go over and talk to him...? Will he even answer back...?
What am I supposed to say to him.
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Thinking that I should go bring Eungyu, I turned around and started running towards the Karaoke room.
“You don’t have to bring him....”
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Heewon’s slurred voice made me stop again.
“...you drank, didn’t you.”
Carefully, I walked in front of him.
As I got closer, his friends poured out of the bar.
Standing protectively next to their friend, they looked at me with suspicious eyes.
“Yeah, I drank. Yup, I drank.”
“...Eungyu worried about you a lot.”
“...who’s Eungyu....”
“...your friend... Your best friend...”
Kang Heewon let out a grin and rubbed his forehead.
“...Yoon Jungwon, you remember me, right....?”
“...what are you talking about.”
“Do you still remember the Kang Heewon who was your friend?”
He said as he took a shaky step and let out a big sigh.
His closest friend quickly steadied him.
“You...hate me a hella lot, huh...?”
“...no, not anymore.... I’m just really sorry. that’s all.”
“I still hate you a lot...I still you...”
“....stop it....”
“Don’t laugh around Eungyu.”
“Can you still not accept me around your friend...? How much longer will I have to wait until you forgive me...?”
“...it’s not that I don’t you around Eungyu... Now, I don’t want Eungyu around you...”
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When I’d looked at him with wide eyes, his friends stepped in front of Heewon and were starting to walk closer to me.
“Hey, is this that bastard Yoon Jaegwang’s sister?!”
Kang Heewon nodded.
“Because of this bi+ch in front of me, I was hospitalized because I got beat by some mob bastards! When I think about that time I feel like my veins will pop!!! You ratted on them didn’t you!”
Kang Heewon’s friend yelled grabbing my shoulder and shaking me slightly.
“Get your hand off.”
“’Get your hand off’?! You bi+ch, you want to die?! Did you just tell ME to get my hand off YOU?!?!?!”
He raised his hand to slap me.
Not again... Kang Heewon, can’t you do anything...?
It’s about time to stop, isn’t it...?
I glared up at Kang Heewon’s friend and then at Kang Heewon.
“Kang Heewon, listen carefully. I’m not going to move away from Eungyu. Hey, you bastard, you listen carefully too. If you put your hand on my shoulder one more time, I’m not going to keep myself back from beating the crap out of you. Kang Heewon, do what you want. Eungyu came to me, and I don’t have anything to keep back from anyone anymore. I’m not hiding anything either, so you do whatever you want. I don’t care.”
“Do what I want...?”
“....that’s what I said.”
“Okay....”
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Walking shakily, Kang Heewon walked up to me, and with his long two arms, he hugged me tightly...
Is this a dream...?
As I pushed against him, his arms squeezed me tighter...
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“...you told me to do what I wanted....”
Chapter 56
“You told me to do what I want…”
Thinking that Eungyu’s might be watching from afar, I quickly looked around.
Thank God, Eungyu’s not here…
What the hell is he doing though…
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“…have you come back as a friend….? Have you forgiven me…?”
I asked in a shaky voice, my voice muffled from being smothered into the guy’s shoulder.
Heewon’s long arms uncurled from around me and he looked at me in the eyes.
“Stay next to…me…”
“ ^_^.”
“I’m asking you…”
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It’s Heewon.
Not Kang Heewon…just Heewon…
The memories I had to bury deep inside me, didn’t have to be inside me anymore…
He’s back… Heewon’s back…
My friend Heewon’s back…
“…you’re here, Kang Heewon’s back…I didn’t think you would… I thought you’d ever come back, but you did…”
Like a few years ago, Kang Heewon- no wait, Heewon ran his thumb over my cheek.
“Let’s go to Eungyu, huh? Let’s go to Eungyu, Heewon. Eungyu will be so happy, we’re back. We’re- oh my God, I’m so happy. Oh my God…”
I can’t even talk right…
I grabbed his hand without even knowing I had and started to pulling towards the Karaoke Room. I stopped when Heewon pulled his out of my grasp though.
“…what..?”
“Between you and Shin Eungyu, Yoon Jungwon, I picked you.”
“..what…?”
“Forget when we were friends, forget when I hurt you… Forget everything..”
“…why would I forget the things we did as friends…? You said you came back…”
“I did...”
Heewon said smiling.
The brightest I’d seen him…
“But as a guy…”
I just stared at him, and his friends started laughing loudly…
Their laughing reminds me of Jungbin…
“Hey…wait! Kang Heewon, as a guy..? I can’t take you back then! Between Shin Eungyu and Kang Heewon, the one I’d choose is Shin Eungyu! If you’re thinking of bugging me again, then just go back to before! Don’t act like you’re my friend, and hurt me like that!! And another thing, Eungyu’s your friend!”
With my loud yell, Kang Heewon looked at me in the eyes.
I can see his black eyes behind his longish bangs…
“I’ve given up on friendship, now. I’m not going to put my heart on the line to some other person who’s going to throw me away… That’s why I picked love instead, I’m going to make you smile next to me in a month. See you around…”
His stupid friends clapped at his words.
I could see his getting further away.
If Jaegwang somehow finds out about this…
No wait, not Jaegwang… If Eungyu finds out about this…
Am I supposed to tell him everything that happened?
“Dragon! You want to die?!”
“AHK!”
“AGH!”
“…how long have you been here…?”
Pouting, Eungyu glared at me…
“Where’s the bread?! The bread!”
“They were out… How long have you been waiting here?”
“What’s that matter?!”
He looked really mad.
How much did you sing? Your voice sounds raw. -_-
Seeing that you’re so lively, and the way you’re acting, I don’t think you’ve seen Heewon…
“You didn’t even buy me break!! I’m hungry!!”
“Well of course you are, you sang like crazy <_<.”
“Dragon, make me cheese puffs.”
“Tch, you didn’t eat them the last time I made it for you.”
“My nuna doesn’t make it for me. She makes it and eats it herself. Come over to my house and make me 10! Okay?”
“Then don’t call me Dragon.”
“Okay! ^0^”
It was a little over 10.
Swinging our hands we walked in the direction of our houses.
There are so many stars in the sky, wow, they’re so pretty.
“Hey, Shin Eungyu.”
“Yeah?”
“Tell me you love me.”
“Why?”
“So that I can just keep looking at you.”
“Well then I’ll tell you that I love you! Instead, let me call you Dragon.”
“Forget it! <_<!”
+That Night+
Because of Sohyun unnie who was sticking close by as I made the cheese puffs.
Eungyu was only able to eat eight.
“Fawk! You’re so annoying, go and get married!!!”
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Chapter 57
+For the Past Few Days…+
Saying that he had an important song to compose, Eungyu had forgotten about Heewon.
Even if I ask him something, he’s so busy he just nods.. <_<
He’s always stuck with Nari, saying that he has to practice.. Tch…
Right now, I’m looking at the two stuck together with Eungyu coaching Nari how to sing a verse.
“…no, Nari, sing a note lower, it’s hard to harmonize with you since your voice is so high.”
“Ah~~ Ah~~ Like that?”
“Yeah, that’s good.”
<_<
“…I’m bored!”
….silence… <_<…
“Man, we need Seohyun nuna to play the drums so that we get it on beat.”
…Seohyun…?
“Nari, go call nuna.”
“Okay. ^_^.”
Nari took out her cell phone and she started pressing a number. Her long hair was cut around her shoulder. The blue lens she always wore was replaced by dark circle lens.
“Hey, Eungyu are you almost done? Let’s go watch a movie, Nari, want to come with us?”
“I’m busy today, I have to practice till late.”
“Then how much longer do I have to wait?”
“I have no clue.”
“Tch, I hope your voice cracks when you perform!”
“Hey!”
I left my stupid boyfriend in the room and started down the stairs. I wasn’t expecting Nari to hold me back, but from Eungyu… <_<…
Fawk, aren’t you going to stop me from going… <_<…?
With my hands in my pockets I walked out the building, should I go call Yoona?
Standing for the hand to flash, I fingered my phone, and a saw a couple.
When I studied them a little more, it was Kang Heewon and Bi+ch.
I put the hat I had in my left hand on and when the hand flashed, I lowered my head and started on my way across the street when I felt someone’s hand grabbed my hat off my head. I turned around, my eyes wide.
Kang Heewon put the hat he had in his hand on his head.
“Let’s go.”
All of this happened in the middle of the street. Kang Heewon grabbed my hand and started pulling me to the opposite end of the street.
“Heewon! What the, hey! Kang Heewon!”
It was Bi+ch.
The uhljjang of some school grabbed Heewon’s remaining hand.
“What the hell! Where are you going?! Isn’t this the girl from the hospital?!”
“I told you before. I didn’t feel anything towards you so that you should either…”
How can he say that as if it’s nothing…?
You’ve changed completely haven’t you, seeing that you can act like that to just anyone who’s not me…
With a blank face, the girl stared at me and smirked, tears in her eyes.
Kang Heewon grabbed my hand again and I was pulled around 3 meters. Pulling my hand away from him, I stopped and started yelling.
“Kang Heewon, wait, are you my friend?! Are you? Did you come back as my friend?! Tell me!!”
“Have you eaten…?”
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A few years ago, he’d always greet we with those three words… ‘Have you eaten…?’
I just stared for a little while.
“I might have, or might not have! Tell me!!!”
He ignored me and turned, and raised his hand to catch a taxi.
As he caught one, Kang Heewon pushed me- no, more like threw me into the taxi and we started off.
I glared at him…
“What the hell, what are your intentions?! Are you trying to break me and Eungyu up again?!”
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For a second, his face froze…
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Silently, he pulled out a cigarette and lit it. The driver turned around to us.
“Aren’t you a student? You’re wearing a uniform.”
“ <_<.”
Heewon wordlessly stared at the driver with cold eyes and continued to smoke as he lowered the window.
He wasn’t like this a few years ago… TT_TT …
I can’t believe he’s changed so much…
Even though I’m mostly to blame…
The taxi stopped in front of Chankyung and we got out and we- not he headed, pulling me behind him, towards our get together from a couple years ago.
This is crazy…
Heewon continued to walk, my hat still on his head. He loosened his grip on my wrist and casually took my hand. I twisted it out f his grip, but Heewon’s large hand enveloped it again.
“…I don’t get why you’re doing this… I don’t understand why you’re like this all of a sudden.”
“Well then don’t, I never asked you to understand me.”
“…is all of this sincere, or is it not…”
“It is…”
He said lightly…
“…why’s it so funny… Just a few days ago, you and I hated each other…”
He was silent, and then he took my hat off his head and put it back on mind.
An awkward silence surrounded us…
Both of us didn’t want to open our mouths first…
From the left of us, a bunch of people came up from the stairs leading down to the subway…
Heewon pulled me into a coffe shop.
…from the group of people…I spotted a familiar looking cat…
Nah, it couldn’t be… could it…?
I looked up the arms and at the holder of the cat, and once I saw, I quickly followed behind Heewon.
From behind us, a perky voice yelled loudly.
“Here, from Y-Pop!!! Today, we’re interviewing a group of people that just walked up from the subway!!”
The girl’s voice said, spreading loudly around the area.
The first interview the girl had…was with a boy holding a cat… <_<
“Why, hello!! You seem like a student, what a …nice looking cat! How old are you? ^_^.”
“Eighteen!!”
“Oh, I see~~ Your cat is really… different!! It looks like something happened to it when it was growing up!!”
“I don’t think there was, I found it outside.”
“Oh… You have a kind heart along with a nice looking face~~!! You must be popular at school~! ^0^.”
“I am.”
“…I see~~ Where were you going with your cat?”
“I was going to go get a drink with my friends! ^0^.”
“Oh my, what if your teachers see this? “
“Doesn’t matter… <_<..”
“…I see~~ You have a lot of courage for a student… A few last words? Maybe a song?”
“I’ll just say something… Sohyun, I love you!!!! ^3^!!
That crazy little bastard!!!
He has a lot of nerve, taking that ugly little animal out with him in the middle of the road.
Hiding my face behind Kang Heewon’s back, we started walking away from the large group.
Chapter 58
Awkwardly, the two of us finished our food, and when we finished, he left the café before me. I stepped out after him, the sky was dark already.
“…I should be getting home…”
Heewon silently headed towards a park near my house. I still don’t know what he’d aiming for right now…
He seated himself on a long bench. Heewon looked up at me, who was just staring down at my shoes and took my hand and seated me next to him.
“We used to come here often, didn’t we… You always cried when there was something you were going through that was hard…”
Kang Heewon said, looking at me and smiling sadly…
“…yeah, I remember that. Then you’d always come and make me stop crying, huh? You’d buy ice cream and make me feel better.”
“Chocolate.”
“…if you’d buy strawberry, I’d get all mad and stuff…hehe…”
“You remember? That one time we were playing with fireworks and we got hauled to the police station?”
“Haha, I was so scared that time. It was your birthday, wasn’t it…?”
Instead of answering, Heewon grinned brightly. It’s happier than you think, talking about old memories with someone…
Right now, Heewon and I are covering the years of pain by bringing up as many happy memories as we can…
Heewon rested his head on my shoulder…
“…but Heewon…”
“…yeah…”
“…I truthfully don’t understand everything… I want to believe that your intentions are good, but I mean… It doesn’t make sense…”
Heewon was silent.
“…and if I somehow get to love you again, it’ll be as a friend…not as a guy…”
“I know you know this better than me, Yoon Jungwon…but you know that I hate that.”
“…yeah, of course I do…”
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“If you turn your back on me… Yoon Jungwon, then I’ll die.”
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It felt as if something was squeezing my throat, I just turned my head. s
“I really want to smile again…”
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Hearing Heewon say this made me want to have gone through all the hardships that he had gone through…for him…
‘I really want to smile again…’
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“…then…why’d you turn your back on me…? Kang Heewon, it wasn’t just once, you turned your back on me more than once…”
“…because I hated you, the same amount I trusted you…”
Heewon took out another cigarette and put it into his mouth…
“…but still, you were too harsh… Do you know that I even learned martial arts because of you…?”
“I thought so. It hurt like hell when you slapped me…”
“…what about you…? You hit me too, choked me not to forget.”
“…it’s nice…it’s the first time in years I’ve felt sleepy as soon as I closed my eyes…I’m going to sleep.”
“Hey, no! Don’t make me laugh, I said no! I’m getting up..!”
He ignored me, and Heewon closed his eyes…
Like he said, he fell asleep as soon as he closed his eyes, and I picked the unlit cigarette in between his fingers and threw it on the ground. I glanced at my watch.
I think around 50 minutes have passed, it’s okay to wake him now, right <_<…?
“Hey, get up. Kang Heewon, my shoulder’s going to be lopsided, it’s over 11.”
I shook up and frowning, he woke up, right as we got up, I saw a guy and a girl walking over this way.
Heewon shook the remaining sleep from his face and walked over.
“Oh, it’s Heewon sunbae, we thought that you were someone else. What were you doing here? ^_^.”
The guy asked brightly.
“Oh, I was on a date with my girlfriend ^_^, what are you guys doing out so late? Oh wait, don’t tell me…it’s obvious ^0^.”
He’s introduced me as his girlfriend so smoothly it took me a while to understand what he said. I shook my two arms vigorously, but the two ignored me completely.
This time, the girl spoke.
“Oppa, you were sleeping weren’t you? There’s a mark on your face…”
“…huh? Yeah, I was. ^_^.”
Kang Heewon grinned and rubbed his cheek.
“Hey! I’m not your girlfriend, my boyfriend’s a lot better looking than him! I’m not his girl-”
“We’re off then, sunbae we’ll see you later. Good night ^0^ .”
The pair bowed to Kang Heewon and went off, I turned towards their backs and yelled.
“It’s true! I’m not his girlfriend!”
“…stop it…”
“…what the hell! Don’t come out like this, I told you that you’re going to come back as a friend!”
“Man, that was a nice nap~! Let’s go, I’ll walk you home!”
Kang Heewon yawned loudly and he strutted off in front of me.
“Walk me home? If Jaegwang sees you and I both die, you know that?!”
Leaving him behind, I quickly started running towards my house, after running a little while, I turned around to see that he was in the exact spot he was in before I started running. He waved from where he stood, and I stuck up my middle finger and waved it back at him…
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….it’s not like I don’t like it. I’m glad he came back to me, I’m glad that he’s sincere about it too…
But I couldn’t accept the fact that he said ‘guy’ not ‘friend.’ That was what I was most worried about. I walked up to my front gate and slowly reached to push the bell, knowing that I was going to die as soon as I went it.
“…Dragon… TT_TT…”
Eungyu said in a voice that said he was half dead…
“Were you practicing up until now??”
“Yeah, listen to my voice.. TT_TT…”
“…retard, you should have thought about it before. It’s okay, it’s not bad. How much longer do you have to practice this much?”
“…I don’t know…”
Carrying the guitar on one arm, Eungyu hugged me tightly and with his left finger, he started playing with it.
“Ahk! Don’t touch my hair, I didn’t wash it!”
“…it’s okay, I’m happy with just hugging you.”
“Hey, go to sleep. Go to sleep and dream about me, then you’ll have good dreams.”
“Dream about you? Hehe, I guess I’m going to have to buy some lottery tickets then.”
As soon as he finished, he pushed the bell quickly.
“You!! What’s that supposed to mean, huh!?”
“Bye!”
With a large bang, he disappeared. Tch, you can’t finish with saying something nice, ever!!! Can you? <_<
Sighing, but with a happy smile on my face, I went to push the doorbell…
(+For those who didn’t understand the lottery thing. Eungyu calls Jungwon Piggy or Dragon... In Korea it’s just a superstition thing, but if you dream about pigs or dragons, it’s supposed to be good a good luck sign. ^_^)
Chapter 59
+Breakfast+
For the first time in a long time, our whole family was at the breakfast table. My dad just looked at my brother distastefully as Jaegwang held his damn cat as he ate.
“Yoon Jaegwang, I told you not to hold that when you eat didn’t I? It sheds! It’s fur will get in your food!!”
Ignoring my mom, Jaegwang just continued to shove his damn food into his mouth, petting his cat at the same time.
“Mom, a few days ago I carried Pupu around and I got interviewed!! You know, there aren’t that many beautiful cats like this in Korea! I’m going to be famous, you promise me you’ll record it!”
Stupid, that’s not what that interviewer meant… <_<…
“Put that down!!”
My brother quickly put the cat on the ground.
“I’ll get you a pretty, decent looking cat with fur all over it’s body!! So get rid of that patchy alley cat!”
Angrily, Jaegwang slammed down his spoon.
“I’d rather die!!! Mom, how can you be so cruel?! TT0TT!!! The girl I can see is Shin Sohyun, and the only cat I see is Pupu!!! So don’t say things like that!!”
“Then what am I, in your eyes?”
“A person who makes me food.”
My mom’s changed at least 5 colors, and Jaegwang finished his cup of water as if he’d said nothing wrong. Right as soon as my mom and dad both started yelling at Jaegwang, I sped out of the house. Today I have a date ^0^ !!
It was a little cold outside today, I guess it’s finally Autumn. I quickly walked towards our meeting place.
Hmm, it’s been a while since I’ve heard from Jungbin. I wonder what happened to him. He’s been ignoring all my calls and my texts. That wasn’t much of a shock that day, I hope it wasn’t anyways. Jungbin come back! I miss your ugly accent! TT_TT !!
+Orange+
I sat in a chair near the window. I was watching people passing with my chin resting on my palm.
I spotted Eungyu wearing his uniform walking towards the café. He walked into the café, it’s hard to meet him these days because of some kind of competition. Because of practice, Nari was hanging around Eungyu today too… <_<…
Whenever we had a date, Nari would always follow and it’s be the three of us <_<… So much for a serious date…
Eungyu never looks this serious when he’s around me, I guess this is what music does to him. I grinned at him brightly and the smile wiped off my face when I saw Nari.
“…hi Nari…”
“Hi~! ^0^ !”
“So oppa, in this verse I shouldn’t do vibrato?”
“Yeah, that rest it too short. Oh, for the order, we’ll pick some kind of love song for the middle songs, and the opening and ending will be something else.”
The pair of vocals left me to sit by myself…
“It’d be good if Heewon oppa was here. Since he plays the bass, he’ll know better than us about this piece. Can’t you get through to him, oppa?”
For no reason, when Heewon’s name came up, I started to sweat. Eungyu’s face got a little darker.
“Yeah…I tried going to his school, but I haven’t met him.”
“…Heewon oppa wasn’t like this… He’s doing everything his way, what if he just disappears…”
“He’s just going through hard times…”
“Hard times like what? The one who’s going through hard times is Seohyun unnie. Thinking about the whole band and all.”
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“…don’t say that. Of course he has things that are hard…? If living was hard for you everyday, would you want to be singing everyday? Take a walk in his shoes…”
Before I could stop myself, I blurted it out. Nari stared at me with a blank face then grinned.
“…of course unnie, I’ll walk in his shoes next time. ^_^.”
And…
Eungyu closed his mouth tightly, and stared at me.
“…what? What are you looking at? What? Did I say something wrong? I was just saying she’d think in his point of view!”
An awkward silence flowed, oh my God. What is that big a deal, that I said that? I scratched my head.
“Oh right, unnie, did you hear? Eungyu oppa’s childhood friend is visiting ^0^.”
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…childhood friend…?
What kind of friend? Nari looked up at Eungyu with shining eyes. Eungyu looked down and Nari answered for him.
“He said that his friend was the first time to get him to love him. Oppa, you said she was coming soon, right?”
She?!
“Hey! You didn’t tell me that!!! When’s she coming? Where will she be sleeping?!”
“…you didn’t ask.”
“Is it that big a deal?! You used to live in Chungjoo?!”
“No, she moved there.”
Oh right, like I had Kang Heewon as an old friend. I’d forgotten that Eungyu could have had one too… -_-
“Hey, why’d you start singing because of h-”
Right then, someone tapped my shoulder…
"...ㅇ_ㅇ."
I turned around, and then quickly looked foreword.
“…uh, unnie hi? I was wondering if it were you. I saw you yesterday didn’t I?”
“No.”
“…it’s not that. I really need Heewon oppa’s phone number, can you tell me?”
…the atmosphere became cold…
It was the girl I’d seen in the park last night. I quickly grabbed her arm and started to pull her out the café.
“…say it here…”
Eungyu stood up and blocked me.
“…oh, I saw Heewon in the park a few days ago….”
“…why didn’t you tell me…”
“…I-I just- sorry…”
“You met him by chance…right?”
“…yeah…”
“I’m trusting you, I can do that right…?”
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“I can do that…right?”
“…yeah, of course.”
Eungyu let go of my arm and I pulled the girl out the café.
Chapter 60
“Listen well, Heewon’s junior…”
“…can’t you just tell me Heewon’s oppa’s number? I’m in a hurry.”
“I don’t know his number!”
“…what? How can you not know your own boyfriend’s number?”
“He’s not my boyfriend!! You know that guy who was sitting in front of me?! THAT’S my boyfriend!!!”
“TT_TT….”
“He’s my boyfriend, got it?!”
“Then what about Heewon oppa?!”
“Why are you asking me that?!”
“Heewon oppa hasn’t come to school in 2 days…”
“…yea…? I guess he’s sick, go visit him at his house. He doesn’t like sesame porridge, so don’t get him that.”
“He doesn’t open the door!!”
“I’m going to tell you your boyfriend that you like Heewon… <_<…”
The girl flinched and stared up at me with wide eyes…
“I don’t like him!”
“…I don’t know why I’m talking about this with you. Move.”
I left the skinny girl behind and went back into the café. When I walked back to my seat, Nari was the only one left.
“….where’s Eungyu…?”
“He left out the back door.”
“Why…? Is he mad at me…?”
Well that’s obvious isn’t it…? <_<…
“Unnie, you’re bad. Treat Eungyu oppa right, don’t hurt him!”
Nari said standing up and yelling, with her two fists clenched…
“What’s up with you?”
“Why do you think oppa’s trying so hard to with that competition?! And while he’s working so hard…you meet another guy behind his back….
“…you-”
“The only reason I’m quietly liking oppa by myself is because I want him to sing happy songs!!! But if you keep hurting him, I might just change my mind!”
“O-okay~! I’m sorry, happy?!”
Nari bolted out the café, oh my God. Did I do something that bad? I asked myself, scratching my head. Sighing deeply, I headed home. Let’s try walking in his shoes…
If Eungyu met Yoona without me knowing…?
Wow, I’d be pissed…
I guess I just have to think of a way to make up to him. I’m going to tell him everything that happens from now on. Because he’s my boyfriend…
I kissed my necklace as I headed home. But before I reached home, I walked into a bakery close by and bought three slices of cheesecake for Eungyu. Sohyun unnie will probably take two slices for herself… -_-
What should I buy him the day of the competition?
As I walked into our neighborhood, my walking started to speed up. It’d be easier if Eungyu smiles at me…
Near my house, I two people behind a car and I realized it was Sohyun unnie and my brother Jaegwang hugging tightly. Oh, I can hear Pupu meowing at them to let her breath also.
“Meow~~”
Tch, my brother must be good looking or have some kind of charm to have got someone four years older to like him. I passed them, pretending as if I hadn’t seen them.
Wait…we won’t get married to the same house will we?!
Oh please no!! No!!!
+Ting-ting-ting-a-ling Ting-ting-ting-a-ling+
Eungyu’s house had a weird doorbell….
“Who is it?!”
…it was a scratchy voice belonging to a girl. I saw sohyung unnie earlier, am I at the wrong house? To make sure this was Eungyu’s house, I looked at the nameplate the side of the gate. No, this is Eungyu’s house.”
“I asked, who is this.”
“I’m their daughter0-in-law!!!”
“What?!”
The door quickly opened. The first thing I saw was a white towel around the girl’s head and a large white body wrapped around her body. With a darkish tanned face, the girl poked her head out.
…what the…
Is she a mix…?
Her eyes had a very big crease over them, and under the crease were two large eyes. Her eyebrows had a perfect arch to them, almost intimidating. Her lips were dark red, and her forehead had a nice arch.
The important thing was…
She was taller than me, and skinny…
<_<
It seemed as if she was mixed with a dark skinned person from another country and one form our country. That’s the only thing I can think of…
“Their daughter-in-law?! Who the hell are you?!”
“Well than who are you to come out of their house dressed like that? Get out of Eungyu’s house!”
“…Eungyu…? Are you Eungyu’s girlfriend?!”
“Yeah, I am, then who the hell are you?!”
“…<_< …”
The girl parted her lips distastefully and holding onto my shoulders, Darky looked me over. Annoyed, I tried shoving her away, she didn’t budge though… <_<.
Dammit…