| I was thinking the other day about high school and I was terrified to realize that it's been over 6 years since I graduated. I can't believe it. It seems like it was just yesterday. The scarier part, however, was when I realized that I only have 4 years until a likely 10 year reunion. I'm not ready for that! I haven't done enough yet. I don't have a great job to brag about or pictures of kids to show off. I do have a wonderful husband, but I want to be able to walk in with my head held high. I know, 4 years is a lot of time, but it doesn't seem like it. I lost weight my senior year of high school, so when I graduated, I looked better than I ever have. After I got married, I gained it back. I don't want to look worse than I did when I graduated. I want to look better. Maybe I should quit worrying about what people in school think. Maybe I should just be happy to have what I have and not worry whether anybody else has it better or worse. I know that's what I should do, but it's so hard to reprogram your brain to think differently. I just thought that I'd have a whole lot more accomplished by now. Oh well, I guess I just have to kick butt for the next 4 years. |