Series: Outlaw Star
Author: Peach Blossom Faerie
Pairing: Fred + Gene (one sided)
Rating: PG
Warning: OOC, mild angst.
Disclaimer: Set directly after the events in "The Strongest Woman in the World." Outlaw Star does not belong to me - if it did, the glaring plot holes would be cemented, and Gene would wise up and get with Fred!
Used Again.
I shouldn't have done that, is my first thought as I put the phone back in its cradle. Once more I have pandered to Gene, and let him walk all over me - but I can't help it, he needed me and I can't find it in myself to refuse, well not for very long anyway.
The only reason he ever comes to me is to get money and this visit had been no exception. When I informed him that a favour would be required this time, he hurt me with his words, and I just laughed them off as if my heart wasn't breaking.
How dare he assume that I wanted sex in return for money, he is not a whore and I would not cheapen my feelings for him by demeaning him in such a way. I know he doesn't feel like that for me, but there was no need for him to sound so repulsed at the idea, like I'm some sort of hideous creature, beneath his notice until it suits him.
I would very much like to hate him, and for all accounts I should - all I am to him is a bank that gives him an unlimited overdraft, interest free.
I had wrestled with my conscience, and found that I could not deny him what he wanted, he had taken on the job for me, he had dressed in drag to do so - for a proud man like Gene that took real guts; and so I decided that I had to retract what I had told him, he had after all done his best.
It hurt when he answered the phone with a curt, "oh - it's you". At that cold voice, I had wanted to hang up the phone and cry - but with my ever determined fiancee lying in the bed next to mine, I could not afford to embaress the Luo family any more by shedding tears; my father tolerates my feelings for Gene, but should they drive the strong woman away, he would most likely disown me - after I had paid Gene's tab with my own money of course - after all, business is business.
So now I lay here, as Gene goes off on this mad quest to the Galaxtic Layline, and I wonder how long it will be until I see him again,and I wonder if it will be the last I see of him, for once he has the fabled treasure at the Layline, he will pay off his debts and have no use for me.
Pitiful really, I hope that he finds nothing - so long as he doesn't, he will always need me and I never want that to change.
OWARI.
