| Well, I made it another year almost. I will be 25 years old this Saturday Sept. 27th. It's been a very bumpy ride this year. The journal entry I wrote on the 27th of last year was way more optimistic than this one will be. I really feeled great then and I'd love to get back to that. I'm improving on how I felt not so long ago though. Things are getting better, and I'm getting stronger on the inside again. I still haven't found the right medication for me, but I'm still looking. I'm even tempted to face life without medication again. I don't like the way the antidepressants make me feel. I still experience the lows, but it kinda numbs me so I don't experience the highs anymore. I'd rather feel good and bad than just bad. That makes sense, right? I wish I had better news to report, but things have stayed the same for a while now. Dan is still working at Wal Mart and I'm still going to counseling and trying to figure things out. I'm making progress though and even though I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel just yet, I feel like it's not too far away. So Happy Birthday to me! I hope I make it to the next one in one piece. |